The Code of Intimacy

Chapter 7

Cherry’s POV

I’m not sure how the night ended yesterday. I didn’t even know how I was able to sleep nor did I even sleep at all. All I could think about was him. My body reacted before I could process everything that was why at 4 in the morning, I was staring at the wall and trying to think about what happened.

I unconsciously agreed to him, right? I mean, my mind was fogged with something I was never familiar with and my mount just agreed to whatever he wanted to happen. I could remember him directly saying he wanted me, or was it just ‘like’? I was not quite sure.

I gripped a handful of my hair and pulled on them when it sank in. it was stupid. I was stupid. I hit my head trying to punish my foolish self for the reckless thing I did.

I actually spent almost the whole night thinking of him and how he made me feel. My body felt comfort somehow at his touches. It was the kind of heat I’ve never felt before. The kind of good I never imagined I could experience since I was having Aphenphosmphobia. It was a condition I had since I was a little kid due to a trauma. Since then, I despised touches or being touched. The simple act of having physical contact or bumping into another being makes me have panic attacks which include a rapid heartbeat, difficulty breathing, tingling or numbness in the hands or fingers, excessive sweating, chills, feeling a loss of control, and chest pain.

It was never a nice thing to have. I had therapy going on for years now and so far I could tolerate touches at a minimum number of times for like 5 seconds before panic attacks, and that would count in contact with my close friends. I could also have someone touch my hand and elbow but not the hug and kisses, it was weird also to have someone hug me from the back to be the worst of them all.

I really wanted to overcome my fear but my body also had it muscle memory active. It was difficult but then I’ve learned to live with it.

That was why I was wondering how could my body tolerate last night. I could still feel him on my skin. His hands crawling up and feeling me while I could feel up the heat from another human being. It was a magic to have forgotten what I have feared the most all of my life. And what more was that I could feel myself getting used to him being that close. I could even get addicted. I might have series of unexpected trembling and other symptoms but it was better than what I had before.

Wha—

I jumped from my position when I hard knocking on my door.

“Are you awake, Apple?”, his voice was deep and powerful that it was like he was just talking from beside me and the door was nonexistent.

I placed my palm on my chest to calm my heart which was beating heard like footsteps on a hard wood floor. It took several deep breathes to ease my nervousness.

“Y-Yeah”, I bit my lower lip and lightly slapped my mouth with my cold hand two times for sounding so stupid. I cleared my throat and stood letting my bare foot hit the floor. I slowly strode across the room and reached for the handle of the door. Carefully twisting the knob and pulling it open, I saw him standing there with his powerful being.

His black slacks and white long formal sleeves fitted perfectly on his perfect sculpted body. He was having his black coat over his shoulders and he looked like he was ready to walk on the runway. I pulled in my breath with his appearance. It made my heart beat faster.

“I want to ask if you like what you see, just like those lines on the stupid novels but since I know for sure that you do, I’ll just let you stare more. What do you think, Apple?”, his grin grew wider every second and that brought a terrible blush on my face. I looked down trying to hide it.

“Don’t pout”, he said.

“What do you need?”, I asked pretending his presence was nothing but I knew I was failing awfully because I couldn’t even look at him in the eye so I settled my eyes on the span of his chest. But I knew he was not having any of it. He moved closer that his chest zoomed in too much. I gasped at an inch space between him and me.

“You”

“What?”, my eyes widened and I took a step back. He chuckled and forced a step forward, closing in every space I made.

“Don’t come near me. You’re so close”, I whispered but I knew he heard me because I heard him laughed sexily.

“What?”, he asked innocently. “I wanted to be close to you. I wanted to invade any personal space that you have and call it my territory. Mine”, the hoarseness in his voice made me tremble.

“Please… Stop playing games”, I felt the bed at the back of my knees. Dead end.

“Uh-uh. I like games and you know what, this is the best game of all I’ve ever had. I love and hate the way you flinch twitch and even the way you melt under my touches at the same time. It’s too addictive”, he raised his hand to my face but not touching it.

Slowly, I could feel my eyes close tightly. Pain in my chest started to burst and crawl in.

Oh God.

“Even the way you look afraid of me made me hate it and crave it at the same time. It’s getting me crazy. And do you know what makes me crazy even more?”, his breath landed on my face. Close to the side of my face until it reached my ear and down to the side of my neck. I heard something rustled. His coat must have fallen on the floor.

“My lips on every inch of you”, he kissed my neck which made me shivered.

“I couldn’t wait any longer to taste you. All of you. Please pray to God every night to give me strength to restrain myself”, his tongue ran across my throat making my knees weak and I would have fallen if not for his arm securely wrapped at my back, holding me close.

“S-Stop”, I whispered again but it came out as a moan. f**k!

“You’re smell so sweet”, he dragged out of his mouth as they worked on the skin where my shoulder and neck meets.

After a minute, he moved away but still close to me. I was lost again. I let him touch me again. I thought I would have an attack but a different thing attacked me this time. His lips. His senses.

He held us locked into each other and said, “Dress up, baby. We’re going out before I decide I don’t want to anymore and lose millions”, he chuckled and sat down on my bed after picking his coat while I stumbled running quickly to escape onto the bathroom but not before his fresh laughter reached my ear.

“So f*****g adorable”, I heard him said.