BLACK SHEEP

DRAMA BEGAN

N O V E M B E R

2016

"Mae, don't. You can't cut yourself! Don't do it." Sue said as she held my shoulders. "What do you think you are doing? You cannot be like this. Snap out of it!"

"Mae, what happened?.. Tell us. Stop crying and don't touch that!" Aldine said as she took the blade slowly away from my hand.

Everybody gathered towards me and trying to figure our what was wrong with me.

EARLIER DAYS.

"So how was school?" Aaron chatted.

"Boring, but the subjects are easy except Math."

"You know, you're my girlfriend right? I still havent knew where you are located. I'm at Hawaii."

"Philippines."

"So.. We are in a long distance relationship then? Huh... Well as long as i love you." Aaron chatted.

So yes, I live in the Philippines. Where? Bacolod.

Everything is better here.

Being with Aaron changed how was i supposed to be, i became stupid and wasn't really trying to be me anymore.

Little did i know it was affecting my friendships aswell.

But Lenny and Christen weren't noticing it.

Unlike Aldine and Sue.

Sue is my other soulmate. She knew exactly how i was and what i do. We always chatted 24/7 in my main account and we call eachother, Mae Chan and Sue San.

Yep, Perks of being an anime lover. We were more best friends than Christen because Christen could never have the vibe i have in my soul.

Sue didn't know i had a boyfriend but she went with me when i wasn't acting right at all. Sue would always ask if i was okay and what's wrong but i could never tell her.

Aldine walks with me to the cafeteria and the bathroom but she started noticing that i wasn't jolly anymore nor talking like Mae, Mae. So she was just patient around me.

I was also not hanging out with Lenny and Christen anymore, not having lunch with Jace and his grandmom, everything went away just as soon i was addicted to Aaron, how roleplay was important to me, how good love is.

I immediately shut down myself not knowing everyone was affected.

I also stopped talking to Sue and Aldine because of this.

The DRAMA begins.

2 WEEKS LATER

Aaron started being distant. Why? I would never accept his video calls nor give him pictures because i already sent it all.

He was desperate. I make excuses and excuses not too until he said..

"Look, i think i'm going to die.. can i please.. see you?" He chatted.

"I can't. I haven't bought a phone yet."

"Fine.. but just know that i'm dying.. I have cancer.. and i wish i could see you."

"I promise i would call you, i'll find a way."

Our chat ended right there.

But the next morning, his mom... chatted me that..

"Aaron passed away."

I immediately had the feeling of a break down, my first breakdown, where i was crying in the bathroom thinking to myself, does roleplay do this? Does catfish do that? I couldn't answer to myself.

Did Aaron really die?

So, i was also the type of person who likes drama movies where relationships who ended badly just.. cuts themselves, or be broken, or be numb and be all a shitty person. It's like i felt i'm creating a movie but little did i know? I was really feeling that way. I loved Aaron, but now he's gone.. I didn't really know what to feel.

Should i just have been... real?

I learned one thing there.. Is being true to yourself.

I brought a blade to school, I arrivee at lunch time and i sat on my seat in the classroom looking exactly pale. I didn't even take a shower but trust me i still smell good.

Lenny saw me and walked towards me.

"You were absent this morning, why?" He asked.

"Please don't talk to me." I said and just laid down.

Lenny saw the blade underneath my arm because it was sticking out but he didn't know what to do so he walked away.

I cried. I sat on the corner of the classroom and was holding the blade and i accidentally cutted my wrists and when that happened? Sue saw me and she walked towards me there she saw blood coming out my wrist.

"Mae?!" She shouted and held me. "What the hell happened?" Sue asked.

"He died." I said

Aldine then arrived and also went towards me.

I also wanted to purposely cut myself. So i pointed the blade below the cutted area, the cutted area wasn't deep, it was just like a s***h

"Mae, don't. You can't cut yourself! Don't do it." Sue said as she held my shoulders. "What do you think you are doing? You cannot be like this. Snap out of it!"

"Mae, what happened?.. Tell us. Stop crying and don't touch that!" Aldine said as she took the blade slowly away from my hand.

Everybody gathered towards me and trying to figure out what was wrong with me.

Everybody asked what happened to me.

Then i said. "Aaron died, Sue." I said

"Aaron? Who's Aaron?" Sue asked as she hugged me.

"My boyfriend."

Everybody's eyes wide as they started gossiping.

Mae has a boyfriend. Mae is a suicidal. MAE IS CRAZY.

Lenny and Christen were watching but didn't try to come near me, maybe they were confused.

I was like that for exactly 3 days.

Bringing a blade to school, wrapping bandages on my wrists thinking that i did cut myself, when i didn't.

It's just i felt like i had slashes all over my wrists.

Everybody believed it. Fake Bandages because i was scared to even hurt myself even if i wanted too.

But the pain was real. I loved Aaron, he was my first love.

Sue kept telling me that it was okay, he had Cancer. It was not my fault he had one but it was my fault that i didn't say the truth when obviously people shouldn't do something like that.

Sue and Aldine made sure i was okay and Aldine kept taking my blades and throwing it. "You don't have to do this." Aldine said as she sighed.

The Drama spread out the entire school, and everybody knew who i was.

Everytime i would walked through the hallways they would look at me and would start gossiping.

I really didn't become popular in a good way, but in a worse way.

That night, i recieved a message from someone.

Aaron's boy bestie.

"So, when are you planning on seeing Aaron?" He chatted with a eyeglasses emoji.

"Isn't he dead?" I asked.

"Bruh. He too young to die." He said.

My eyes widen and my heart immediately just broke into more pieces.

Was it all roleplay? Was it real? What the f**k is happening?!

I said. "What the f**k?"

"So when?" He asked.

"He told me he had cancer and he died." I said.

"Bruh, he was at school earlier and told me that he misses you but he can't see you anymore but wouldn't tell me why."

"So all of that was fake?"

"What are you talking about, Rave?" He said.

"Nothing..."

I was speechless, I made drama in school because i thought the first love of mine died.

I became a lil popular because of this but i couldn't tell Sue and Aldine this... They would just laught at me.

So i... continued the drama in school.

Everybody was still looking at me.

Some felt bad. Some laugh.

I was really the talk of the school.

Suddenly people asked why would i cut my wrists for a guy?

Some people asked why i did it?...

I kept quiet and the pain is even painful than before because i have been scammed. I was very numb.

I was sitting on my seat staring at the ground blankly.

Lenny then sat beside my seat. "Have lunch with us...we kind of missed the noodle cafe."

I looked at him and just nodded. Lenny then walked away and i opened my phone re reading me and Aaron's messages, our roleplays.

I sighed. "Why did you have to do this? Now i am a shitty person in this school. Thanks to you."