Dirty Dawg!

Chapter 3

❝︎Jordan was not welcome in my heart. Not after he had broken it! ❞︎

New York, New York

Flashback....

"Lanie take a look at this" Jordan says as he slaps down a magazine article from the magazine called Bop.

I glance down. There on the cover was Jordan with his bandmates. And my outfits were also on the cover.

I squeal joyfully as I grab the issue. I could hardly believe it. My outfits were on my favorite band. And I was on Bop! I made it! This did not seem real! I shake my head. I could not believe it. I could not wait to share this with Vanessa.

She was going to be thrilled. I look down to read the article. When I glance down, I notice something. A statement was made by Sadie. She was taking all the claim for the designs. Saying she was behind it all.

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"Ah no" I stammer. "No!" I exclaim as I sit up in bed.

"What?" Jordan asks me looking confused.

I point to Sadie's name. "She did not come up with these on her own! I did! Then we worked together to make them! This b***h is taking my credit! For my work!" I snap. I was furious! How dare she! And Katrina how could she fall for Sadie's lies!

"Well I can talk to the magazine and have them do a retraction on the piece" offers Jordan.

I sigh. "Everyone, saw this. No one will care" I pout.

Jordan puts his arms around me.

"I care" he tells me.

He nibbles kisses on the side of my neck.

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"Only you do" I huff out.

"So what? These pieces are great and when Sadie needs another idea do not give her one" Jordan tells me. "Then she will be out of luck the next round"

"Katrina expects us to get along. Work together as her team" I mutter. "that is not teamwork"

Jordan shakes his head. "Fashion is complicated" laughs Jordan.

"Tell me about it" I sigh.

Tears come to me.

"Sweetheart don't cry. Don't ruin what time we have together by crying" he begs me.

I brush back tears. "I am sorry" I sniff back tears then wipe my tears on my sleeve.

"Want me to go public with us?" he offers. "They will all take notice of you then" he teases.

"No Jordan no" I warn him. "then I will be out of work. Katrina will fire me" I warn him.

"But you are an intern you do not work for her yet" he reminds me.

I smile. "But I want to" I say. "and I can't be dating you when I work for you"

"Damn!" he sighs.

"It is very sweet of you to offer" I say as I wrap my arms around him and kiss him.

"Want to do something before you have to go?" he asks with a wink. I feel his erection rise in his pants for me as he holds me closer to his body. His long jet-black hair dangles in his right eye as he smiles at me.

"Jordan I am sorry. I would love to, but I am still a little sore. How long will this feeling last?" I worry.

"Why didn't you tell me you were a virgin last night?" he questions me.

I shrug. "It did not seem important. I just was in the moment. Sorry" I sheepishly answer.

"I am proud to be your first. But you are so sexy. How have you been single and a virgin for this long?" he wants to know.

I smile as I look him in his velvet brown eyes. "Well I just was waiting. I mean there was no lame brain football player I had wanted to give it up to at the time so he could brag about banging me in the locker room the next day" I joke.

Jordan chuckles. "Point taken" he laughs.

He kisses me on the lips. "I can now say Jordan Knight was my first" I say after we kiss.

He smiles. "Mmm, yes you can baby" he agrees.

End Of Flashback....

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I wince as flash backs haunted me day in and day out since I found out Jordan was going to be in my life again. I sit by my bedroom window and sketch ideas in my book for outfits. I get a call from Sadie on the phone. I wondered what she wanted? I let her call go to my voicemail. She had nothing to say to me outside of work.

I really was not in the mood to hear from her.

I play her voicemail. "Hey there Lanie, I wanted to touch base with you about this trip. We both have men now in our lives. As you know I am getting married next year. And I wanted to make sure we keep our past in the past. I know we said at work we would. But it can be harder than we think to keep all the skeletons in the closet as one says. I wanted to talk. Please call me back when you find the time. Thanks Bye" Sadie says.

That was cool of her. But I still would never trust that woman as long as I lived. I never would. Not after all the mean cruel hearted things she had done to me in the past. I call Sadie back. Get this phone call over with. I might as well humor her and hear what she had to say to me.

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"Hi" she answers.

"Hey" I reply.

"Did you get my message?" she asks me.

"Yes, I got it. I will not bring up Jordan. I don't want to" I remind her. "I am with Blake"

"I know but I know how things can change in the blink of an eye" she points out. "we work for Katrina now. We are not silly interns. I would hate to see you lose your job over a man" she says. "as much as I hate to admit it you have a lot of talent" she tells me.

"Thanks" I mutter.

"I had a silly little crush on Jordan, and I let things get to far back then. I am over all that" she tells me. "I my fiancé will be meeting up with us sometimes. I do not want him to know about my past with Jordan"

"You did not tell him? Funny Blake knows about my past with him" I laugh.

"I just don't want to that is all" she mutters. "Okay?"

"Fine" I sigh. "are we done?"

"Are you going to tell Jordan about the baby you two lost?" she wonders.

I wince. "No why bring up something that painful?" I ask her. "not like he would care to know. We were both young and stupid. We all were"

Sadie had been there at the time I miscarried. She took me to the hospital and found I had been having Jordan's baby. She knew I lost his baby. She swore to me she would never tell. But I did not trust Sadie. She could tell him in the blink of an eye if she thought it would benefit her in some way.

"Maybe you should tell him" she says softly. "this could give you all closure"

"No, thanks" I say. "I have moved on with Blake. I am sure Jordan will not even remember my name once he sees me" I scoff.

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Soon we hang up. I sigh feeling a bit unsettled by that whole conversation.

Blake comes in. "Guess what baby?"

"What?" I ask.

"I have a piece that will be featured in the new art show" he brags joyfully.

"Blake I am so proud of you! That is wonderful" I say as I rush to his side. We hug. I plant a kiss on his lips.

"Thanks, and I hope you can come to see me in the show" he says hopefully. "They are having a wine testing. Fancy cheese and all that garbage you love. You could you know invite Katrina" he offers.

"When is it?" I ask.

"Next Friday" he tells me.

I wince. "Sweetheart I leave out next Tuesday" I sigh. "I am going to miss it"

His face falls. "Oh yeah" he grumbles.

"I will have Veronica go tag along. And take a million photos. You know what Katrina loves art events. I will invite her to" I offer. "Maybe she can help with your artwork" I say. I wrap my arms around his neck. He kisses me.

"Thanks baby. I wish you could be there" he wistfully says.

"Me to. But thanks for supporting me on this. I know you do not like it" I tell him.

He nods. "I trust you. I know you will not cheat on me while we are apart" he answers. "You are not the cheating kind"

"No, I never would" I agree.

I run my fingers in his hair. "I love you Blake"

"I love you to baby" he answers me.

Veronica comes home. We tell her the big news about Blakes up coming art show. She promises that she will take a million photos for me. I hated to miss his big show. I still wanted to show I supported him. Like he was supporting me. But how?

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