Staring at my phone for probably ten minutes, I was deciding whether to call or text Howard. Giving him false hope wasn’t right; I should have declined his proposition right from the get-go. Also, with Monique’s revelation, my conscience didn’t allow me to rest well last night. I was feeling extremely guilty because it was in some way disrespecting Luther and our relationship. Why should I even consider waiting for another man, specifically my ex when I was with Luther? What I did was unfair to both men, and I couldn’t be more disappointed with myself.
When I confided to Hazel about that when Brent and Monique left, she was visibly upset with me. She told me Howard was resorting to guilt-tripping because he knew my weakness was my kindness. She also reminded me of what he did, therefore
