Natalie
Why didn't I try harder to make Noah stay with me inside the office?
Now he is on a date with Lexie, probably laughing and drinking wine. Lexie will probably fall for Noah because who can't help but get sucked into those ocean eyes?
I hug my arms to my body. My chest feels like it is on fire, and my heart and brain are on a pendulum of anger and grief. Part of me wants to scream and fight, but there is human fear. It keeps me from playing all my cards and saying too much.
I wish humans didn't have a block like that, then I could tell Noah everything without being afraid.
Downing a massive glass of water, I try to focus on someone else other than Noah, but he is like a spreading infection.
I can't think.
I can't eat.
I can't sleep.
Not without hearing his laughter, dreaming
