CONNOR'S LITTLE SECRET
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Connor's actually here. Right in the front row of the classroom. Well, of course he is why would he not be here when he has to take this exam too?
I guess I was kind of hoping to not see him today. What we did last night can't remain a fantasy anymore because of his presence. Seeing him out here in public is reminding me of that. What we did was real!
His gaze is unmoving, completely fixed on the large whiteboard in the front of the classroom. I can't help but notice the skin under his eyes is red and puffy. Like he's been crying since last night but I can't really get a good look because he's not directly facing me.
If I was just another stranger without a second thought then I would have just thought he's laser focused and isn't trying to entertain any distractions right now.
But I'm not.
He's obviously avoiding me. Here I was thinking we both had fond memories of last night and would even create some more. Guess I'm still naive old Jana, craving attention where I'm not welcome.
I catch his eyes on me for just a second. His face doesn't move an inch but I know he was looking at me.His expression changes for a just a second and I could swear he looks almost.. afraid?
Right now is not the time to linger on it so I ignore him as well and make my way towards the back of the classroom. There's an empty seat next to two redheads so I sit down by their left.
They don't seem to be paying attention to me or anything else for that matter. They're completely absorbed in whatever it is that they're talking about. Better for me I guess. This just means I have no distractions before the exam. I'm having this weird feeling that seeing two redheads at once is bad luck or whatever.
We're supposed to start by 10am. It's 10.19 right now. I really want to get out of here and finally get some rest at home but it's going to be a while before we even begin so I take what little sleep I can get by laying my head face down on the desk.
"Did you see Connor's face this morning?" One of the redheads asks her other redhead friend. My head almost snaps up from the shock of hearing Connor's name from her mouth. I really shouldn't care who say what about Connor but I can't help myself. I need to know what they're talking about.
"It's hard to miss. Let me guess; Valerie did something to him again?" Valerie?? Did what again? What kind of relationship do her and Connor have?
Oh my God. Please don't let them say her and Connor have been hooking up. Sharing Derek with her is nasty enough but Connor will send me over the edge.
Shit.
Shit
Shit!
Why is this happening to me?
I'm so disgusted I start gagging with my head still on the desk. Either the reds didn't notice or don't care that I'm literally spiralling from their careless gossip because they just continue. But I don't get the chance to hear anything else because the professor walks in and tells us it's time to start.
I hope they'll still be here later so I can finish eavesdropping on their conversation. I will NOT be able to stand the suspense otherwise!
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It's 1 o'clock now and we're all finished. We still have the classroom for one more hour so I stay behind with the remaining few that haven't left by now - the reds are one of them.
"I couldn't stop thinking about what you said earlier Cassie"
Huh. So they have names. Now I know one of the reds is called Cassie.
"Alright. I'll tell you..." Cassie replies.
Yes! Bless you Cassie. You're doing the lord's work right now by exposing Valerie's evil secrets.
"...later tonight" Cassie finishes her sentence.
Fuck you Cassie! Why'd you have to get my hopes up girl?
"You're so full of shit.I really thought you had something to tell me" The other red says angrily.
"Okay okay! Jeez Bridget I was just messing with you" I never noticed the mischievous gleam Cassie's hazel eyes or the gap in her teeth till now. But then again before now I had my head on the desk so I could secretly listen to her so that's probably why.
But now I know Red #2 is called Bridget.
"Whatever"
"Connor's gay" Cassie drops the massive bomb.
It's not even been 24 hours and I'm already on my second mental brekadown of the day. This time I cannot control myself and start coughing violently.
I make sure to look away from the reds whole doing so so they won't be suspicious.
"Uhh need some water girl?" It's Cassie asking me this. The porcelain skin on her smooth forehead wrinkles in confusion. Like she's confused as to why I coughed just now of all times.
She lifts her pink water bottle to offer me something to drink
"No. Thank you. I'm fine" As if on queue I begin coughing again almost immediately.
"You sure?" Her face is now showing traces of worry rather than confusion. Her hazel eyes are completely fixed on me and I suddenly feel really silly for coughing.
"Uhh yeah. D-dont even worry about it. I'm fine" I flash her my best 'please believe this bullshit' smile.
She smiles back at me and puts her water bottle away. Looks like it worked.
"Come on Cassie let's go." Bridget states. As if there's no room for argument.
"What? But I even gotten to the best part yet about Co-" Cassie stops herself mid sentence and looks at me.
I look away and pretend like I wasn't waiting on that information for almost the whole day. Please believe this bullshit you guys.
Bridget just rolls her honey brown eyes like she's used to her friend spilling secrets so casually. She steals glances at me as she's talking to Cassie, examining whether I caught on at all to their little convo earlier.
"Dad's finally back from London. Mom is calling so we can all go to dinner together." She informs her. Now I know that they're sisters.
They pack up their things into their bags and begin getting up from their seats.
"See you later.. uh.." Cassie is trying to tell me goodbye.
"Jana. My name's Jana" I smile softly at her.
"See you later Jana. Hope you feel better" She smiles just as softly if not softer but Bridget interrupts and practically drags her out through the back door.
Great.Now they're gone. Now I have to guess what they could have possibly meant by 'Connor's gay'
Shit
Shit
Shit!
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