The dragon within

12

                ~Joslin~

   My day has started off uneventful which is what I like because a boring day means they are leaving me alone. I can't help but play with my hair and hum the song what doesn't kill you makes you stronger. I know this sounds silly seeing the situation I'm in but I feel stronger today and I've had more words with Malya then I've ever had since she's came forward. That alone has made me feel bolder and then the fact that my mate will be here soon. I don't know why he still wants me after the way he saw me being used but I'd be lying if I said I wasn't relieved he didn't reject me. Instead he kissed me and the memories brought a slight smile to my face. I hear the birds chirping outside my window and the sun is peeking through my window. I breathe in the smell of the woods. It's been 3 days since I've woke up and Leon had brought me food everyday. He truly is amazing. I'm not sure what he's doing he won't tell me just says the less i know the better but I trust him however he always comes in so tired. 

   The door opens and I smell my love getting excited I run over to the bars. I can't wait to see his face and melt under his gaze. I see his black boots coming into view and the rest of his body follows. When my eyes finally reach his face he's smiling and I become a puddle. Nothing else matters in this moment. He puts his hand up to my face and i lean into his hand. We try not to talk because you never know who's listening. I pull him closer to me wanting his body against mine and he obliges me. He leans down to kiss my head  but I look up making him land one right on my lips. He looked surprised which i found the expression on his face satisfying. I'd love to shock him like this everyday possible. I then reach through the bars sliding my arms around his neck and pull him back to me and kiss him again but this time I become eager and demanding. These damn bars are in the way I just wish there was nothing between us and I swear I'd climb all over him. I have never had the urge to do this but I can't control myself. His hands start to roam over my naked body sending a fire deep within me. He stops with his right arm wrapped tightly around my top half and his left arm hugging the small of my back closer to me. I let out a small moan while saying his name. 

   As I'm losing myself to the flames of desire he pulls back with his lips swollen. I look at him confused as to why he stopped. He starts to sway from one foot to the other and says "Joslin I can't do this. If I do I'm no better than the other two"

I know he was trying to be thoughtful but something about it made me snap. I am a big girl and I'd like to be able to choose who I have it to for once so yes I did, I crossed my arms and threw a fit. "You know Leon I know what I'm doing." I begin crying "just for once I wanted to make the decision for myself."

   Leon looks down at the ground guilt all over his face.  "I didn't mean anything by it" he stated "i just wanted our first time to be away from here." 

   I really do feel bad for making him feel guilty about waiting. I've never been one to pursue someone especially about anything intimate. I swore I'd never do that yet here I am. I sigh and look down in shame "I'm sorry I'm just frustrated because let's be honest with ourselves. We're not even sure if I'm getting out of here i just wanted you to myself even if it's just this once" i feel the tears rolling down my cheeks and I feel his thumb weeping them away. I'm now in a sitting position when I hear the door unlock. I look up in complete and utter shock. There's no barrier in between us and I jump into his arms kissing him where ever my lips land. He let's out a small moan which I hold it dear. He picks me up and I throw my legs around him holding on never wanting to let go. I then attack his lips once more as he begins laying me down on the bed. He begins to ivory his pants and asks if I'm sure with his eyes and i nod eagerly. It's not she or not I want him i need this man. 

   He let's his pants drop too his feet and what I saw astonished me. I know my mate is an omega but that doesn't bother me however most Omegas... well I've heard their member is on the smaller side. Leon on the other hand I would dare to say he was massive. My eyes grew as i realize he is so much bigger than Stephen or Gage. I grab his shirt pulling him on top of me and he chuckles with nervousness. "This is my first time" He says. "I'm not denying you I'm just nervous and want to take everything in." I feel horrible knowing he's only losing this because of me. I'm no better than the men who made me this. I feel a stray tear slide down my cheek and he brushes it away along with any negative thoughts. His body is now over me and his member is at my entrance. 

   He kisses my lips and down my neck and I'm becoming wet from the anticipation. Man he feels amazing. He starts to slowly enter passed my lower lips and I'm now glad he went slow seeing as how he's so big. He slowly starts moving his hips, thrusting himself in and out. No words are said we just stare into each other's eyes as he's bringing himself in and out. 

   He pauses for just a moment to whisper in my ear "I love you Joslin" 

   I feel a few tears slide down my cheek. No one has ever treated me this way so I inform him "Leon West you have my heart." With these words I feel myself getting ready to let go of myself. I've never let myself go willingly. I arch my back up towards his chest and that's when it happened. As my walls clenched down I felt my whole being thrown into a state of ecstacy and his body began to shake. I then felt him release his hot seed coat my walls and our juices began to mix and he kissed the top of my head. 

   I smiled up at him so happy I got to experience this with him at least once. Whatever happens now either way i can die happy. He pulls his pants back on but something isn't right. I place my hand on the back of his shoulder and he falls to the ground. I feel a panic start to rise as i watch him hold his chest. What is happening!?! I can't call it because he will surely be caught. He's now on the floor curled up in a fetal position. And I'm rubbing circles on his back hoping it helps a little. Then something strange happens. 

   I start to feel a warm sensation enveloping my chest and I hold Leon closer getting scared. I can feel his body loosen up a bit so I'm assuming the pain is subsiding for him but it is only intensifying for me. He sits up and comforts me the same way and begins to talk. "Im sorry my love I didn't know it was going to hurt you" He pauses for a minute but I can't talk because of the pain but he continues. "I'm the last dragon and I have no one to ask the advise of since there are no more around but what's happening now is once a dragon finds their mate they give them their heart. I didn't know it meant literally"

   "The pain is now starting to fade and it's strange because I can feel exactly how he feels. There is true remorse for putting me through pain. I reach my hand up and touch his cheek. Don't ever be sorry id go through it a hundred times over if it meant I got this one moment. He then kissed me once more however this time it was harder than his normal but not brutal, it was passionate but not demanding and i kissed him back with just as much passion. 

   When we pulled away Leon got up to leave and I felt how much he didn't want to go. "My love I'm not sure what will happen everyone I've talked to only said a dragon gives his heart so from their on or we're on our own. I will see you soon as i can't be late." He kisses my head and says "until we meet again" leaving the gate open. If I ran i don't think he'd put up a fight but I don't want him getting into trouble so I pull it shut.  As he's walking out the door i whisper an "I love you" but I know he couldn't hear it... or so I thought until I felt a warm embrace take over my mind and I knew it was him.