That's My Best friend

17

"I feel like I barely see you lately." Amy said as I sat with her and Liz at lunch.

It’s been a month since I handed in my resignation at work and I now spent most of my days doing research, having conversations with myself and finding out what I want for my career.

My relationship was better than ever, sure Hudson and I have had small arguments here and there but we always talk it out and end up naked on the kitchen counter, bathroom, bed or the sofa.

"Right! I mean she and Hudson barely make it to family dinners or lunches now." Liz said, "Reminds me of when André and I first started dating, the outside world seized to exist."

"It's not even that." I answered taking a sip of my mimosa, "I've just been caught up in finding what I want to do next."

"How's that going?" Amy asked.

"I don't know, nothing is jumping out at me." I shrugged, "Enough about me, what's going on with you two?"

"I decided to slowly get back into modeling again, I have a shoot with Harpers Bazaar later this month." Liz answered with a grin, "I'm so excited, it feels good to get back in again."

"That's great!" I exclaimed.

"Of course it is, it means we get free clothes." Amy said and we laughed.

"And what's going on with you and Sam?" Liz asked her about her prom date.

"Yeah, that didn't work out at all." Amy said with a flip of her hair.

"What happened?" I enquired leaning closer.

She eyed Liz and I cautiously then sighed, "I slept with José."

"Who's José?" I asked brows raised just as Liz choked on her drink and shouted "Shut the f**k up!"

Only then did it sink in that she was talking about my brother José, the one who is 9 years older than her José. I sat back shocked, mouth agape and no words coming out. I suddenly remembered the heated looks between the two, the hostility, how José acted the day Amy went to prom.

"How… I… Wow!" Liz stuttered and slumped back into her chair.

"It happened two weeks ago, I had been out at the Burger Shack with Sam and José walked in and then got into an argument with me, Sam left, I was stranded, he drove me home and there was no one there, one thing led to another and well… It had been building for a while, I've always had a crush on him but he kept pushing me away, reminding me of our age difference. " Amy explained but I honestly had no words."I'm almost 19." she defended as Liz and I sat silently.

"Amy honey, we aren't judging. We're just bloody shocked." Liz said and I burst out laughing, "I can't even think about Hudson would react to this."

"You can't tell him!" She practically shouted and I raised my hands, "Relax Amy, I won't say a word, I promise." And I meant it, this was not my definitely not my secret to tell.

Liz got up saying that she was going to the bathroom and left Amy and I sitting there.

"So what happens now?" I asked her.

She shrugged, "I've sort of being avoiding him so I don't know."

I sat back and was still trying to process through everything that I'd just heard over the passed 5 minutes when Liz came back.

"Does any one of you have a tampon?" she asked standing at the table.

"I think I may have one." I said leaning down to my handbag then suddenly froze and started calculating in my head and also started realizing that Hudson and I have never used a condom that’s when I also realised that my period was at least three weeks late.

"Kat?" Liz waved her hand in my face. "What's wrong?"

"I'm late and I'm never ever late." I responded numbly.

"Oh fuck." Amy whispered.

I got up and rushed out of the restaurant. Liz and Amy followed shortly after me and said nothing as I rushed to the drug store across the street.

I bought 5 different pregnancy tests then hopped into Liz's car as she drove us to her house. I couldn't sit still as I kept thinking about how reckless and stupid I have been. I'm not even ready for a baby, I'm unemployed for God's sake, sure I have a trust fund the size of Texas but still!

We eventually got to the house and I rushed into the bathroom and peed on the stupid sticks.

After Amy had set the timer for 5 minutes and none of us moved when it beeped. We stood staring intelty at the sticks on the counter but no one leaning over to check what was on them.

"Go look Amy." Liz said nudging her forward but Amy jumped back "No, you go."

"This is ridiculous! They're not snakes." Liz murmured, took a deep breath then leaned over and gasped.

I walked forward and was met with 5 positive sticks staring back at me. I sat down on the toilet seat and began freaking out. "Oh my gosh!"

“Calm down Kat.” Liz said as I was tugging on my hair, feeling like I can’t breathe. “It’s all going to be okay.”

“How is it going to be okay Liz? I’m pregnant! My dad’s going to freak out and Hudson. Oh my God Hudson” I groaned then buried my face in my hands.

“You need to put on your big girl panties Kat and march over to that apartment and tell him that you’re pregnant, if he doesn’t want it, then tough for him because you’re going to be okay and you’re going to to keep the baby right?” Amy said kneeling in front of me.

“Yes! Yes I’m going to keep the baby” I took a deep breath then stood up, “I’m going to tell him tonight.”

“Atta girl!” Liz cheered and I smiled at her then left her house and used the subway to get home. I walked all the way from the sub station to my apartment and used that time to think.

I knew without a doubt that I was keeping the baby even if Hudson wanted no part in it. I also knew that if he didn’t want this baby that it would mean the end of our friendship and relationship, there’s no going back from this whole mess of a situation.

I entered the apartment and was surprised to find Hudson sitting on the sofa because he was supposed to be at a golf thing with my dad and his with a few clients.

“You’re home early” I remarked when I sat next to him.

“Yeah, I left the golf course earlier than expected.” He cleared his throat and tugged at his golf shirt.

I decided that I had to tell him about the pregnancy before I chickened out so I put on my big girl panties and started talking.

“I have to tell you something” I said fidgeting with my hands.

He sighed then took my hands in his. “I have to tell you something too but can I go first?” He asked and I nodded.

He sighed again and I noticed how nervous he looked and how sweaty his palms were in my hands, he breathed deeply then said.

“This being your boyfriend thing isn’t good enough for me anymore,” he said confidently and my heart completely broke and I blinked back the tears that threatened to spill.

“What?” I asked stupidly and his brows furrowed like he was in deep thought , “I don’t want to be your boyfriend anymore, I-“ he went on to say but I cut him off by pulling my hands from his then grabbed my purse and ran out of the apartment, ignoring his calls for me to come back.

He was breaking up with me and I was so hurt! Screw him, I thought bitterly to myself. What the hell were we thinking ruining our friendship by starting a relationship? I should have known that he would eventually get tired of me and I’d end up being nothing but the thousands of girls he had humped then dumped.

He was my best friend for Christ’s sake! I knew what his M.O was, he never stayed with a girl for too long. What the hell made me think that I was any different!? But of course I just happened to be the i***t that not only fell in love with him but fell pregnant too.

Although I was heart broken right now, I couldn’t say that I regretted our relationship because that meant that I wouldn’t be pregnant right now.

I put my hand on my stomach and vowed to be devoted to my baby and protect him/her from the kind of heartbreak I felt right now.