That's A Hell of Many Domibus
1096 Words
Racing out, I jump onto my midnight black Honda Goldwing. Ahh, how I love you. Revving the engine, I fly off. My-46's-house-that-I-call-home-for-this-small-period-of-time, here I come.
Pulling into the two-story brick house, I park my beauty into the white marble shed. No, I'm not loaded, I just choose the first house I see. And it was surrounded by farmland which is a bonus. No forest in sight, so I don't have to see any wolves that might be in this part. As well as no other houses, so I can have privacy cause I don't wanna keep saying to people to mind their own business. It gets annoying after a while.
A hard block stops me from walking any further. Somehow through all those thoughts, I was able to park to hop of my beauty and walk to my garage door that leads to the kitchen. Huh, well that was easy. I thought to myself. Very easy, commented a tiny voice in my head. Uhh, your back. Took you long enough. I thought back. Oh sorry, did ya miss me? I promise to be quicker next time, your royal highness. The voice spoke back. Huh, took ya long enough to recognize who is the queen in this house. I thought with a sassy smirk, somehow that I managed. With that, I quit this 'conversation'.
You might think I'm going crazy. Yes, I do too. I really do need to find a suitable doctor to check me out. Cause I swear, it's not normal to talk to your inner self like this. I call it Crimstone Junior, but everyone else calls it their gut feeling. Ehh who cares, suit themselves, cause they don't know what they're missing. I thought to myself with a smirk.
"Oof, I really should be paying attention to where I'm going," I said out loud to no one in particular. I swear every day, I crash into the same doorway between the lounge room and kitchen and stub my toe. Whoops.
"Yes, you really should." Says a voice from behind me.
Maya.
Spinning around so fast that I might get a concussion, I glance around to nothing. Maya. She's not here, I thought to myself. She will never be here again. Remembering Maya brings tears to me. She is the only one who treated me like a daughter after my mom died. Maya. the names just bring back hateful memories that I wish could just go away and never come back.
That will just stay in the back of my mind, to be never noticed again. Just like I am in this lonely world. I'm alone amongst friends and families. Just the outcast girl, whose parents died. Whose siblings died. Who has no one left? Who could just die and no one would notice. No one would care. Because no one ever does. Well, not anymore I guess. Not anymore.
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But someone still does. With a huff, I lift my head back up that somehow fell through the whole thought. There is something to live for. I promised my mom something. I promised her that I would stay. That I would find someone worth my time and have a family of my own. That I would forget them. I will be happy. That I will make friends. That I will live my life.
"That I won't leave here, and join them up in heaven by force," I replied with a sad sigh. I guess I do have something, well someone to live for. Even though I don't have anything else to live for.
That I will keep this promise, and make my mum happy, even if it's the last thing I do.
Even if it's about time I find a boy in my life, who is worth my attention and stays with me. That I will love with all my might, and not let down.
Yeah, this is going to be hard.
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"The sweet caress of twilight
There's magic everywhere
And with all this romantic atmosphere
Disaster's in the air
Can you feel the love tonight?
The peace the evening brings
The world, for once, in perfect harmony
With all its living things
So many things to tell her
But how to make her see
The truth about my past?
Impossible!
She'd turn away from me
He's holding back, he's hiding
But what, I can't decide
Why won't he be the king I know he is
The king I see inside?
Can you feel the love tonight?
The peace the evening brings
The world, for once, in perfect harmony
With all its living things
Can you feel the love tonight?
You needn't look too far
Stealing through the night's uncertainties
Love is where they are
And if he falls in love tonight
It can be assumed
His carefree days with us are history
In short, our pal is doomed"
I scream the lyrics out, why? Because I love this part of the movie. And yes, don't judge, it's the Lion King. My fav movie, but also the one I cry in the most. Why, why does he have to die. Grabbing more tissues, I wipe my eyes out. WHY???????????????????????????
Stuffing my hand in the bowl, I grab out most of the popcorn in a handful and shove it in my mouth like the greedy pig I am. Letting each flake of goodness melt onto my tongue. Aww, how much I love you popcorn. I'm going to marry you when I grow up, so be prepared to grab a suit. I promise to write down my vows next year.
Okay, don't be a disser. I'm sitting in a crying mess, on my bed, watching the Lion King 1, shouting out the lyrics, and promising to marry popcorn later on in my life. Yeah, bipolar much. But that's just me, so ya got a problem with it, you can get a counsellor who will listen to your Sugar Honey Iced Tea.
Letting out a yarn, I fall back onto all my 101 stuffed teddy bears. And yes, every time I move, I will always take them with me. With that last thought, I let darkness creep into my mind, bring me the only peace and enjoyment, I have left.
- Writer
