All that you deserve

Alone

Katlyn 

“ So I figured my next step?”  I said to my family while sitting at the dinner table. It is Sunday dinner. I love Sunday dinner being with people I love; just the joy I feel while with them makes the hours of preparation worth it. “ Did you hear me” I asked softly when no one acknowledged me.

“Wait, you said something? Seriously Katlyn you must learn to speak up darling” my mother said in her every cynical voice.

“Sorry mom. I said  I know what I wanted to do after I finish my bachelor”

“I really don’t know why you need to go to school anyway. You need to focus on getting married and taking care of our family” that came from my Dad, the patriarch. My Family doesn’t support me going to college, they believe I should marry rich and take care of the family with my husband's money. Not that we need the money anyway, but sometimes my family endeavors can be a little greedy and unfair especially towards me. My brother Kevin gets to go to school so he can take over my father's financial  company. Which is fine with me since I have no interest in finance. My area is science, specially medical science I have yet to decide what area 

I want to specialize in, but I know that I wanted to be a doctor of medicine. “Seriously kitty kat, you need to focus more on your image. Spend some time on your body, you're a little bit weighty  and your hair is just begging me to comb it” my older sister Kris said. “ Seriously Kris I didn’t ask for your opinion.” I replied with a little anger. Kris, has never been the television version of a big sister. We don’t do sisterly things together and we are as different as difference can be. I am all about better myself through hard work, I don’t believe in waiting on hands and feet for a prince to whisk me off to his castle- I will build that dam castle myself. Kris however, is all thing Prince Charming she never worked a day in her life, she is perfectly polish. She is beautiful but her obsession of vanity makes her ugly. I still love her. I love my family. They mean everything to me because that’s what it means to be family. I have learned to take her insults and move on,but sometimes ,like tonight, it hurts. “Watch her voice young lady, seriously who would want to marry a woman who back-talk?” My dad said looking at me with disgust. My dad still lives in the time when wives were obedient little puppies. 

“Apologies Da” I replied looking into his eyes.

He glared at me “ I mean I apologize sir” I stated  looking  away from him. I won’t lower my eyes so I just looked away from him.

My brother clears his throat next to me “ So you were saying?”

“Next month is my last semester and I will have my degree in pre med. I applied to apply to Hanister Medicine school in Georgetown for next spring and I got in! I all but yelled with joy. No one said a word. Kris snickered “as if” I glared at her “excuse me?” She looked at me with a deadly chill and something that looked a lot like a jealous line with hatred. “ I said AS IF! I dum piece a worm like you could get into the best medical school in the world!!.

“For your information I did. Why can’t you be happy for me Kris?”

“Why should I be? Because am her sis…”

“Enough!!” My father yelled, stopping our back and forth.  I looked up to see him fuming in anger. I thought his anger was towards Kris but then he said “ Katlyn, have you no respect for this family? Why are you so ungrateful? You will not be attending any school after this. I entertained you going to college because I thought you would get this silliness out of you!” 

“ but Dad please…” 

“Shut up!! Katlyn!! Where did i go wrong with you?” My mom yelled looking t my with disgust.

My brother squeezed my shaking hand underneath  the table. I looked up at him and he shook his head, discouraging me from saying anything further. I hear the sound of chairs scraping against the wood floor, my father got up “ i will not hear you speak of this again. Do you understand me? Now clean this up!” He said she walked out off the dining area. 

“Thanks for ruining dinner” my sister sneer at me before exiting behind my dad “ Daddy i need….”  she yelled at him.

“ i can not believe you would think that this would be wonderful news…. why would you want to work? You are pretty enough to snag one of your father’s rich friends’ son. My God  Katlyn where did I go wrong? Who would pay for medical school? She said while walking away.

“ i got a full scholarship.” I whispered to myself as i feel the tears falling from my eyes. 

“Congrats sis I am proud of you.” My brother said . I forgot he was even there. I gave him a teary smile he leaned in and kiss my forehead. Kevin as always being a silent support of my dreams. I know he is the one that talked my dad into spending me to college in the first place. He also help me pay for it since my scholarship didn’t  cover all the expenses. My dad was always against me going to college I remember begging him for weeks to let me go. Then one day he called me in his office and told me i can go but he is not covering any cost am all on my own. So i work part time at a local doctor's office doing medical filing:a job that Kevin got for me and i also toutor on the weekends to local high school kids. Some days I get so overwhelmed with work, school, and taking care of the household that I wanted to just cave in an do what my dad wants and marry some  I don’t even love, but i was so determined to see my dreams come through and I thought once i was finish with my degree my family would be proud of me. I can feel the tears rolling down my cheek as I realize that the best news of my feelings was appreciated by my family. I feel someone wiping away my tears. 

“ hey.. look at me” I turn to my brother he enfolded me in a Hugh  and stroked my hair.

“ it gonna be ok K” 

“ No its not ,, i worked so hard Kev for nothing” 

“ not for nothing?’ He said shaking his head

“ You are graduating top of your class with your pre-med. you got into the best med school with a free ride that is not for nothing. You have achieved everything you set out for on your own; you work for this moment and you will not let them take that away from you. Do you understand?  I shake my head and sigh.

“Kev even with a full scholarship moving to a new state miles away from home with no support-sigh- I don’t think i can do it” 

“ excuse but you have support, you have me” he said while stroking my hair. Kev is my best friend. He has been my rock and sometimes I feel like he is the only one that truly cares about me.

“ Thanks Kev” I said, hugging him. “But I don’t Know…” 

“ Are you quitting already without even trying?” I did not  agree to father’s term just so you can give up”

“What terms are you talking about?” 

“Never mind that… look for a place to stay in Georgetown near the university and I will make some calls to see if you can transfer to an office there.. i will help you as much as I can but you are finishing this . He said with conviction. I jumped out of my seat and flung myself at him .

“Thank you for believing in my Kev”

He laughs and kisses my cheeks “anything for my baby sister. Now let me help you clean up this mess.”

James 

“Mr. Webber your mother is on the phone for you.”my assistant Claire said over the intercom.

“Patch her through.” I reply by closing a proposal i have been reading for two hours now.

“ Hi dumpling!” My mom's soft voice comes over the speaker. I smile at her nickname no matter how many times I tell her not to call me that she insist on doing whenever she talks to me.

“Mom what do I say about calling me that?’ I replied with amusement in my voice.

“ Dumpling you will forever by my dumpling and is that anyway to greet your mother?”s

“ hi mom how are you?” 

“ better am fine dumps just here organizing for next months neighbourhood charity event and wanted to see if you had lunch?’DAM  I FORGOT TO EAT AGAIN

“ Am getting something now mom.” I replied while sending a quick email to Claire to grab my something.

“ you need to do better Dumpling or i am going to ignore your warning and get you a wife” i rolled my eyes at that.

“ Mom i just lost track of time and as for the wife thing please don't  i am perfectly fine” 

“ you know Mrs. Hamlitinon daughter is asking for your?’

I groaned. I know Mrs. Hamilton's daughter ,Tanner, well  and it's not me she likes my money and status. We went on a couple of dates , one too many if you ask me. And after the third one when she asked me my opinion of a million dollar ring i call it quits; she didn’t even know what I did for a living and we didn’t even have s*x. As a young multi-millionaire it is hard to find Guinean people to be around; people that support and like me for me. In the beginning I trusted too much and lost a lot of myself along the way. I thought i had it all once- I thought my life was completed because i had my girl but it turns out she was just a status grabber. When I made my first million and we got invited into the world of luxury she got too comfortable and forgot how to work or how. Hard I worked to get to where we were. She started to change and the next thing I knew she was in the bed with the completion literally. I would be lying if i said that didn’t take me apart so now a trust less and conquer more not taking anyone thought into. Consideration cause no one did with me. Now I have achieved so much with no one helping  me; I intend to carry on that way. I only enjoy dating because of my mom. She loves Caroline and I know she was sad about the break up; she is worried about me ending up alone,, but until I find someone that truly loves me i am ok with being alone.

“Son, did you hear me?”  My mom said jarring me from my own thoughts.

“ Yes mom, I hear you and  I would rather not talk about her.” My mom sighed . I know she does actually like tanner but she is worried that I am lonely. 

“ mom I am fine I promise when i meet the right girl she will become Mrs. Webber and we will give you many many grandchildren”

“ i will remember that son,”  I laughed. We continued our conversation for the next thirty minutes cathchign up i hang up as my last appointment for the day showed up with promises of Sunday brunch.