s*x with a Vampire

Self Hate

Sometime during our night of playing games and watching anime, I fall asleep. I wake up with a start, hearing voices outside my door.

I look around me in confusion; I was in Harvey's bed. Did they put me to bed last night? I look around for my phone but it was nowhere to be found.

I stretch and swing my legs over the bed. The wooden floor is cold under my barefeet. I hurrily run across the floor, get outside and run downstairs to the living room.

The boys ware playing a game I don't recognise on the telly. I run over and jump on the couch next to Garth.

"Good morning sleepy head," he greets me with a smile.

"Urgh." I look over to Harvey who's deep in the game. "Upstairs is so cold. You should get your heating looked at."

"My heating is fine. You're just always accustomed to your heating being all the way up." He says not even looking at me.

"The floors are so cold. How can you even walk on them? You'll catch a cold." I snuggle into the couch with my feet under me.

Harvey laughs and throws me a blanket.

"Oh b-t-dubs, your phone has been going off for a while now. We put it to charge since it was dying. Maybe it's your family trying to get you." Garth smiles at me sweetly.

I hop off of the couch and run to the wall where my phone is plugged in. I check the screen and I see a few texts and about five missed calls.

I check the messages and the majority is from my family's group chat. I send a few messages and close out the chat. The others are from friends back home. I answer those as well before closing out the chats. I see I still have a chat notification so I scroll down to see Eli's name.

I open the chat.

"Hey babes, how's your night going? I know you're supposed to be hanging out with the guys tonight, but can I come over later?"

"Hey, I haven't heard anything from you for the night, are you okay?"

----- (2) missed calls-----

I type a message quickly. I totally forgot to message Eli. I was so wrapped up with the guys then I got tired and fell asleep. My intentions weren't to stay so late.

I hit send on the message but I don't see the delivered ticks appear. That's strange, Eli always has data.

I excuse myself to the kitchen where I know the guys won't hear me and call his phone and it goes straight to voicemail. I try again but it's the same as before.

I frown.

I know he's a busy man but it's unlike him to have his phone off and not answer my calls. I try him one more time for good measure but again I'm taken to his voicemail box.

I close out the app and check my call logs. I see a number I don't recognise called me twice.

Normally, I don't answer numbers I don't recognise but I figure it could be Eli. I press the number and listen to it ring.

Just as I'm about to hang up, a sexy, sultry voice of a woman answers.

"Hello, Celeste speaking." I wrack my brain but I don't know any Celeste.

"Um, hello. My name is Sam, I got two missed calls from this number last night." I don't know the woman but I already feel a bit intimidated by her. Just her presence over the phone is confident.

"Oh," I hear her voice falters. She doesn't say anything for a few seconds.

"Hello, are you still there?" I ask unsure.

"My apologies," she says sweetly. "You were a missed dial."

"Oh, okay." She hangs up without another word. To say that was weird would be an understatement.

I try Eli's number again but still get nothing. I'm a bit worried now. That's the only contact information I had for him. What if something happened?

What if he went to my house looking for me and someone thought he was a burglar?

Stranger things have happened before.

I run back to the living room and commanded Harvey to drop me back home. He looks at me like I've lost my mind.

"What the hell, Sam?" He looks me up and down. "What's gotten into you?"

"I have to go home right now." I say firmly. "Take me home please."

"Or what? Does Eli demands your presence?" My mouth hangs open. How did he know about Eli.

"What?" I finally manage to speak.

"If he's that controlling, you should probably drop him." Harvey says staring at me.

"I..." I can't seem to form a coherent sentence. "You don't know what you're talking about."

"I'm sure he's the one you went to call back. I'm also sure he's the one who was ringing your phone off last night." Harvey comes to stands in front of me. His stare pins me in place. I don't even know what to do.

Garth comes up behind him and rest his hand on his shoulder telling him to stand down.

"Look, Sam, we're your friends. We're just worried okay. We know you've been seeing someone but you keep dodging us finding out who they are." Garth says.

"Because I'm not ready for you guys to know yet. I didn't know I had to announce everything to you two." My temper begins to flare. How dare they?

"We're not saying you have to. We're just trying to look out for you." Garth tries to grab my hand but I pull away. He looks at me with a sad smile.

"I can take care of myself, thank you. I just want to go home." I turn and walk away from them. I get to the walkway and precede to put on my shoes and my jacket.

"At least have breakfast Sam. We'll take you home in a bit. You should get something to eat." Garth tries to get me to come back.

"Stop treating me like a child. I'm capable of making my own decisions." I shout.

"Geez, why are you upset? We're just trying to help? Bloody hell." Harvey flings his arms in the air and walk back into the living room.

Why am I upset?

I can't get on to Eli. I'm worried about him. The woman on the phone sounded weird, like she knew more. Maybe I'm thinking too much into things and letting my emotions get away with me.

"Just take me home, please." I take a deep breath and face the door.

I wonder if Eli is upset with me. Did he block me for hanging out with my friends and not texting him? Surely he couldn't be so petty, right?

Who's the woman that called me? Does she know who Eli is? Does she know who I am? Were the calls on purpose? Was Eli with her last night?

I open the door just as I hear Harvey tells Garth to drop me home because he doesn't want to be in the same vehicle as me.

I step out into the cold. Why do I feel so shitty?

Maybe because I thought I had something special and now I'm not so sure anymore.

Just from her voice, Celeste sounds classy and elegant and beautiful. The kind of woman who I know would fit just right on Eli's arm.

Was I hurt over a woman I didn't even know?

Why does my brain do this to me?

I wipe away the tears as Garth comes outside. I wish I wasn't so pathetic all the time. My thoughts and my emotions shouldn't have so much control over me. Why do I hate myself so?