Those Violet Eyes

Heartbreak

It's been two weeks since Arwen left. I've been a mess, to say the least. I can hardly eat, food turns sour in my mouth. I barely leave my room, there is no desire to see the outside world or be part of it. I’m just feeling lost without him. The girls have all been over, every day trying to cheer me up and take my mind off Arwen. They bring me chocolate and tell me about the things that have been happening while I’ve been hiding away. I love them so much for it. The problem is every time I close my eyes I see violet ones looking back at me. I remember the one night we spent together and my heart breaks all over again 

"Do you want to go see a movie?" Charlotte turns to me as we lay in my bed, she has climbed in with me. I sigh I know I should get out of here and get some fresh air. 

"You know what Lotte? Yes, yes I would like to go out and see a movie" She must not have been expecting that answer cos she looked at me wide-eyed.  

"Lotte?"  

"Oh s**t yes, what do you want to see?" She stumbled, really not thinking I would say yes. 

"Should I text the others? Or do you want to just go, me and you?" She asks catching up on my change of mind 

"How about just you and me for now, we could always meet up with the girls for dinner" My answer had her beaming from ear to ear. 

"Right then we need to dress you. You can't go out in pubic still in your PJ's" She declared clapping her hands as she throws herself out of my bed and runs into my wardrobe. A second later, clothes were flying out of the wardrobe at an alarming speed.  

"Oh this is cute, you should wear this......No this!..........oh no this is defiantly the one!" I can't help but laugh at how excited she is that I'm finally going out. 

An hour later Charlotte is happy with what I'm wearing. I've brushed my hair for the first time in weeks, and I've even put a little bit of makeup on. I feel human again. We walk into the living room and Aunt Lily actually screams when she sees me. 

"Eva you look beautiful!" Jumping out of her seat and hugging me. 

"Thank you, Aunty. Charlotte had a lot of work to do" I laughed hugging her back 

"You look different somehow" Her brows come together as she looked me over again. I don't feel any different. 

"I thought so too.........I thought I was going crazy" Charlotte added twisting a bit of my hair between her fingers. 

"Charlotte, you are crazy, that’s why I love you" I tease her lifting my hair back out of her fingers before laughing. 

"Oh, you are feeling better" She pouted before grinning at me, then picked up her handbag from off the side table and hit me with it. 

"Have a great time girls" Aunt Lily laughed as well, before going to the door to open it for us. 

It was good to get out, it's only been two weeks but felt like years. We stand in line at the movies waiting to get our tickets. It wasn't too busy, but there was still a good number of people around. I started noticing that a lot of them were stopping and looking at us, I nudged Charlotte to see if she had noticed it. 

"Charlotte do I have something on my face?" I ask her starting to get a bit nervous. 

"No why?" She gets closer to me and looks at my face a little too closely, I smile at her and push her away 

"People are looking at me funny, it's weird" I try not to sound too freaked out about it, but it is getting uncomfortable. 

"People are looking at you cos you look amazing. Like I said at home, you look different. Your hair, your eyes, everything. Your stunning" she just shrugs as I should just know this.  

"What do you mean?" I'm really at a loss for words, no one has ever called me stunning. 

"Everly, you have always been pretty, even if you didn't want to believe it. But somehow now everything thing about you just seems lighter, more glowy. Have you not looked in a mirror lately?" She looks me deep in my eyes and I can't argue with her. She is right I haven't look in a mirror lately. When I do I expect to see purple eyes behind me, when they are not there it hurts. So I stopped looking. 

"Come with me" She pulls me toward the restrooms. She pushed the door open, still pulling me along behind her. She pushed me in front of the mirror and turned me to face it. 

"Just look!" She points at the mirror. I looked into the mirror, I saw her and someone else. It took me a moment to register that the person looking back was me. They were right, I looked different. My face was slimmer, my hair was longer and somehow it had changed colour. It was more golden now as it fell in soft waves down my back. My eyes too were different, they looked bigger and greener, more of an emerald green now, no longer the pale green they were before. It was strange to see myself like this like I was seeing myself for the very first time. I turned to Charlotte. 

"Do you see it now?" She asked looking at me again in the mirror 

"Yes.........but how?" I am at a loss for words. Charlotte just shrugs and smiles at me 

"We better get back out there, your audience awaits," she says with a giggle, bowing to me like I'm Royalty.  

"Oh stop that!!!!" I try to smack her but she is too fast for me, so I settle for an eyeball roll. We are both giggling as we walk out of the restroom. Just as we turn the corner to the main foyer my head starts to spin. I try to put my hand out to stop myself from falling but it's too late. I hit the floor on my hands and knees. My head is spinning, my ears are ringing, and there are black spots in front of my eyes I try to swallow, but feel like I’m going to be sick. I feel Charlotte's hand on my back. I know she is asking what's wrong and if I'm ok, but I just can't answer her. I don’t know how long I’m stuck like this before slowly the ringing goes away and I start to look around, there is a crowd around us now. The Manager has rushed over, he is asking Charlotte what happened. I still can't get any words out. I'm suddenly so sleepy I lay down on the floor, and everything goes black. 

I try to open my eyes, they are so heavy. I can hear Charlotte's voice but she sounds far away.  

"We are in the ambulance now...............yes Aunt Lily they think she is going to be ok, we are just going to the hospital to make sure.............no I don’t think you need to come down.............we will be in and out................I'll ring you if anything changes.............yes I love you too"  I hear Charlotte sigh as she hangs up the phone 

"Hay" I manage to get out. 

"Oh thank the gods you are awake!" Charlotte cries, she has tears coming down her cheeks 

"You scared the life out of me, you are not allowed to die on me! Lexie, maybe, but not me!" She almost jumped on me in the ambulance bed. 

"What happened?" I asked her, not able to remember myself. 

"I don’t know, one second we were talking the next you were on the floor and I couldn't wake you" she let out a sob and I leaned over to hug her. 

At the hospital in my own little room. I sit with Ashlyn who had arrived with Lexie and Lee just moments before. Charlotte had just gone for a quick walk, she had been sitting for so long her legs were going to sleep. 

"You sure your OK?" Lee asks me for the tenth time, Lexie just rolls her eyes and hits his shoulder with the back of her hand. 

"She said yes the first million times Lee, we just have to wait for the doctors to come back and give her the all-clear so we can get outta here" Lexie leans against her twin resting her head on his shoulder, he pats her head softly. 

"I really am Ok Lee" I smile at him and he smiles back. He is just about to say something when the doctor walks back into the room knocking softly on the door. We all look up at him. 

"Could I please have a moment alone with Miss Moore?" He asks looking at each of my friends. They are all on their feet in a second and out the door, stopping to give me a quick look or smile on the way out. 

"Hello Miss Moore, my name is Doctor John. I've just been over your blood tests and it looks like you are perfectly fine" He smiles as he hears me let out the breath that I was holding. 

"One of your tests did come back positive though" He continued, as my brows coming together. Oh no, there is something wrong with me. 

"Miss Moore, you are pregnant" He smiled. I most have heard him wrong. Nevertheless, as soon as the words hit my brain, I know it was true. The fear most have shown on my face as he came a little closer to me.  

"I'm guessing this isn't the news you were expecting?" He questioned with a sympathetic look on his face. I shook my head. Tears starting to well up in my eyes. I couldn't stop them as they started to fall down my cheeks.  

"Do you need anything? How will the Father take the news?" At his words the flood gates opened, I couldn't stop the tears that were running in rivers down my face. 

"He's gone" was all I could manage to get out. Just then all my friends come running back into the room. 

"Are you Ok?" "What's the matter?" "What's happened?" Their chorus of questions had me shaking my head, I just sobbed into my hands. 

"I'll leave you to tell your friends. You are free to go home anytime now" The doctor said slowly leaving the room.  My friends are all looking at me, waiting to hear the worst. I try to breathe through the tears to get the words out. I manage to find my voice somehow. 

"I'm pregnant" It's small but they all hear it. The shock on their faces mirrors my own. It's not what they thought they were going to hear. It takes a long minute as we all sat there in our own worlds letting it sink in. 

"Marry me!" Lee bursts out. We all look at him like he's gone mad. He walks over to the bed and takes my hand in his. Looking me right in the eyes. There is real love there, but it’s the love of a friend. I shake my head and slid my hand out of his. I put my hand on his cheek and smile at him. 

"You don't have to marry me, Lee. I will work this out" I say softly and he leans into my hand. The girls are all still in shock. All of them are just looking at me with wide eyes. 

"You.......you are going to have a baby?" Ashlyn shakes her head finding her voice at last. 

"I guess I am" it feels unreal to say it, but my heart starts to feel happy again. I might have lost Arwen, but he left me a gift. I have to find him. I have to tell him. We are going to have a baby. 

Now all my friends are up on the bed with me. Questions are coming at me left right and centre. They are all so excited now. 

"What are we going to call it?" "What if it's a boy?" "What if it’s a girl?" "I have to be its godmother" "Are you going to stay with Aunt Lily?" 

I just smile to myself. Yes, we will get through this somehow.