Navigating Cute Boys and Frogs

Just Breathe (Lindsey’s POV)

     Ten minutes later, I’m leaning against Jonas’ car, when he comes jogging out the front door. He sees me, jogs faster, until I’m wrapped up in his arms. I let out a giggle, and he sinks his nose into the side of my neck.

      “I’m so glad you didn’t change, I’m going to be dreaming about this outfit on your body, for the next year.” He says into my neck. I laugh at his words, wrapping my fingers into his hair. Jonas leans up, and presses his lips to my jaw, then up my cheek, until finally he gives me a slow kiss on the lips. He pulls back smiling, 

     “Do you mind if we stop and pick up a pizza quick? I ordered one for us before I got in the shower.” 

     “Yes please! I’m starving and pizzas my favorite!” I laugh as Jonas opens my door.

      “I knew you were perfect for me Linds.” Jonas says with a wink. He shuts my door and heads around to the drivers side. Once he starts the car up and pulls out of the lot, my nerves start to kick in. Jonas has the radio turned down, so the silence is kind of awkward now. I know I need to talk to him about being a virgin, but it’s such a weird thing to bring up. I can see him glancing at me from the drivers side, but now I am full blown doubting myself and don’t know what to say. We finally pull up to the pizza place, and I’m thankful it will give me a couple minutes to calm down without Jonas in the car.

      I’m distracted by my thoughts, when I feel Jonas tug on my bottom lip, that’s stuck between my teeth. I’m gnawing on it, likes it’s going to magically solve my problems. 

      “Linds, I don’t know where you went there, but your leg is jittering and I’m scared you’re  about to chew your beautiful lip off, what’s up?” He asks staring at me. 

      “I’m sorry, Jonas. I’m just really nervous all the sudden.” I say back, putting my head down. 

       “Hey look at me,” I raise my eyes to his, “if you’re having second thoughts about hanging out, I can just drop you off, I’m not expecting anything Linds.” He says.

       “NO!” I shout, which causes me to blush. How embarrassing, “ I want to hang out, I just don’t think I’m as experienced as you are, and I’m nervous about how this is going to go. I don’t want to sleep with you tonight Jonas, but I’m also nervous I won’t measure up to the other girls you have been with.” I choke it all out, without even breathing. I let a huge puff of air into my lungs and chance glancing at him again. 

      “Babe, I just want to hang out with you. If we eat pizza and watch tv, I’m cool with that. If something else happens, I’ll be stoked. But, either way, I’m good just being with you.” He says honestly. I smile at his answer and nod my head.    

     “And please don’t compare yourself to other girls I’ve been with Linds, I’ve never liked a single one of them, this thing with us, it’s different, at least I feel like it is.” He looks down like maybe he’s unsure now that he’s said it.

      “Hey you’re right, it’s different for me too. Go grab the pizza babe.” I say pressing a kiss to his cheek. I’m not sure if his face lights up from me saying it feels different for me too, or because I called him babe for the first time. Either way, Jonas’ words ease my nerves and now i just want him to hurry, so we can get to snuggling faster.