Wish Granted.

Starlight Star Bright

The little girl diva walked off her arms still folded across her chest as she sauntered off to what could only be the boys room. Dusty rolled her shoulders. That was honestly one of the worst interactions she had with a kid recently. However she didn't make it a habit to travel to the richer parts of town and interact with kids who were so far beyond her in means of life. Thanks, dad. She mentally chimed before turning to examine this living room of theirs. Soft tan colored couches sat under the windows and a big TV was mounted to the wall facing north. Sitting on the couch she could see why it was placed here. This way the parents could sit on the couch and watch the kids play on the trampoline. A clock ticked loudly in the room echoing the passage of time.

There was nothing better to do so she pulled out her cellphone and pulled up her favorite past time, reading fanfiction stories. There she didn't have to be herself. She didn't have to be an overweight girl, unlovable by the definition of modern society. She could be in her favorite anime, loved and wanted by her favorite people. All fictional of course. She didn't have such a thing in the real world. Only in books and in her dreams.

She wasn't exactly sure how much time had passed but she heard the sounds of the kids exiting their rooms and getting on the trampoline. She glanced up to see that there were four kids. Two older ones that she had already had the pleasure of meeting. Then two more boys whom couldn't have been much older or younger than around 8 or 10. They were the ones doing most the jumping but the older two stood closely watching or at least pretending to. They were too focused on each other to really be paying attention. However, her gaze must have lingered too long. The girl turned to look at her and their eyes met. It wasn't a good thing. Dusty snapped her eyes back to her screen and pretended to read. However her mind wasn't on the screen. It was busy thinking. Thinking about last weekend when she went to her best friends house and stayed the night. Only to be completely ignored by her as her friend had only eyes and thoughts for her new boyfriend.

How her dad had to give her a new bra from his adult female friend because she outgrew her current bra. She knew big breasts were supposed to be attractive. Not when it came from an overweight body it seemed. That girls bra strap had been purposely exposed to give that illusion of s*x appeal. If her old hand-me-down bra got exposed it wouldn't have worked that way. Was she really that ugly? Her mind thought back to the college prep trip last month, where that boy who she had been hanging out with for the first half of the feild trip, stopped walking midway up the stairs, to turn to her and sneer. Then callously call her ugly. Even though it had absolutely nothing to do with anything that they had spoken about before hand. She had made no move or s****l implications. His face sneering at her like trash was burned into her minds eye. It was the sudden unexpectedness of it that hurt the most. It seemed every human to human interaction she had these days just ended up making her soul feel smaller and smaller...

A shadow fell over her instantly silencing her thoughts. Dusty got a bad feeling and looked up to see her father standing over her. His dark brown face casting a dark shadow over his face. She could still easily see the quiet fury that was held there. She swallowed and smiled at him sheepishly.

"Go play on the trampoline, now."

"Yes, daddy." She said quickly and got up walking to the kitchen where she had seen the door lead to the yard and walked out. Closing the door quickly. f**k, f**k, f**k. She mentally chanted and turned around to face the kids who had stopped jumping to look at her.

"What do you want?" The cold girl said cooly staring at her with heated eyes.

"Um, sorry... my dad wants me to come out here. And he's way scarier than you." She said and laughed uncomfortably. Glancing to the windows she saw her dad standing in the frame watching her from within.

"Can I jump with you?" She asked the younger kids. They didn't respond and she climbed up on the trampoline. In doing so she saw her father's figure retreat back from the windows. Good. at least that problem is fading.

Only now did she realize it was getting late. The sun was setting over the house and the sky was casted in pink and purples.

"We didn't say yeah." The younger of the two said to her.

"Ek, well, I'm going back inside." The girl announced and hopped off the trampoline and walked back to the door, casting an expectant look at Jayden for him to follow. Which he threw a ball to the older of the younger boys before following without hesitation.

Dusty sat feeling uncomfortable but offered a reassuring smile to the younger kids. "Sorry." She offered to them, this time aimed at the little boy upset by her presence.

The three now all paused in a weird silence as a cold evening breeze passed over them.

"Why is your jacket like that?" The older of the two asked gesturing to her bleach stain.

Dusty smiled at him and stood up on the trampoline hoping to at least jump for a moment. This was something she had actually wanted to do.

"It was my Cousin's she gave it to me like this. It's my favorite jacket though. It's very warm in the winter but still cool enough to wear most of the summer."

The younger of the two suddenly ran across the trampoline past her and jumped down. "She's weird! I'm leaving!" He shouted and then darted inside. The only remaining boy gave her a half hearted sympathetic smile. Before walking past her and getting off the trampoline. Slipping inside without a word. Dusty watched them leave with a carefully blank face. For some reason the rejection from the little kids stung worse than the judgemental older kids. Was she really that bad. Her gaze fell to the now empty trampoline she stood on. She didn't want to jump anymore. She didn't want to be here. No, she didn't want to exist. A cold breeze ran past her and this time she felt it deep. It ran inside her and her vision began to get foggy as tears filled her eyes. Why was everyone so mean to her? Why was she ALWAYS alone?

"I'm going to jump anyways!" She quietly shouted at no one.

No one responded but a cold breeze across her face and the muffled sound of laughter from inside the garage where the adults sat drinking.

Silently she began to bounce. Up, Down, Up, down... each landing was accompanied by tears leaking down her face. A few fell down onto the trampoline. It was the most unsatisfying thing she could have done. She took a struggling breathe and dropped down hard to her back staring up at the sky.

There in the Purples and Pinks she saw exactly one twinkling star. It was the first star in the sky that night. She glanced around once more to make sure. Not a single other star dotted the sky yet. With sudden intense convection she decided to make a wish. Quietly to herself she began to speak.

"Starlight. Star Bright. First Star I see tonight. I wish, I wish that I would find someone- anyone, that would love me. I know I'm not prefect. I know I'm ugly, fat, disgusting, stupid, selfish, and worthless. Even if I only get one person and that's it for my whole life, even if I have to lose them, even if they leave me one day, please. Just, I don't want to be alone anymore. I want a family that loves me! I want a boyfriend, and to get to have kids one day... please. I don't care how long I have to wait, just don't make me be alone forever..."

Silence was the only thing that greeted her. Yet she continued to pour her heart out to that star as if they were a person listening to her from the sky.