36Soon after I’d finished that cigarette, I wanted more...but my cravings couldn’t overcome my exhaustion. I walked into my room, planning to grab my car keys for a drive to the nearest convenience store. Instead, I sat down on the bed with my phone to put a call-block on Luke’s number and ended up asleep in a matter of minutes. I made up for lost time the next morning, though, and stopped at a convenience store on my way to work. I bought two packs of my favorite brand of cigarettes and tucked them into my purse. Mission accomplished. Now I was feeling like a full-fledged smoker again. By the time I pulled in at Polka Central, it was six o’clock on the dot...and I was the first one there. Peg’s car wasn’t there yet, which worried me, but maybe she was just running a little behind.

