Chasing His Ex-Wife

CHAPTER 7

“What?” She almost screamed and I remained silent. “Why? I thought everything was going well since my mom told me that you would always come together for family dinner. She also told me that you guys are planning to start a family soon.” Her voice was now back to normal after she received weird looks from the people seated near to our table.

“She asked for divorce. I agreed.” I simply supplied. Telling someone about the divorce felt as if the realization was finally hitting me. I was no longer Bella's husband and she was no longer my wife. The thought made something inside me ache and I ignore it.

“Why did you agree to divorce just because she asked?” Stella asked, her brows furrowed together and she placed the fork in the plate as if she was no longer interested with how tasty the pasta was.

“What? Did you want me to keep her in this marriage against her will?” I asked Stella who looked at me for a moment.

“You … “ She muttered. “ You didn't love her?” She asked me and I almost wanted to laugh right at her face. Love? Can I love anyone after loving Stella for years? I don't think so.

“We were in a business relationship, Stella.” I deadpanned. You know that after our wedding was finalized our family turned it into a business deal. I did not mind it but when I was married to Bella our relationship was close to that of business. So no. I didn't love her.” I told her honestly and watched as realization hit her.

“Don't tell me…” She began her eyes turned wide as she stared down at me. “ Were you waiting for me?” She asked, softly this time and I could almost hear her hopefulness through her silky voice. I did say anything to her because to be honest I don't know the answer to her question.

Was I waiting for her? I truly didn't believe that I would see her again after years of her disappearance yet here we are.

“Seriously? Even after being married for years you still waited for me?” She asked in disbelief as she ran her fingers through her hair which made it a sexy mess on top of her head.

He tilted my head to the side as I casually took a bite , devouring it inside my mouth before looking at her again.

“Me? Waiting for you?” I chuckled at her and watched how her eyebrows pinched into confusion. “How delusional are you exactly, Stella?” I asked her, my gaze darkening as I remembered being humiliated in front of my family years ago.

“Then…” She started, gulping as she looked down, unable to meet my gaze any longer. “How can you not fall for Isabella?” She asked.

“Me not falling for my wife is none of your business, stella.” I reminded her. “I called you here not because I want to be in relationship with you again but because I need some answers.” I told her honestly.

“Christian… that's in the past…” She told me as she looked at me with sympathy. Did she really think that I was waiting for her? I may have loved her with all my heart and maybe there still is a part in me that belongs to her, but Stella was just a chapter in my life. I don't want her to be a chapter in my future.

“Just because it is in the past does not mean that I don't deserve answers, Stella. You ran away from our wedding, throwing away our relationship like it meant nothing to you.” I said , my voice was stable even though my eyes were filled with hatred.

Stella squirmed nervously before she spoke again.

“It was suffocating.” She started and i continued to look at her as if it was nothing. “Our relationship, I mean. I was excited to be married to you Christian. Trust me when I say that I was over the top when you asked me to marry you but…”

“But what?” I snapped, unable to keep my voice low.

“But I realize that I had dreams that I wanted to fulfil. I wanted to do so many things and marriage was not one of them.” She spoke too quickly and before I could say anything she began again. “We had known each other for years. You were everything that I ever knew. You were my happy place, my comfort zone, Christian but I wanted to step out of my comfort zone and live a life I wanted.”

“So you ran away from the wedding instead of communicating like a civilian would do?” I asked, my voice laced with anger, frustration and hatred. “You knew that I would have listened to your reason had you just told me that you wanted to cancel our wedding? Was that so difficult?” I watched her eyes well up in tears as she trembled but her tears did not effect me even slightest.

“I wanted to , Christian but you were so happy that I didn't have a heart to tell you to your face.” She cried . “Just a day before our wedding, I got a call from a modelling agency and it was a once in a lifetime chance, I could not miss that so I just ran away.”

She completed her speech as she cried miserably. I sat in complete silence, giving her some time to collect herself.

“You know I would have supported you with your choice.” I told her after a couple of minutes of silence. She looked at me with tears in her eyes. “I would have canceled our wedding for you. But you decided to humiliate me in front of our family. You left me heartbroken and I was not even able to treat your sister right.” I told her honestly. I knew that I was not treating Isabella the way she deserved just because I was unable to accept her as my wife.

“We still have time, baby.” Stella begun, the nickname made my inside churn into something disgusting. “If you give me a chance , I will make sure to treat you right and with Isabella not in the picture again you don't have to worry about her.”

I just stared at her for a moment, unable to understand her. Did she thought that I would happily get back with her after what she has done? She didn't even asked about Isabella's whereabouts. I scoffed at her before standing up.

“I met you because I needed a closure , Stella. Don't even think that we will ever be a thing again.” I said as looked down at her. “From now onwards we are nothing but strangers. It was nice meeting you, Stella but I hope to never see you again.” I said and turned around before walking towards the door.

“WHY ARE YOU DOING THIS TO US?” I heard her shout, the diners were now looking at us. “YOU KNOW THAT YOU LOVE ME! I KNOW THAT YOU LOVE ME! THAT WAS THE REASON THAT YOU NEVER FELL IN LOVE WITH YOUR WIFE!”

Love? Love is a strong word and I don't know what love is. Was I in love with Stella? No. I was not. If I was in love with her than I would have been happy to finally have her in my life. But right now just looking at her reminded me of the betrayal and I feel nothing but hatred towards her.

Was I in love with Isabella? I don't know that. But when I met her this evening after not seeing her for weeks, I felt as if my heart stopped working when I saw her in that bottle green dress. I wanted to hug her and take in her intoxicating scent but that would mean that I was overstepping my boundary. So I tried to act as nonchalant as I could. After all, she wanted a divorce from me.

As I say love is a strong word but what exactly is love?

I did not waste my time to clear Stella's delusions as I made my way out. I felt lighter but at the same time I felt hollow as I drove my way to my now empty penthouse.