The Alpha's Runaway Mate

ALL ALONE

Nathaly's POV

One year later

I was helping Jainny with some pack business, as I have been doing in between my classes and lessons with my mother, when Hannah ran inside the office with a note on her hand. She looked puzzled but excited, and she stared at me handing me the note. 'Open it, it could be his. Open, open' ' Shut it Cerila, he hasn't contacted with us for almost a year, why would he do it now?' She annoyed me, everytime I got a package or a letter she though it would be from our mate, but over and over again it only brought disappointment over us. At first I had hope he would call, write, give me any hint that he was alive, but it never came so I just prayed he would be fine and well, but with time I couldn't help but fill anger whenever I thought about him, he left without a word. I sent a deep growl to Cerila, my wolf, and took the note from Hannah's hands. It was inside a little envelope.

"It came with this attached" and she gave me a pink rose.

"Thanks Hannah" I gave her a rigid smile and opened the note.

I will be coming in a couple of weeks for your birthday Angel.

With love, your  Eddie

My eyes went wide, I started tearing apart the paper. How he dared to do this to me?! A note?! A two lines freaking note?! After a year of ignoring me, this is all he does, unbelivable. I saw red, did he really think I would just sit on tight and waited for him to just show up after a YEAR, A D**N YEAR?! Cerila started howling, but then my anger got to her 'Would you calm down, this should make you happy, our mate is coming, then we can be with him again and maybe we could even go and meet our new pack' she shouldn't have said that 'Cerila, COME ON, you really think it's that simple, ja, HE left ME when I needed him the most. He left us to endure the whole recovery from the Bloodbonding all by ourselves, and now he wants to be welcomed with open arms, NO, I won't do that, NOT IN THIS LIFETIME' and I burried her in the deep of my mind. I snapped out of it when Jainny's hands were on mine, I had brought my claws out, the note was destroyed and my hands were bleeding. When I losened my hands and I hide my claws again Jainny took some bandages and alcohol from her first aid kit and wrapped my hands on it.

"What happened? What did the note said?" she asked when she stopped tending my wounds, I would be completely healed in a couple of minutes but she always did this all the same.

"He is coming in a couple of weeks, and will be staying for my birthday" I said looking at my hands and feeling my anger rising up again.

"Hey, calm down, breathe. Let's think about this, it was meant to happen eventually, after all you are mates and he surely misses your presence. There must be a reason for his absence" I know she is trying to make me feel better, but I just can't see what I had to go through all by myself when he was supposed to be there.

"There are no justifications!!, he left me to deal alone with all the pain and soreness, with the awakening, with my first shift, and tortured me by leaving with me that cursed handkerchief that still has his scent, not even letting me forget what I miss the most!!" I could feel the tears burning in my eyes, the memory of the loneliness was horrible, how I felt alone even when my family was with me, how they had been so stressed out about my care, to dry my tears. Mom would stay at night with me to try to reduce the pain thet the silver had caused in my flesh, she would cry when she thought I was sleeping and holded me in her arms when I sobbed missing my other half.

*Flashback*

I am waking up after the Bloodbonding, I can feel all my body sore, ichy and in total pain. WHen I tried to raise my head from the pillow the dizziness got to me so strong I almost threw up, I could feel the bile on my throat waiting to go out. My head was spining around so much I couldn't focus my eyes on anything, and my body felt like it had been hit by a hundred trucks that left every single muscle in my body like jelly, the worst of all it was that I woke in my room pitch black, and when I tried to turn on the lamp I felt thet my eyes and my brain were a second away from exploding or melting down. The blood through my veins was like fire burning my body, the pain was even inside my bones. It is the greatest pain I had ever felt, and even after screaming in pain after the ritual was over something, more like someone calmed me down and his touch eased my pain so I could sleep, I need him, I needed Edward, or I wouldn't be able to endure the pain, I woouldn't be able to deal with this, tears were rolling down my cheecks because of the pain and all my attempts to move and turn back off the lamp were useless. I cried out for help, for Edward, but the only one thet came was Hannah, that rushed to the lamp and turned it off, then called a nurse to check on my vitals and stayed with me for a while, she is  my best friends, we had known each other for our entire lives.

In her eyes I see concern while she dries the tears that are furiously running down my cheecks, because when  cried out I am convinced I hurt my eardrums pretty badly and now they are making me pay for it with more pain. What had happened with me? Why am I still alive? The poison, the ritual, I should be out of the land of the living by now. 'We were dyning, but Mate saved us' WHAT IN THE GODDESS NAME WAS THAT?! 'I am Cerila, I am your wolf' wait a second, I am human I don't...Ohhhh, understanding hit me, Edward's blood had turned me into a werewolf. 'Hold on why are you awake' 'You were ready for the awakening so I woke up, Goddess the pain of the injuries, I hurt us again for trying to take control after the ceremony, but our mate stopped us from hurting ourselves more, then I got to know his scent and well we felt asleep on his chest. So you are right we will feel better and even could heal faster with our mate with us' she sounded so happy, and well I was optimistic at the thought that we could heal faster and then go and meet our new pack, I felt her enthusiasm, and it made me fell better.

"Hannah, where is Alpha Edward? I need..., I need my mate" I said in a whisper, but even that insignificant phrase made my throat sore, and the destire of tilting my head to see Hannah made a new wave of pain run from my neck to my head and tiptoes.

"Naty, I think you should what for your parents for this" her eyes were sad and she looked to the ground.

"Please, I just..." I was interrupted by my family coming inside the room, the reflection of the sunlight mede me wince and shut my eyes until I heard the door close.

"She is asking for her mate" she looked up to my parents and brother, Jainny had already taken a sit on the bed right next to me, where she could hold my hand, being very careful to not move it roughly. My parents looked at each other then back at me.

"Sweety, Edward had to leave yesterday evening, he came to say goodbye but turned around whe he saw you were still unconscious" my mom said in the lowest most sweet voice she could muster. And when she noticed my sobs she gently started wiping away the tears that had began falling again. When I turned a bit to my right I had a hint of hope when I felt his scent close to me, I moved my hand next to me, despite of the pain and felt a square fibric, different from the one of my pillows and sheets. then vevry slowly I brought the fabric to my nose and felt it, his marvelous scent, it smelled like spring in the forrest, it was like green pine needles, maple bark with a hint of coffee. The sweetest thing I had ever smelled, and I wanted more but nevermind how hard I tried I couldn't get any more. I missed his touch, I missed his blue navy eyes, and most of all I missed him. Now I understood how it felt the bond, to need that someone to make you full, but the other half of my soul was gone, and I couldn't do anything about it. My mom an Jainny squished a bit my hand while my tears kept rolling, how could it hurt so much being away from someone I had met two days ago? Wait, how long have I been like this?

"Guys, how long have I been like this?" I felt the sadness on them, had they been woring for that long?

"You have been uncoscious for about three days, Edward woke up after the first day, and then was able to walk by yesterday" that's when he left.

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A month has gone by since I woke up, it took me a week to get the hang on walking and the light didn't hurt me anymore, and by the second week I was able to run and started practicing with my brother my fighting skills. When I saw for the first time in front of a mirror my jaw almost dropped, all the muscles that I had been warking on for somany years were marked and stylished my already slim figure. All over my body I holded the marks of the Bloodbonding, there were thin scars inflicted in me with a silver dagger. Muria explained to me what had happened during the ritual to Edward and me, even showed me the salt and the herbs along with the dagger. Cerila anounced that my first shift would be a month after the awakening, so she needed me to get stronger in order to endure the pain. Hopefully Edward would show up to help me deal with that, she said it wouldn't be so bad if we had our mate wit us. All the time I have a constant itch inside my skin, the wounds are still healing internally, so I have to be careful with what I do, specially with my training, to avoid hurting myself all over again. My blood still burned but not as much as when I woke up. I keep the handkerchief Edward left with me all the time, sometimes at night I take it from my night desk and fall sleep holding it in front of me, to feel somehow close to my mate.

Tonight I will be shifting, I called a week ago to Argent Moon Pack to let Edward know today I was going to have my first shift, but he didn't even answer the phone and I left a message in the recorder. He hasn't shown up and hsn't even attempted to call me. My mom noticed earlier my unease and calmed me down, gave me tea and biscuits. I had become more emotional since the ritual, when I get mad it turns into extreme anger in a matter of seconds, when I feel sad I just brst down into tears,  when I am happy it's like the world was rose and all I was was joy and happiness, and so on. My emotions are hightened in a tenfold, which is something i am trying to control, but my wolf is more on the surface lately and that doesn't make it any easier. I guess that after the shift I will improve my emotional control.

Between my mom and Jainny they have made their mission to make me look totally perfect tonight, they inssit that it's because they need something to entertain with, but I know they are trying to keep my mind away from the perpetual hole I fell on my heart, and it is deepening the longer I am away from my mate, so with each passing day I feel more and more sad and lonely. We chose a nice baby blue dress, that I will take off before the shift, and after I come back from the packrn I will wear a soft blue silk like robe. And they were making sure I enjoyed myself, so we got a full-body treatment in the pack's spa section. The ladies that made my treatment were specially cautious not to rub anything too much and to not apply too mch pressure in my body either. At the end my skin was soft as a baby's and they had made the dark circles of my eyes disappear along with my eyebags. They were amazing, even made my nails in a light pink tone, mom and Jainny were so very excited to see me again with a light brightness on my face, I smiled and enjoyed my time with them, then we got ready in my mom's room, that still was the biggest in the packhouse. After about two hours we fiished our make up and hair, then jumped ito the matching dresses we had chosen and walked down stairs.

The moonlight was starting to bathe the garden, where not so long ago my brother's naming ceremony had taken place, and the party started, all the pack was dancing and having fun. Mom had made an incredible job with the organization, and Jainny had made sure everything went exactly as plannned, she made the food be tried before I ate it and checked for anything dangerous on the drinks, So she assured me I was safe and that the shifting will go just fine. I was walking around, not really feeling like dancing, but was still as happy as I could be in my own party, I hanged with the pups and the were happily playing around the tables and the treehouse. Girls took flowers and arranged the on my hair, they insisted it would look amazing on me and on my wolf. They were very excited to meet my wolf, they were sure she would be beautiful and strong. Cerila kept purring in delight over being called pretty and cute. She was having the greatest time on my mind, while I sat with a smile and allowed the girls to decorate my hair.

'It's about time, head to the stage now', Cerila announced.

"She says you are about to see her, is my hair done?" the grils giggled, left my back, stood in front of me and nodded playfully with wide smiles on their faces. I smiled back gave them a quick hug and started making my way to the stage, my skin started tickling.

When I saw my reflection I noticed The girls had made a cron of flowers on my head, and some were scatered all over my lose hair. I smiled again, and told my brother through our bond that I was ready for the shift. He called out to the pack ant told them to surround the stage. Mom, dad, Jainny and Aroon were already waiting for me. I stepped up and stripped myself from the baby blue dress. And when I felt the moonlight on my skin I suddenly felt my knees give up under the pain of my rearranging bones, I could hear the craks and feel the movement of my bones and articulations. The pain was excruciating, but I wasn't going to scream, I closed my eyes and focused on Cerila, she had to take over for the packrun in order for me to stablish a link with my pack, when I opened my eyes again it was like being held as an spectator of my own life, when Cerila turned around there were four big wolves, when she noticed they were our family she looked up to the moon and howled, the rest of the pack was as well on their wolf forms and my brother looked deep into Cerila's eyes, and then his wolf's voice was heard 'Welcome sis'.

Cerila bowed slowly and then started jumping around, I had the memory of the pain and how I thought at the end I was about to pass out, but it was all worth it when I felt our powerful paws on the ground, and saw our golden fur moving with the wind. 'Can we run now? Please' asked Cerila looking into Jace's eyes, he was my brother's wolf. Without any other word he howled and the pack followed him into the forest, everyone was greeting Cerila and even played with her, they leaded her through all the territory, up to our borders, and then ran back to the packhouse to introduce her to the pack pups. So when they arrived the pups had lined up and the girls were holding a mirror on their hands. Cerila started walking through them letting them touch her fur and didn't even flinch when the occasional baby tugged from her ears or squished her nose. When she got to the girls they raised the mirror and said "We told you you would look very cute with those flowers on you" then Cerila looked up from their proud faces and jumped in content, the flower crown had remained in between her aers and it looked very cute, as if she had been rolling on a field full flowers. She brushed her forehead with the girls very softly to thank them, and then all the pack went back to the packhouse to take their robe and shift back.

'Here you have to take back control, so focus on going back to your human form' Cerila guided me to turn back, so the pain started again, I shed a couple of tears, but I was very happy to have let her out for the first time, when I shifted back to human I rested my body on the groun in fetal form, it still hurted a bit afterwards, so I waited until the pain faded and then put on the robe, it was soft and kept the cold wind away. Suddenly I felt something that was like a punch in my heart, and an image of Edward went through my mind, this was something meant to be shared with him as well, but he never showed up. That made me sad, and before going out of the forest I crawled and shed a few tears over the absence of my mate, the love of my life hadn't been able to met the other part of me. Cerila sniffled with me and then a voice snapped me back from my sadness.

'Hey Naty, we are waiting for you to congratulate you, is everything alright?' it was Aroon.

'Yes A, I am going out, I just needed a minute' I took some deep breaths and went out of the forest.

The pack roared with happiness, they felt my joy for being now able to link all of the, they hugged me and spoiled me all night. Even though we were sad for not being able to see Edward today, we still kept a smile on and celebrated with our family and pack.

*End of flashback*