Inside a Nerd's Mind

A Lovely Introduction

I took a deep breath again as I stood up.

“Well, we have to do what we gotta do.” I motivated myself.

I stood in front and looked towards my classmates.

“Wow!” I murmured to myself as I got a feeling of déjà vu. It was like I imagined doing this in the past. But I realized I’m stupid as I literally stood in front just like this an hour ago.

“Hi! Uhhh… My name is Ethan. And… I want to be a Computer Scientist when I grow up. Thank you.” I said then I looked over to Ms. Vargas on where she nodded and I walked back to my seat.

A simple introduction for a simple guy.

Or maybe… a pretty boring one.

Some people say that first impression matters because it lasts. How you look or whatever you say to people the first time you meet them will have an impact on their impression of you. If you were dirty or didn’t dress properly when you met them then they might think you’re someone who’s unclean or doesn’t care about hygiene. If you didn’t pique their interest when you first meet them then they might see you as someone bland, boring, or normal, and normal is still boring. Whatever you did five years ago, especially if you don’t always meet with them, they will still remember as one of their memories towards you and they’ll judge you for it or keep it in mind until they forget you even existed.

After I sat down, we skipped Kim and continued on to my classmates.

It was pretty normal and cool, I’d say. There are people that I already know but most are people that I have yet to meet. Some are people that I look forward to meeting because I think we’ll connect to each other since I assume we have the same humor or share an interest, especially those people that would go to the same field that I am.

I got tired of looking at my classmate’s faces so I just looked down at my table and started drawing things with my fingers. As I was minding my own business, there’s this one person that got my attention, well, she’s a girl actually, and she’s a pretty one. She wore the school uniform like it was her royal dress. She had a shapely and thin figure like she was cosplaying an hourglass. She had a glossy white complexion like she was touched by the sun. She had a cute and innocent face like she was an angel who fell down from heaven. Her hair was ebony-black as she had shiny, halo-white teeth. She had sparkling, brown eyes that looked like the beautiful night sky the more I stared at it. She had red, puffy, heart-shaped lips that look like it would be soft to kiss. She had a fun bouncy personality and a soothing voice that sounds like will lullaby me to sleep, which I adored. Last but not the least, she had a divine semblance and exotic beauty like she was born to be a princess of a far-away land.

And at my first sight of her, I fell in love.

 I was so deep into admiring her that I didn’t notice I stuttered the words, “She’s so pretty”.

And to the worst of my luck, the classroom was so quiet that you can hear a pin drop or even hear God whispering in your heart.

Oh, how I wish we were in the chapel instead so I can just pray this embarrassment away.

As I stuttered those words, most of my classmates heard it. They all looked towards the back wondering who said it. I was confused why they were looking this way when I turned over to Zach and Jeremy and they were staring at me. I looked over to Kim and she was staring at me as well.

I asked, “Why?”

And then Kim just giggled.

I was so confused and wondered why Kim was laughing, when Jeremy interrupted, “We all heard it, you, loverboy.” He smirked afterward as everyone else in the class laughed.

“What!” I murmured as I can’t believe it.

I turned towards in front of the class when I saw Ms. Vargas also staring at me.

And the girl, that I admired so much, Fiona, was blushing. I saw her cute innocent and sweet smile with her rosy red cheeks. I didn’t know whether to be embarrassed or to be relieved that she was blushing. I would’ve thought that she would be disgusted, because… I mean… who am I? I’m just nobody.

But my heart immediately melted when I saw her, wink at me, and there I felt - my soul leaving my body.