It's the middle of the night and we are staying over at Carlos'. Mila is not sleepy yet so we are both lying down together, she on top of me, while I am rubbing and caressing her back and butt gently. I feel guilty about spanking her today and then snapping at her. It's the worst I have ever been to her ever since we decided to engage in this lifestyle. I promise myself to strive harder to become a better daddy to her, even when I am worried. Especially when I am worried.
We are not yet over the 'being friends with Carlos' situation and he has asked me to work for him and extend my stay here. I didn't agree to his proposal but I didn't refuse either. I want to talk to Mila about this while she is not in her headspace but that's not happening anytime soon. I kiss her head that's on my
