Jealous Gore And The Victim

Dad

My courage to stand in these hard feelings wasn't about fighting the feelings and thoughts of the crowd who saw my naked videos, nor my missing saggar and other rumors, nor if I have the strength to deal with my mental health as I glace them with cure in silence, but that power I reminded myself to pick up for resilience, eliminate the living fear and stand out against the fall.

I've been building up this courage since I was away in isolation, and that was the only time I had to differentiate between winning and losing. I picked a choice to win, face the world, fight, strive, struggle and conquer.

Everything went high in my mind with complexity, and the only self-cure was the healing tools. I made myself 'face the fears, and the winner stay alive while the loser buried underground.

Despite my lack of concentration, I managed to complete the exam and handed it. I answered my questions in less than 20 minutes in an exam of 1 hour, and I stepped out to submit my answer sheets.

The initial invigilator "Hey, what happened, and where are you going?!" In attack, I ignored him still, and I handed over my booklet to the second invigilator who was to collect answer sheets after exams. "Are you done?" he asked.

"Yes." I replied and left the Hall, but the initial invigilator yelled at me to come back, back, "Salama, come here!" Awfully. So I went back to meet him, and this time, I was ready to face anyone, even the principal.

"I'm here," I said in frown.

"What is wrong with you, don't you hear when I was talking to you?" He said

"What were you talking about that deserves an answer?" I replied

"I asked you a question before the exams, but you ignored my response; why?

"I'm here for the exams or for your question?" I asked. He was shocked at my response and jaw-drops with no answer to me, so I left the hall while he watched behind as I disappeared.

I went out straight in anger and I met my dad and Aisha at the school premises with smiles on their faces, I wasn't in the mood nor ready to smile but from behind I heard a band and songs from the choirmates "Happy birthday to you....., happy birthday to you...., happy birthday...... happy birthday........ happy birthday to you...."

I was caught up in lit, bolt out of the blue, blissful. And it was truly my birthday I didn't remember.

Dad brought out cake and some drinks in beatitudes and my day was spiced up with pleasure.

Khalifa came out of the hall after me to enjoy the birthday together. So as I walked out of the hall, he caught up to me and said, "Salama, can we talk now?"

I sighed and agreed to talk with him. We found a quiet spot outside the school building, and he started asking me about my absence and what was going on with me.

I hesitated at first, but something in me was telling me to confide in him. So, I opened up about Aisha's condition, my struggles with depression, and how overwhelmed I felt with everything happening in my life.

To my surprise, Khalifa listened attentively and didn't judge me. He offered words of encouragement and support, telling me that I wasn't alone and that he would be there for me no matter what.

In that moment, I felt a weight lifted off my shoulders. For the first time in a long while, I felt like I had someone who truly understood me and cared about my well-being.

"It was a comfort by chance that cured every illness, everyone needed someone to hold on to, and my dad was the hero in court, teaching me resilience. Life couldn't be better without him.

Driving me both insane and the world, reaching me out with an entity of reality, learning to grow faster in maturity and handling emotional imbalance on the spot.

My poor self chickened by this torment in the barbaric lane but also pleasured between the lines in a little circle. 'Now is the sadness then is to joy, maybe peace thereafter nor dread in the halfway, and what a life in uncertain and always looking for a way.'

How to maintain the balance on one favorable side Is a common goal and question we all ask but no answers to it cos as long the seeking for the answers continues, the more questions to bear, and the seeking remains to the end until we all get late docking under the ground.

Assuring myself struggle strength to keep going till it gets better and understanding the management to maintain the stand." I was saying to myself

As we walked back to our homes, I couldn't help but feel grateful for Khalifa's presence in my life. He may have been annoying at times, but deep down, he was a true friend who stood by me when I needed it the most.

"How were the exams?" Dad asked as we were driving home.

"Glory be to God sir. It was great, but some sort of goofy supervisors were trying to piss me off, and that was the look on my face as I stepped out of the Hall.

They were trying to taunt me with 'they heard I was missing Sagar with silly questions,' but I ignored them. They were offended by the snub and felt ignored and wanted to wrath me as I was done with my exam as early as 20 minutes on starting, so I stepped out of their waste of time." I replied

"But I hope you didn't say something wrong to them?" He asked.

"No sir," I said.

"At this moment, you have to always control your temper, plus your thoughts, plus your emotions and plus every other thing.

Don't let the devil win, and make sure you pray often because you are among the great people God has chosen for greatness, and for greatness's sake to prevail, things to shape you up to greatness must happen to you.

This is to remind you what good and bad are and how to handle greatness at the tip-top.

Your mom and siblings were ranging their anger on me for taking you out of the House; I made you stubborn and disrespectful, blah blah blah. 'But did I make you so?' I don't know!

Women intuitions.

Passing blame on me for their misfortunes and fear of accepting fault, nor if they thought I was going to bully them, I remained silent treatment. They are all seeking attention I don't have.

Now that you are out of them, they have to seek who and what to blame, hate and get jealous of, or they turn around against themselves.

The house chores must be shared, and duties must be done, and they have to take responsibility and get used to it. And soon I'm adding a wife." He said.

"But why do you want to add a wife?" I asked in awe

"Your mom is so stubborn; she misbehaves a lot and is disrespectful at some point, and it would be messy when I finally return home, and the only way to respond to my mental health is to have a plan B."

"Hmmmm," I said.

"My mom would almost kill herself if it happened, and I couldn't imagine holding an acquaintance to that feeling. A poor child with a poor number what would I say to this? Silent...

Obviously, blood is thicker than water, and I feel for her, but her attitude is turning to losing a loving man like my Dad. But wait, am I going to live with my stepmom in the House?" The thought pop up.

"Where are you going to keep your second wife?" I asked him

"I haven't thought of it yet, but I will figure that out soon."

"And what about my mom and siblings? How are they going to react to this news?" I asked

"They will have to accept it eventually. Life moves on, and they will have to adapt to the changes." He replied

As we reached home, the atmosphere was tense but my dad remained firm in his decision.

I couldn't help but feel torn between my loyalty to my mom and my dad's need for happiness. It was a challenging situation to be in, and I knew that I would have to navigate carefully through the upcoming changes in our family dynamic.

But amidst all the chaos, one thing was for sure - my dad's words about resilience and strength rang true. I would have to find the courage to face the challenges ahead and emerge stronger from them. And as my birthday came to an end, I knew that the journey ahead would be a test of my character and fortitude. But I was ready to face it head-on, just like I did with the exams earlier that day.

And as I entered my house to find Aisha waiting for me with a smile on her face, I knew that with Dad, Khalifa and Aisha by my side, I could face whatever challenges came my way.