I want to live

Chapter 15

"What are you doing here, Jackson?" Elijah tilted his head slightly, still with sleepiness in his eyes. His brain was always a little late with comprehending situations after he had been in his headspace. But then it clicked. "J-J-Jacks-son...?" He blinked and after a while, he noticed how everyone has been gathering around him, it made him feel small. “What are you--”

"Do they know each other?" A voice said

No way~ He's a freak! Of course, The Jackson Wang wouldn't know someone like him"

"Whoa! did you see how he totally beat the crap out of that freshman?"

Scary

Creepy

Look at him, freak!

he's a freak

„Shut up...„

Look he's getting scared

He's just looking for attention.

Maybe he paid the freshman?

„SHUT UP! „

Elijah's mind was screaming at him to get out of there, but... his body wouldn't move, he felt scared, he felt like everybody was looking at him, looking down on him.

"-ah? Elijah? ELIJAH?!" He heard a voice yelling his name and he tried to locate the direction, to find a guy looking at him with worried eyes.

There was a long silence until one of the girls suddenly broke it. "That FREAK knows Theodore?!" Elijah could sense the anger in her voice.

Theo seemed to have heard it too since he quickly turned his head towards the group, the voice was coming from. "WHO THE HELL ARE YOU TO DECIDE WHO I CAN BE FRIENDS WITH?!" He sounded furious. It was like he was an entirely different person than the one who had been helping Elijah a few hours ago. His glaring eyes wandered to every person in the small group until he found a guilty-looking girl in the middle, hiding behind some other people. He walked towards her and the people moved away, not wanting to get involved with the current situation.

As he stood in front of her he leaned down to her eye-level. "Are you jealous~" He smirked evilly, sending shivers down Elijah's spine.

Elijah? Can you hear me?

„Huh? Whose voice is that...? „ He looked around searching for the unknown voice.

Elijah, please listen to me... Don't blame yourself for our death. Don't feel lost like you are now, it makes me feel sad even in death. You must connect with other people.

„Then why did you leave me here all alone? „

You don't know how much it hurts me to see you in this state. If I could I would with all my heart beg the gods to let me see you happy. Please… for me... put down the wall you built around your heart.

'But at the end of the day aren't we all just broke souls looking for the love we once lost for someone~' Isn't that what he always said.

Elijah felt his head beginning to hurt, and he hadn't realized he had already wandered out of the canteen, he couldn't hear Theo's endless calling. He couldn't recognize the halls he had just walked in. He just felt like it was the right way, He wandered up the endless stairs while the voices in his head were screaming at each other, one saying to calm down and listen to it and the other screaming mean and hurtful words.

As he finally reached his proposedly final destination, the voices became lower and more distant. The hurting in his head seemed to disappear with them. He breathed heavily as he opened the door to the school roof, a swift breeze blew him in the face, cold and calming.

He breathed out and slowly walked towards one of the benches with the view over the town. He loudly breathed in letting his lungs get the things they longed for, as he, with a glazed-over look, tried to wrap his head around what just happened in the last 24 hours.

“My boss tries to r**e me, Jackson saved me and brought me to his house and awards brought me to the hospital. I went to the dance studio and Luke found me, drugged me so I would pass out and when we got home r***d and beat me... The next morning, I helped Luke with his school project, went to school, meet the guys who helped me yesterday, got chased by them, cried and passed out. I wake up in the nurse's room, eat and talk with Roman-hyung and Ryan. I leave to meet my teacher, go to the cafeteria, got yelled at by an annoying freshman, beat the s**t out of the annoying freshman, slept on the table, wake up to see Jackson again. Theo came and he was being scary... I run up to the roof and now I'm here... Talking to myself" He loudly sighs. " What a great f*****g life I'm living!" He sarcastically yelled out chuckling afterward.

"Who do you think you are?!" Elijah was quite startled by hearing a loud voice behind him and quickly turned his body towards the sound.

"Who are you...?" He didn't recognize her so it was kind of confusing as to why this timid looking girl would yell at him for no reason.

"You're the reason Theo got mad at me!" She stepped closer. "You're probably also the reason why he won't accept the confession I was going to do after school now!"

"Your life problems have nothing to do with me!" If there was something the male hated more than anything, it was girls, he didn't understand them, they could go from being all jolly to 'I will kill you in your sleep' at the blink of an eye.

"WHY WOULD HE CHOOSE A NOBODY OVER ME?!" She harshly pushed the other as she kept walking closer, pushing him the second she got close.

"Hey! It's not my fault he doesn’t like a b***h like you!" Now he wasn't just angry he was furious. Not only was he already in a bad mood, to begin with, her loud screaming was hurting his ears.

He kept yelling mean insults the second she came with on too. And they kept that going until his head suddenly got swung to the side, a stinging pain suddenly making its appearance on his cheek.

"Who are you to talk to a girl like that?!" She raised her hand ready to hit him again. He shut his eyes tightly waiting for the impact... But it never came.

Instead, a girly whimper made its way to Elijah's ears and he opened his eyes to see a smiling guy holding around the girl’s wrist and waist. "Now, that isn't very lady-like~" the girl blushed a deep crimson as she looked into the guy's eyes.

He gently pulled the girl away from the still confused male. He let go of her wrist but kept his hand on around her waist leading her to the door leading inside the school again. He waved and smiled cutely and made sure the girl had left before turning around and walking back to Elijah.

"Having trouble with your girlfriend? ~" he said with a smirk and nudged the other slightly.

"No! And I don't even know her, she just began screaming at me for no reaso— someone's coming." Elijah looked in the direction to see a group of 11 guys trying to sneak up behind them. "Whaaat are you doing...?" He raised an eyebrow as he scanned the boys.

"Aww we wanted to surprise you Andrew~" one of them whined.

"Who is this kill-joy anyway?" Another one said as he made a slight head nudge toward the unknown person.

"Donno, just meet him." 'Andrew' turned towards the now stares down male. "Who are you?"

"Elijah Duncan... Who are you?" The self-introducing boy felt somewhat intimidated by the big group of people he had never seen before.

"I'm Andrew." His earlier savior pointed towards himself. "That's Arthur, Vincent, William, Harry, Jonas, Joshua, Julian, Mick, Jack, Shaun, and Danni." To each name followed a face. " Even though some of us are sophomores and some juniors, we’ve all been friends since forever. Nice to meet you!" He reaches out his hand for Elijah to take while the person he reaches it out to just say there, stunned.

"Why are you so nice to a disgusting person like me...?" His lips move but barely made any sound as he took the outstretched hand earning a big smile from almost all of them.