A Month To Fall In Love

CHAPTER-1

CHAPTER 1

"I always look into your eyes to trace those lies, to see if I was correct. No matter how much you say you love me, your actions speak the opposite. I feel like you are tricking me. Why would I want to go into a commitment with you when I am not sure about it yet. You leave me scared and hurt, you see me as someone you can just use, you are such a selfish jerk. Everything is always about you and never me, you make all my moments yours. What exactly is your plan, what do you want from me. At this point, I just want to let you know how I feel. I don't think I can do this with you." She flares as soon as I propose to her. I can swear on my life that I love her, I just don't know how to show it. I have just not been shown how to love.

"Please, just try to understand me. I am trying my best."

"You see what I am talking about, I complained about something and you have turned it to a discussion about yourself. I should always be the one to understand your feelings and you do not even think of mine. I have tried to understand you and the way you treat me but you just keep feeding on my insecurities. I don't know what to do with you anymore. I tried tolerating you hitting me because of your violent background, thinking you would change because you were always telling me to give you time and you would change. Those things leave me scarred and bruised and I cannot bear them anymore."

"I swear, I didn't mean to hurt you those times. I just acted on impulse because you reached my insecurities and my weak sides. Please.."

"I am hurting, you are hurting too. This is toxic, it's toxic for the both of us. We should end it." She stands up to leave and I grab her arm tightly, standing up with her.

"Please, don't do this."

"Please let go of me, you are hurting me." I loosen my grip and move to her side to.

"Look at me.. please. You are the only one that I can still see, there is nobody else around me. You are the only person left in my life, you are the one who helps me to heal. Please don't leave me." She looks at me before looking ahead again, a drop of tear slips down her face to the ground.

"We need to let go of one another, no matter what I mean to you, we are not happy." She yanks her arm from my soft grip and walks away.

"You do not understand my feelings yet. Don't go please." My legs are frozen to the ground as she speeds up her pace and I hear her pained scream as she leaves my line of sight.

I pull the white cloth with the rose petals decorations writing 'Will You Marry Me' off the table, the red candles on it sets the cloth on fire, lighting up the dimly lit warehouse. I fall to my knees and shout for as long as my lungs could allow me with tears streaming down my face as the smoke from the wide spreading fire blocks my vision of the night sky.

"What happiness could I ever feel if the last person in my life left...how would I ever be cured if my only support is gone from me. What wo.." The smoke entering my lungs makes me cough cutting my expressions. The air gets thinner and my eyes get blurry as I hear the sirens from a distance and shouts from a far away place as my body falls to the ground. I see her figure in small slits with men in uniforms and safety helmets before my vision thins out.

'What do you need?' A ghostly looking man appears in the darkness of my vision.

Did I die? Death is far better than life now...

'No, you did not die.' He just read my unconscious thoughts.

'Your desperation and the pain of two people brought me to give comfort. Tell me what you need. You cannot speak in your state but I will pick up your thoughts. Tell me what you need through your thoughts.'

All I need is her. If she can come back into my life, I would be contented. I am happy with her by my side, even if she does not think it to be true.

'You want Ms. Zevia Collins. I intended to tell you that nothing comes easy on Earth and nothing is free, but you have never had anything easy meaning it is already known to you. We would not really know the value of things if they came easily. When we work hard enough for something, if eventually we get it, it would be so precious we would not want to loose it.' He moves from my vision and I see only blackness.

'I could bring her to you easily but then, you will still end up like this in the end. I would only give you the atmosphere and a little gift, it's up to you to work things out with her. You love her so much that you want to die since she is gone from you but she does not feel the love you speak about. She has tried to stay with you, to heal you but you only focus on your wounds and not the person treating them. You need to awaken your soft side, awake the art in every human to love. To do that, you need to learn what is necessary, you need to pay attention to the one trying to erase your scars. If you are not able to show her the love you claim to have for her, she will eventually end up leaving again.' I see his figure again but closer and he doesn't look ghostly anymore.

'Once in a blue moon is too frequent a time for this gift to be bestowed upon any. You have a month to fall in love and improve your love life. 21 days to make something a habit and 90 days to make something your lifestyle, that is the rule for your kind. The time of my gift has started counting and at the time you have awoken, a day would have gone by. You have 30 days until the privilege wears off. At least 8 days to convince her and 21 days enough to make love and care your habit. My gift has caused her confusion, go and help her out.' His figure begins to fade out making me see the darkness through him.

'You have just met with time, use your opportunity wisely.' I swear I would have smiled if only I could move. Though it be hard, I would have to put in more efforts to awaken my dormant heart.