love and hate myself

First born

30th November . A mother was in so much pain cause it take way too much time to give birth to the first child . The child was a girl.For taking too much time when the child was born she was not crying cause she was shortage of oxygen. That's why the doctor are busy with the baby. The child was not crying that's why the mother sit up and asking about her child but clamed the mother and then stitched the the mother' wound. The doctor hung the baby and slapped the baby' butt After sometimes the baby started crying. Then the mother sign in relief . The family now a three member family. Everyone was very happy.

The girl is now 17 years old ,she sometimes behave mature but the only thing that she can't do is to consulted in study and always on social media. That is the thing that has become the thorn in her that made her slowly losing interest in life. She is the only daughter of the couple

As only child she got all attention of her parents. She never knew what is sharing,what is the feeling of taking responsibility,what is get ignore by your parents sometimes. She never know that . So it was expected that she should to be successful and mindful to her studies. But is was wrong she was a lost child even though she was not spoiled and behave with everyone .

Even at the beginning she was a really nice child but after her 12 years old she started to misbehave with her parents. She knew it was wrong to do it but she couldn't stop from shout at her parents. Then she regret for her behaver the damage was made her mother was vary sadden by her behaver but she (m) didn't say anything. That's made the daughter even more guilty. She use to take a knife and stare at her wrist. Yes at that age she started to thinking about her death. She didn't do anything but thought many ideas of her death like hit by a car or cutting her wrist or eating too much sleeping pills. But never trier any of them . Cause it was a great sin to ourselves or taking our own life. That's what made her stay away from talking her own life . At that time she also stop studies and she used to overthinking to much. After some time she couldn't consulted in her studies that's what made her to stay away from her studies too

It was time of COVID-19. So she get so many time to spend in social media. That's what hurts her mother to much. When the mother used to express her feeling the daughter always thought that why is alive just to make her mother suffer. After hurting her mother she scratch her self with pin. Her told her not to do this kind of thing again.

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