Saving My Mate From The Rogue Alpha

Chapter 2 - Beth

I pull my blazer tighter around my body to protect against the cold night air, although I know that most of the goosebumps all over my body are not caused by the cold, but by Billy’s touch. A smile spreads across my face as I remember his gentle touch. It felt so good when he touched me and when I touched him. I had almost lost control. It felt right like it was exactly what I should be doing, what my body craved. Perhaps I should have done more with him tonight. Hell, I wanted to. I wanted to more than anything else in the world right now, but I don’t trust myself to not get carried away, to not go all the way with him. I have been in love with him for as long as I can remember, but he has always just thought of me as his best friends nerdy sister, that followed them around all the time desperately trying to join in with whatever they were doing. As we got older I had been heartbroken watching him with girlfriend after girlfriend, dreaming that one day it would be me that he wanted, but it never was. Not until a couple of months ago. However now that he wants to be with me, I can’t believe that he really wants to be with me. He has probably just worked his way through all of the other eligible she-wolves in the pack. I have been trying to keep him at arms length, to not get too carried away with him, however hard it is, however much I want him.

Tonight I had finally given in and kissed him, and it had been as perfect as I had ever imagined it would be. He was so gentle at first but when I kissed him harder, he had responded just the way I had wanted him to. I was so turned on feeling him hard against me. My body had responded with a mind of its own, and I couldn’t control the need I had for him. So, I had run away before I did something I might regret in the morning. I have no illusions about my relationship with Billy. I know the reason why he is still interested in me, is because I am still a challenge for him. I haven’t given myself to him yet, despite him pursuing me relentlessly for weeks. If I give in and give him my virginity, I will be the latest name on the long list of she-wolves that he has slept with, and then dumped. I am so scared of being just another conquest to him. So I had made up an excuse about checking on my brother and ran away. How f*****g lame. I had spent all afternoon planning for tonight. Trying on different outfits, selecting the perfect one and doing my hair and makeup, and getting my look just right. All to spend less than an hour at the party because I kissed my friend. There are more people than just Billy at the party, I tell myself frustrated by my actions. I had been enjoying chatting to my other friends. They were all talking about who they thought was going to end up with who, trying to play matchmaker for tonight and forever. It wasn’t too late. I could still go back and enjoy my night. I should go back and enjoy my night. I turn around and head back to Denny’s house. I mind link Brody to check he is ok. That was my reason for leaving after all but all I got was a ‘not now’ so I guess he and Tess have sorted out their issues for tonight. I reach the house and head back into the living room. Looking around the room I see my friends still sat on the sofa, where I had left them. I retake my spot on the arm of the sofa and try to catch up with their conversation.

“I thought you left?” Jen, one of my best friends asks. I scan the room looking for Billy.

“Brody’s fine so I came back. Where’s Will?”

No one answers, but they all look away, not wanting to make eye contact with me. s**t.

“Where the f**k is Will?” I demand forcefully.

“He went upstairs.” Jen mumbles to the floor.

“With someone?” I shout the question at them and they reply with small nods, still not meeting my eyes.

“A she-wolf?” I shout incredulously, as Jen nods apologetically.

“You have got to be f*****g kidding me. All f*****g ready?” I stand up and storm out of the room towards the stairs.

“Beth wait.” Jen shouts after me, but I ignore her and continue to storm through the house. I feel everyone’s eyes now following me. ‘f**k Beth don’t make a scene.’ I tell myself as I dash up the stairs two at a time. I stop outside the room I had gone into with Billy not too long ago. ‘Do I even want to know?’ I suddenly question myself, but I know the answer, I have to know. I open the door slowly. I’m not sure what I expected to see when I knew he was upstairs with a she-wolf, but the sight of her mouth around his c**k is an image I never expected, and one I will never be able to forget. I turn around and slam the door closed behind me with a loud thud . I run down the stairs and out of the house as fast as I can, as the tears start to flow down my face. I run as far away from the house as I can, away from the pack house. I don’t want to go home. I don’t want to go anywhere. I just want to be alone. I run to the stream at the far edge of the woods, at the very end of our territory, and sit down on the makeshift bridge. This was a place I used to come to with Billy and Brody when we were younger. To build a den and dream about the day that we would run the pack. The Alpha, the Beta and the Luna. I can’t believe I fell for him. I can’t believe I let him touch me, and I was so close to going further with him.

“Beth, where the f**k are you?” Billy screams through the mind link but I close it as soon as I realise it’s him. I can feel him trying to connect again but I refuse to allow him into my head anymore. I can feel several other people trying to make a connection but I block them all too. I need to be alone to think. I don’t need to hear any of his excuses. I saw what they were doing and I will never be able to forget it. How could I let myself get so carried away with him tonight? I had managed not to kiss him for weeks, why had I given in tonight? Why am I getting so upset about this? I have always known what he was like, I knew I didn’t mean anything to him so why did it hurt so much to be shown that? All the questions keep coming into my mind and I can’t answer them. Except, maybe I had been starting to believe what everyone has been predicting, that me and Will are going to end up being fated mates. Goddess I hope not.

“Beth. Please, just let me know you are ok.” A voice down the mind link asks. The bastard went to the one person he knows I won’t block, the one person I can’t block as we are so closely linked.

“I’m fine Brody. I’ve just been for a run, glad I wore my hi tops tonight rather than my heels. I’ll be back soon, but I better not see him anywhere near our suite. Not tonight.”

“Ok. I’ll make sure the coast is clear.” Brody says and I really hope he does. “You sure you are ok?”

“Yes, I’m great.” I lie. “Everything good between you and Tess?” I change the subject.

“Yes it’s all good. I’ll speak to you when you get back, ok?”

“Fine. He better not be there.” I warn my brother sternly.

“He won’t be, I promise.”