Was I terrified of Luka Zaitsev? I don't know if "terrified" is the right word to define the way I feel now when I am near him. I would like to say that I am strong, that I unhesitatingly feel indifference to that i***t who hurt me so much, but I... I can't say that because I don't really feel it. When I see Luka I feel pain for losing him, anger for what he did to me, and some kind of hope and desire because I still want him to come looking for me.
But today at night, when I stood in the doorway and saw him when his ice blue eyes landed on me in the doorway, I felt paralyzed, like I was facing a wild animal who was thinking of attacking me. I always feel like that when I am in front of Luka and he looks angry with me, I feel paralyzed, terrified, he has that effect on me with his big col
