He Called Me Gorgeous. Disaster Engagement Series Book 2

Episode 14

he said in a posh voice. "she sounds awful remind me never to sleep with Lexi" "but if you think it's weird then I'll stop" "no I actually really like it, you are so sexy. I was just wondering" he kissed me and he looked relieved. "Stefan was a very very very quick draw" "is that right" he said with a smile "it was so frustrating, sometimes I wouldn't even have got my knickers off. He was a bit wet behind the ears" "He’s a little arsehole, he used to wonder about with Fran and the boys like he owned the world showing off that you were his bird, I always hated him" "why did you split up with Lexi?" "I hated her" "oh right" "she wanted to move in here and she wanted to get engaged and I didn't. I was trying to find a way out. But we worked together every day and had a lot of the same friends you know how it is. Anyway she got hammered and kissed her ex boyfriend Monty" he said with a smile "My ego was a bit hurt but I was relieved when I found out so I could finally get shot of her without looking like the bad guy. She was a nightmare, she's nothing like you. She would have two glasses of wine and flirt with your grandad. That's the thing with those posh birds, they pretend to have morals but they are a bunch a slags. She had a reputation for sleeping about a bit on the show but I didn't release just how bad she was until one night we were at a dinner party with her pals from school. They were playing truth or dare and I couldn’t believe the stories they were telling. Her and her mates got up to all sorts. Swapping boyfriends for the night and threesomes, you name it they did it” Although I had witnessed the Big Man doing worse I had to pretend to be shocked. "that's disgusting" I said and let out a little laugh. "She always thought that her and her family were better than me but rather than tell her to piss off I tried to fit in and compete with them. But it's like a different world all that, I'll just stick to working class girls from now on" he said and kissed me with a cheeky smile. "Yeah working class, I'm dog ugly but I've got big t**s" "you are not dog ugly....you are my dream girl and your not up your own arse" we both laughed, I climbed on top of him he was still on his back, "so you only like f*****g commoners now Tommy" I said in posh voice and he slid his hands up my body to my bare beasts, and stoped at my n*****s. "Only ones with perfect t**s like you beautiful and you ain't common, you’re my princess" he was hard between my legs I started to rub myself against him and he let out a moan. I was still wet from before and I took his d**k with one hand and sat down on it until he was balls deep. "Jesus" He said with a grin and I slowly moved up and down gliding him in and out of me at a delicious pace. He lay there staring up at me playing with my n*****s then out of no where I said "Tommy I want you to come" he contorted his face. "What we've only just started don't say that" "I want you to come baby I want you to come in my mouth. Come on my face tell me I’m a good girl" he sat up and bit down hard on my n****e as he climaxed. He looked up and took me into a deep lustful kiss. "You’re going to be the death of me girl" he said with a filthy grin.

Chapter

It was the day of the awards ceremony and I decided not to tell the Big Man or Chris that I was still going to attend it with Stefan. I didn't tell them because I didn’t want them to worry about me and I really didn’t want them to tell Fran. I’d organised for Harry to come with me and he said that he wouldn’t let me out of his sight. I had stayed with Tommy the night before because he seemed like he needed some reassurance that I wasn’t going to meet Stefan and fall into his arms and realise that I really did want to be with him instead of Tommy. As if that was going to happen, but Tommy was really insecure no matter how many times I told him that it meant nothing and that I was being blackmailed in to attending the event with him. What Tommy didn’t seem to get was that I was terrified of facing Stefan and the thought of seeing him again had me so nervous that I was actually ill. Tommy had been really moody about the whole situation and I couldn’t help but think that he was being a little bit selfish because I wasn’t going with Stefan to hurt him and he wasn’t even thinking about my feelings, he was just concerned about how it was impacting him. When I woke up that morning Tommy wasn’t next to me which was unusual and I wondered if he was still in a bad mood. Then out of nowhere I had to immediately run to the bathroom to be sick. My sickness had calmed down a lot in the weeks running up to the awards ceremony so I was shocked that I felt so unwell again and that’s when it hit me that maybe the doctor had been right, that it was caused by anxiety. I was feeling really sorry for myself as I got back into Tommy’s bed especially because he wasn’t there. I could hear him down stairs rattling around and I was desperate for someone to comfort me. I thought about going down to see him but he was already on edge about me having to go out with Stefan so I decided to call Fran instead. Even though he was up in Glasgow and I knew that I couldn’t tell him about the awards ceremony, I just felt an overwhelming need to hear his voice. I had missed him so much over those past two months and in that moment I really needed him. I put the phone to my ear and waited patiently for him to answer. After what felt like an eternity I finally heard his voice and he sounded sleepy “morning Gorgeous. How are you? Sorry I was asleep” was all he said and I felt better already. It was weird because all the panic that I had felt seemed to melt away. “Hi honey, sorry to wake you..... but I’m not feeling well and I needed to speak to you” I could hear him rustling around “What’s wrong? Are you ok? I can be there in a couple of hours. I’m on my way.” It sounded like he was getting dressed and I felt bad that I had given him such a fright because he sounded frantic. “No I’m fine honestly. Remember I told you that I kept being sick all the time a couple of months ago, well it went away for a while and now it’s come back and I’m just feeling sorry for myself” he took a deep breath “have you seen a doctor?” He sounded serious and that’s what I loved about him. “Yeah, he said he thinks it’s caused by anxiety” He was silent for a second “Do you feel anxious? What’s wrong Gorgeous, you know you can tell me anything.” Although I was feeling anxious I knew I couldn’t tell him why. “Not really. I think I will go back to the doctor because I haven’t felt right since we got back from Vegas” He was quiet again. “You’re not pregnant are you?” He asked in a calm voice “Don’t be daft” I said with a laugh. “Promise me you will go to the doctors” he said in his bossy tone that I had missed so much. “I promise. I miss you Francis.” “I miss you too Gorgeous.” We ended the call and I felt so much better, even though I hadn’t been honest with him I still felt better for some reason. He had always been my rock and although my feelings for Tommy were growing every day I still thought of Fran as the number one person in my life that I turned to no matter what. After a couple of minutes Tommy came through his bedroom door with a tray with breakfast and tea and a huge smile on his face and I was glad that he was in a better mood. “What’s all this Tommy?” I said with a fake smile “Breakfast in bed for my princess” he said and he looked really proud of himself. I felt a tiny bit guilty for calling Fran instead of turning to him. “Thanks honey it looks great but I'm sorry I can't face food, I can't eat because I'm so nervous" His face dropped as he put down the tray of food and he took my hand "everything is going to be ok" He said and he actually sounded convincing "I know that Harry will be there but I'm terrified" He stood there staring at me awkwardly like he didn’t know what to say. “Just think by this time tomorrow this will be all behind you" he took the flower from the breakfast tray and put it between his teeth and I let out a laugh. "just think, you’re coming home tonight to all this" he said as he flexed his muscles. "Yeah I'm a lucky girl" I said with a smile “why don't you tell him to f**k off and stay here with me instead" he said kissing my neck. "Oh Tommy that's good" he kissed further down and I was in heaven. As I left his house he stoped me at the door. He pinned me to the wall and kissed me gently "Princess before you go I want you to know that I'll be here waiting for you" "I know honey" "and that I love you" his eyes were hopeful and unsure "I love you too Tommy" he let out a sigh of relief "thank god for that" he picked me up and kissed me again "you've made me a very happy man, now go there tonight and don't take any of his s**t" I nodded my head and put on my best fake smile “ok baby" I said and he actually believed that I was ok. That’s when I realized that he couldn’t possibly love me because he didn’t really know me that well. Because if he did know me, there was no way he would have let me go anywhere near Stefan.

I had my hair and make up done at home and Stefan said he would meet me down stairs in the carpark and go straight to the awards, he promised he wouldn't drink but I wasn't holding my breath. Stacey was with me catching up on all the goss as I got my hair done. I had to excuse myself to go and be sick again. Stacey followed me into the bathroom. "Your not pregnant are you Lyds?" "no don't be silly I'm always extra careful" "really because your t**s are enormous" "they are always enormous Stacey" I rolled my eyes "I'm just coming down with something" but I was starting to worry, I was frantically trying to think of my last period but I had just started the pill again and it was a bit up in the air. Tommy and I had a lot of s*x and I was starting to panic "here take this" it was a pregnancy test, "no don't be silly" "it's written all over your face Lydia take the test" I quickly read the instructions and pissed on the end and waited a few minutes. When I looked down at the results I almost fainted. I was pregnant but it said 3 months+ and Tommy and I had only been seeing each other for about 8weeks it must be wrong. This can't be true it's a mistake. "Lydia these ones are really accurate, your pregnant honey" holy s**t what am I going to tell Tommy he dumped his last girlfriend because she wanted commitment and we've only been together a couple of months" "Lydia any one can see he's totally in love with you" "what about the band they aren't going to be happy, Fran will actually kill me" she shook her head “they will be happy for you" she said. I put the test down beside the sink “I need to think about this later" I had to face my ex that beat me up and I could only handle one drama at a time I slapped on a fake smile and headed out to the elevator. Stacey walked with me, "do you want me to come with you? It's not to late to pull out" I fake smiled "I'm going to be fine" "Lydia I don't know how you do that, you know that thing when you smile when everything's gone to s**t" "I've had to smile through worse s**t than this Stacey, see you soon honey I gave her a quick kiss and made her promise not to tell the Big Man that I was going out with Stefan and not to mention the baby to him yet. I went down with Harry in the elevator before the doors opened he squeezed my hand "I'm ok Harry" I put my hand on my stomach and thought about the baby and I was happy, although I wasn’t sure what Tommys reaction was going to be, but I knew me and the baby would be fine because we had each other. When I stepped out of the elevator Stefan was pacing in front of the car with his hands on his pockets. He looked startled when he saw me. It was almost a year since the last time I seen him. His face broke into a smile then quickly disappeared. He looked really good he had put on a lot of weight but it suited him. He was tanned and had his teeth fixed although I liked them before but he looked nice. I stepped towards him "Hi Angel" was all he could say, Harry stepped forward "Miss Knight, let me get the door for you" his eyes burned into Stefan. I was glad Harry was with me. He wasn’t as emotional as the Big man or Fran, and although I could tell he wanted to punch him, he remained professional. I climbed in the back seat and Stefan walked around and got in the other door. He sat down next to me "you look wonderful" he said and I gave him a little smile. "Are you going to say anything?" His eyes were searching my face for a reaction "Sorry I don't feel well" "oh really" he said but I could tell he didn’t believe me. we drove in silence for a while "you look amazing" he said and then it was quiet again "how have you been?" He asked. I wanted to shout ‘you tried to kill me you piece of s**t how do you think I’ve been’ but I had to remain calm. “Ok, a lot better" I said but I couldn’t look at him. “how's Fran and the boys?" I shrugged my shoulders “I haven't seen him in about two months his grandad died so he's up in Glasgow with his mum and the Bug Man and Stacey are totally loved up, it's really sweet, so I haven't seen them much either" "wow I'm surprised to hear that" "I know he's really growing up" "no I'm surprised to hear they are letting you live your own life, they suffocated you before" "don't start all that Stefan" "I'm sorry, I don't want to talk about them. How's the dragon?" I let out a huge laugh and Harry got a fright "are you alright Miss Knight" "yes I'm fine sorry Harry." I gave Stefan a smile and I could tell that he was just as nervous as me and I knew I had to play ball. I was scared that if I was a complete b***h to him that he would hit me again. And I could take that, but I had to protect my little baby. "I'm so sorry about what happened Angel, I was in a bad way, but I'm doing loads better now and I know I can never make it up to you, but I'm trying to be a better person." "I really don't want to talk about it Stefan. What happened really hurt me I was in a bad way for a long time but I'm doing better now and I think going over it might bring up some horrible feelings, so let's just concentrate on getting through tonight" He took a deep breath “I want you to know that I would never have thrown you over the balcony, I just wanted to scare you. I can’t explain why. But feel free to drink in front of me, I don't mind, I've been doing really well with my recovery and I don't want you to feel like you can't enjoy yourself" "no I won't be drinking, I'm not feeling great" he put his hand on my forehead to check my temperature and I slapped his hand away "don't touch me" I said and he looked really hurt. "I've got some painkillers if you need some" I knew that he was just trying to be helpful but he was beginning to annoy me. A couple of minutes later we pulled up outside the event "are you ready?" He asked with a shy smile. I took a deep breath to calm my nerves “Let’s f*****g do this” I said as he stepped out the car. I could see lots of flashing lights and I could hear fans screaming. Stefan ran around to my side of the car and opened the door and put his hand out to help me. I took it. It felt really sweaty and I stared to feel sorry for him because obviously he was just as nervous as I was. We walked towards the doors and everyone was screaming our names. We stopped at the a red carpet fashion reporter and she looked at Stefan with a funny look on her face "you both look sensational" she said "Lydia you are by far the most beautiful woman to have walked this red carpet" Stefan looked at me and said "she's the most beautiful woman to have walked anywhere" they both giggled but I just smiled and we carried on inside. These awards things looked glamorous but they really weren't. Because it was televised live it kept stopping for adverts and everyone was pissed on cheap wine. I checked my phone during the break and I had 15 missed calls from Fran and a text message 'I've just seen you on TV with that prick, I'm going to kill him' I hadn’t told Fran that it was still going ahead because I didn't want to worry him. But now I was worried that he was going to show up and kick the s**t of Stefan on live TV but I was thankful that Fran was still in Glasgow. People kept coming over to congratulate us on our engagement but it was all air kisses and fake compliments. Stefan whispered in my ear "fancy leaving and going for a burger and chips, these bunch of fake bastards are getting on my nerves" "Stefan I would actually kill for that right now" "no wonder I used to drink, this is awful" "do you know what? This is my first one sober too, I can't believe how crap it is" after a few long hours it came to Stefan’s award category. He sat there as they read the other nominees and for the first time he didn't look nervous instead he had an air of confidence about him. "And the winner is Stefan Black" they said the whole table stood up and we all clapped he stood up and shook the guy next to him by the hand then he turned to me and grabbed my face and kissed me on the lips. I let him kiss me because I didn't want to cause a scene but I wanted to kill him. I was livid that he had the nerve to touch me. He went up on stage to accept his award. "I would like to say thank you to everyone involved in the making of my album and to all the fans that have made it such a huge hit. I'd like to thanks Jay my producer and mostly I'd like to thank Lydia, without her, there wouldn't be an album, every song on there was written for you angel. Your the love of my life Lydia. Thanks again to all my fans out there" and he left the stage. My blood was boiling. He came back to the table ten minutes later and I was still livid. "I'm sorry, I really need to go home Stefan, I don't feel great at all, I think I'm coming down with something" I swallowed hard “of course" he said but he looked disappointed. I shouted Harry over and asked him to organize the car. "Thanks for coming Lydia" he said as I stood up and practically ran out the ballroom. When I got into the hall way I released that Harry and Stefan were running behind me. I turned to Stefan and I was sick all over his shoes "oh Stefan I'm so sorry" I let out a little laugh then his face broke into a smile. "Are you alright miss knight" asked Harry and he shot Stefan a dirty look but it wasn’t Stefan fault I that I was sick. “I actually feel loads better now, it must be that bug that Chris had" which was a total lie but I didn't fancy telling my violent ex that I was pregnant with my new boyfriend that I've only being seeing for two months. "I was going to ask if you still fancied that burger and chips my treat to say thanks for tonight, but if your not yourself you should go straight home to bed" "do you know what? after that I could murder a burger" we got into the car and Harry drove us through the drive in for a take away and we stuffed our faces in the back seat "I'm sorry about your shoes" "don't worry about it, honestly. I just thought you were desperate to get away from me that's why I was so surprised when you were actually sick" "I was desperate to get away. That speech Stefan, it was a bit much" "I meant every word of it. I know I've f****d up and there's no going back but I just wanted you to know that I do still love you, and I'm sorry for everything. I'm ashamed of what happened..... say something will you Lydia" "are you going to eat those chips" "yeah! eat your own chips" we both laughed. We pulled up at my underground garage. “Thanks again for tonight" he said shyly and I thought that this was the best time to let him know that I couldn’t go on with our fake engagement for much longer "Stefan I don’t know if your aware but we are heading to America at the beginning of the year on tour and I think that me and you should publicly end the engagement then” He took a deep breath and I waited for a huge reaction but instead he said "can I see you again?" I was surprised that he was so calm, but I’m even more surprised that he thought I would agree to see him again. Had he forgotten every thing he had put me through “No Stefan, I'm sorry, I'm terrified of you after what happened" I was trying to be gentle with him in case he lost his s**t again “but I've changed" he whispered and he looked like a broken man “I know you have and your doing so well and if I would have met this Stefan things might have been so different . But all that stuff did happen" he came closer to me and I backed away slightly towards the door "Lydia I’m sorry and I will wait forever for you to feel the same way about me again" then suddenly out of no where he tried to kiss me and I pressed my back up against the door to avoid his kiss. Then the door opened and I fell out onto the ground and when I looked up it was Fran standing there. And he looked furious.