Washington State1999: Nov 11: So much to tell: I still feel shell-shocked, but when I escape the pain and fatigue of fibro, and the culture shock, I’m so happy and content and growing. The relationship is interesting with the balance of shifting power and abilities, and acknowledging how much more appropriate these roles are. There are coyotes and cougars and bears and clouds and mountains and tall fir trees everywhere. Have I mentioned how much I hate hills?
Robyn calls me ‘he’ all the time, but everyone we meet when we’re out, like clerks, tellers, and waitresses, all call me ma’am and lady. It’s upsetting. I don’t want to deal with it with strangers. Being a poster child for transmen in transition could get me beaten up or killed. I don’t like being labelled trans anyhow. I feel too vu
