Waves of Betrayal

04

Chapter 04

“Choose me.” I begged.

“I have to go to my wife. I’m sorry.”

My mouth opened. “So that’s it?”

He shook his head. “This isn’t the end for us. I’ll come back to you.” His last words before entering the hall.

I stand there dumbfounded, his words still echoed through my ear.. Feeling small after begging him to be with me but instead of choosing me… he chooses his wife that he claims not to have any love left.

I couldn’t believe myself, I choose to believe a man instead of focusing of why I was here in the first place… and even after what I found out… that he’s married… to my step-sister, my feelings for him still remains. I thought faith has bought us together but now I don’t think that’s the case, this must be karma, but for whom?

“Are you okay, miss? Are you harm?” I snapped back from reality.

People inside the venue start to come out in a panic while the police are making sure that everything is in order. I nodded to the kind police who checked on me. Before I could see Harrison with her wife, I choose to leave instead, I know where I stand now, and it’s certainly not with him. I could not possibly allow myself to be with a married man.

“Yeah, I guess.” I smile but there wasn’t emotions found in my eyes.

I drove myself back to Seaview where I should be… in hiding. I scoff, I thought I’ve changed, I thought I’m now strong enough to face those people who did me wrong but I guess I’m not.

“I hope your fine.” I received a text from Harrison.

I couldn’t help but scoff. “The hell with you! You played with me! I can’t believe you didn’t tell me you’re married! To all people with the person I despise the most! I hope you’re happy with the woman you chose! She’s a monster!”

I let out my frustration, slamming and groaning while heavy rain and thunderstorm starts to pour, mimicking the emotions that I feel as of the moment… until my car suddenly stop in the middle of the road that caught my attention.

“What the f**k?” I whispered and tried to get it back on tract but failed. I had no choice but to check on it.

Despite the pouring rain, I went out and checked everything and found a flat tire. I sigh and changed it, and as I do the job, I couldn’t help but pity myself.

I’m alone in a pouring rain changing my car’s tire after getting rejected by the man I only wanted all my life... I’ve never felt anything like this before… it hasn’t even started yet… but it looks like it ended after earlier. It was clear and I’m dumb not to realize that.

I am suppose to be smart and rational but now I got distracted, and almost failed to do my mission. This is bad… he’s bad for me.

By the time I was done and back in the roads, the frustration stops… and tears fell as I’m nearing home, along with aches inside of me. I sigh not knowing what to do… so instead I let myself feel the pain.

I reached the house but it took me an hour before going inside, the rain finally stops and noticed a rainbow before I step inside the house. A sad smile appear from my lips.

“You okay?” I jump, I didn’t expect mom to be here.

I just nodded and head to my room but notice the news on the television.

I gulp upon seeing Harrison holding his wife tightly while going out of the hall along with the other guest. She’s crying and embracing him while he’s full attention is to her like he just didn’t offer me to be with him earlier.

“I saw what you did today was a success. You’re getting closer in getting the justice and revenge you always wanted.”

“I guess.” I whispered.

I forgot about that… I should be celebrating with getting Troy’s attention, I could get information through him and plan my next move, in gathering evidence but that’s not even in my mind right now.

“Is there something bothering you? You should get some rest, you’re soak with rain.”

“Its nothing.” I answered and went upstairs.

After taking a shower I find my phone full of messages from Harrison and a couple of calls that made me bite my lips… I turned off my phone before I could answer it. He made his decision clear, he shouldn’t confuse me anymore.

Days have past and I trained myself not to think of him or even feel something when I remember what had happen but sometimes it just caught up on me that I needed a distraction because despite my busy schedule I still have time to get upset about it.

“You look down… this has been going on for days now.”

Mom is staying with me as of the moment and as we’re discussing about my schedule as Anastasia, she suddenly pointed that out. I have been locking myself to my room and would only go out when there’s an event and such.

“You’re an active woman, Viv… You know you can talk to me when there’s a problem right? I’m always here… you know that… you’re my daughter.”

I look at her and couldn’t help but smile. How can this woman be so good to me when we’re not even family by blood… while those people made me suffer without second thoughts.

“I know, I got it handled.” She nodded but not convinced.

“Life is hard, you’re aware of that, especially after what you have experienced but that doesn’t mean if there's something upsetting you, it may not be big as the others, you cannot feel pain in small things.”

“I just felt disappointed to myself. I expected more from me that to be distracted by something. I won’t let that happen again.”

“I heard from Ella that you met a guy… is he the one upsetting you?” Ella must have noticed when I left with Harrison.

I bit my lips at that. “It wasn’t serious.” I don’t want to talk about him… the same as I don’t like talking about my problems.

“You’re young… it’s okay to fall in love, your life doesn’t revolve around getting back to those people who wronged you… there’s nothing wrong to live… while accomplishing your goal.”

“I know, but it’s hard to let myself off guard… I don’t want to get distracted and forget about what I have been working hard for the past years… I don’t want that all to be in vain, after all that I have been through.”

She smiles and holds my hands. She has this motherly touch that made me thought of my mom and where she is… and not here being with me and fighting with me.

“I know but sweetie losses up… this will be a long fight, and you have to think of yourself in the moment not just the future.”

After the talk with mom, it made me realize that she’s right but what she doesn't know that I was betrayed by the man that I liked and ready to risked everything to. I can handle this on my own.

But upon deeply thinking of the life, tears fell, I’m getting emotional these days. I could have live if my life right now doesn’t revolve around revenge… my life would be full of joy and laughter, right? I wouldn’t be so uptight and cautions and I would just let myself enjoy… I deserve that life.

Feeling the breeze and listening to the crashing waves as I sat on my surf board in the middle of the ocean. I felt a sense of calmness inside of me. The wind and the smell making me forget about my worries for a moment.

I stood up balancing myself and smiled widely as I crash through the waves, gliding and dancing with it like I belong there. The adrenaline and the feeling made me felt alive that I needed in that moment.

“It’s good to be back.” I whispered.

I wanted to promise myself into that begging girl but thinking of him makes me weak and thoughtless it’s making me frustrated. These emotions are foreign to me… I have never been in love or received love… I think it’s for the weak… and love can make me weak and distracted but am I depriving myself that, like what mom said?

The silence when I enter the house slowly eat me up. Mom left for work and I’m all alone again, the house is big for me… I look around, looking at the pictures of us through the years as I slowly become Anastasia… a lie that no one can know.

A knock from the door caught my attention that brought me back to my senses… no one spoke, and as I approach the door my heart is beating fast… thinking that this could be Harrison.

Did he now realize that he wants to be with me that be with his wife? I couldn’t help but smile at the thought.