The Werewolf/Dragon/Gornhi (Seven Tailed Fox)

So Many Questions, Not Enough Answers

Okay this is starting to get annoying. Why is it they have to stick me with a needle whenever I start having a panic attack? Is this going to keep happening for the rest of my life? Why couldn't I just have a normal life? I can't keep doing this. I wonder if the amount of wolfsbane and silver is the reason for all of my attacks. I hope not.. But what if it is... Will it ever leave my system completely? What if it doesn't? Will I become immune to it? I have so many questions, with no answers. I'll have to ask Dr. Sarah whenever I wake up. How long have I been out this time? Minutes, hours, days, months? Well, not months, because if so I would have shifted already. Wait a minute... The Moon Goddess said that I would have 3 different animals, which I have met already. I wonder how much more time I have till they are apart of me.

I can't wait. They were all so beautiful. I wonder if I could communicate with them again if I go back to the meadow. How do I get back to the meadow?

'You are here already child. Just open your eyes.' a familiar voice says, with a little giggle. I did as instructed and a huge smile reached my eyes. Yay I was in my personal heaven!

I looked around, and there was Raven, Sapphira, Athena, and the one and only Moon Goddess. I sat up, still smiling. "Hello, Raven, Sapphira, Athena, and Moon Goddess." I said with a small nod to each of them.

"Hello, my child. How are you feeling? And please just call me Selene." The Moon Goddess asked, nodding back.

"Selene? As in the Greek Goddess?" I asked flabbergasted. Selene, threw her head back and full on laughed. My inner animals all laughed as well.

"Yes my child. And before you ask, yes all of Greek Mythology is actually true." She said still laughing. I just sat there with my mouth wide open and my eyes larger then flying saucers. Selene simply reached forward and gently closed my mouth. "Now my child I brought you here to discuss you, not my origin. Specifically your panic attacks." Her face was all business now. "They will subside, eventually, but not until you meet your mate."

I simply nodded. "So until then I will always be on edge?" I asked defeated. Having these attacks just made me so weak, and it also set my healing back. "Anything will set me off?" Tears welled up in my eyes, and my vision became blurry. "I hate feeling weak!!!! I want it to stop!!! Why can't I just transform into my beautiful inner animals now, so no one can hurt me anymore? So no one can make me feel weak? WHY!!!???" I was yelling now, tears gushing out like water gushing out the side of fire hydrant.

Selene wrapped her arms around me instantly, and held me. "WHY CAN'T I JUST BE NORMAL?"

"Shoooo," Selene was rubbing soothing circles trying to console me. "It's ok, my child. I cannot tell you right now as to why you went through this. This was not what was suppose to happen in your life. It should have been totally different." She pulled away from me, I was balling like a baby, wanting their mother. "I promise you this," as she held my gaze, "I will make them all pay. I will even ask for some of my fellow Gods and Goddesses for help. Vengeance will be mine!" she had fire in her eyes, a fire that would destroy even Hades itself.

I looked at my inner animals, they all nodded there agreement, with the same fire in there eyes. 'Once we are able, they will all die!!!' They all proclaimed at the same time.

I don't know why, but I didn't want that. Even after all I went through, all the physical, mental, and sexually abuse, they took everything from me, and left so much more. However, for some reason, my child like innocence was never taken. I do not know how it is possible, when they tried to take that to. But I didn't want vengeance. I just wanted peace, I wanted the hurt to be over. If revenge is taken, it doesn't change the past. It doesn't change what they did to me. Yes I understand there anger, I understand the hatred. However, my heart does not want any harm to come to them, unless the council of elders of all werewolves decides their death, then so be it. I sniffled as they all looked at me strangely. When I looked at them, I saw pride, shock, surprise and unconditional love.

"What?" I asked them. They all looked at each other, then back at me. "Do I have something on my face? I mean other then my tears." They all giggled at that.

Raven spoke first. 'Do you real want no harm to come to those, those.....' she couldn't finish her thought. I was taken aback. 'Had I said that out loud?' I thought to myself.

'No my child.' Sapphira replied.

'However, without even knowing you projected your thoughts to all of us. Don't forget child you will become very powerful, once we all are able to take our physical forms. In this world you don't have to speak, and it is as if you are mind linking us all' Athena states.

Wow!!! That's cool. "So how powerful will I be? You know since all three of you are three of the most powerful beings in all of the supernatural world. Vampires and witches being the forth powerful."

Selene just smiles, "You will find out. Yes, the wolf, dragon, and the gornhi are the most powerful beings after the Gods and Goddess, that's why I created them for you and your mate." I grimace at that, and sigh. More questions then answers. Uggggg. Now I was getting frustrated.

"Selene, why can't you just tell me? It's so frustrating that you just say things in riddles. It's not fair. Why me? What so special about me?" I asked full on pouting now. I gave her my best puppy eyes.

Selene just laughed at me. "My child if I told you everything, then you won't be able to experience it. How about I just tell you this." OMG IS SHE GONNA TELL ME SOMETHING THAT WON'T LEAVE ME MORE CONFUSED AND FRUSTRATED. She laughed again, "You need to become this on your own, only with the help of your mate because," she pauses to make sure I am paying attention. If I was sitting on a chair I swear I would have fallen off, because of how on edge I was. Selene shook her head, "You and your mate will become, the King and Queen of all of the supernatural world!"

OH MY GODDESS!!!!! I then fell back to the ground unconscious.

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When I came too, I was no longer in the pack hospital, but in a very huge room. I had no idea where I was. I have never seen such, such... I didn't know how to describe it. I felt I was laying on a cloud for a bed, the pillow was it's own little cloud. I looked around, the room. It was painted in my favorite color. Dark Midnight Blue, with sky blue clouds all over the walls. At the foot of the bed was a huge fire place made of stone that look like it was from a old castle. To the right of the bed was a set of French doors, that led out to a balcony, there was silk see through crème color curtains hanging on either side of the doors. To the right of the doors was a vanity with a small stool. The vanity was sky blue, with dark midnight blue handles on the drawers. The bottom of the stool matched the handles, where the cushion matched the vanity. On top of the vanity was everything a girl could want and need. To makeup, brushes, combs, hair clips, hair ties. To the left of the doors, stood a huge chester drawers. I counted 6 drawers. The wood was stained dark chocolate brown. The handles were silver in color. On top of that were pictures of people in frames.

Next to the chester drawers, was a door, it was opened to what looked like an ensuite bathroom, I'll have to go in there later. As I continued to the left I found the fireplace again, onto the mantle were more pictures. On the left side of the fireplace was an off white door, where it led I don't know because it was closed. Next I saw a desk, the color scheme was similar to the vanity only opposite, where it was dark midnight blue with sky blue handles. It had a laptop, on it, with some books. All over the wall above the desk were bookshelves with books, little figurines of wolves, dragons, fairies, Gornhi's, witches, all supernatural beings really. On either side of the bed were night stands that matched the chester drawers, each with tulip lamps on them. All in all, I have never seen any like this. Who's room was I in? I took a deep breath, more questions, to which I had no answers to yet again. All though this room is something right out of my fantasy. If I had the perfect room, this would be it. I sat up and rested my back against the head board of the bed.

Then a thought occurred to me, oh no. If I'm caught in here by anyone I was going to get beat, if not killed. I was never allowed anywhere, except my private room in the pack hospital, and my cell. I started to panic again as I tried to get up from the bed. To my surprise I was not tied down, or chained for that matter. I'll go to the bathroom and then try to find a way to sneak out of here and try to find my way back to the hell hole I called home.

I quickly got out of the bed, and made my way over to the bathroom. It took a few minutes, to get to the bathroom, because every few feet I would loose my balance, and fall flat on my butt. I decided after a few failed attempts to walk that I would just crawl. I had way better luck, and it didn't hurt as bad. When I finally made it to the bathroom, I was in shock yet again. The bathroom was almost as huge as the bedroom. There was a huge mirror above a dual sink counter, with blubs of light around the outer edge of the mirror.

The counter top was black while the rest of the room was off white, almost crème the same color as the curtains in the bedroom. There was what looked like a linen closet behind the door inside the bathroom which was big enough to put 5 wheel chairs in, with people in those said wheel chairs. There was a huge oversize round tub with jets that could easily fit 10 people comfortably. The walk in shower was a good foot away from the huge tub. The shower could also fit 10 people comfortably. It had jets on 3 sides so the water would spray you from behind, and on either side of you. There was a 2 shower heads hanging down from the ceiling of the shower. All the walls were the same crème color.

There was another door at the far side of the bathroom. I crawled over to that door, and opened it to reveal the toilet, and another toilet like bowl except it wasn't a toilet bowl. I had no idea what it was. At this point I didn't care. I needed to use this toilet that was for the Gods and get the heck outta dodge before I get caught in here. I used all of my strength just to stand up, and pulled down my undergarments to sit down and do my business. As I sat there doing my thing I looked down, I was in a brand new silk nightgown that was super long, and brand new silk undergarments. Wait a minute, how did I get into these? Who changed me? Oh Goddess! I pulled the nightgown off, and looked down at my body. I sighed in defeat. My body was still covered in scars. I hated my body. However, if I looked closely, some of the older scars, were either gone or they had faded...

I finished going to the bathroom and flushed the toilet. I have never been able to that before. I dropped the nightgown onto the floor. Using the wall to steady me, I slowly made my way out of the little toilet room, and out to the main bathroom. I reached for the counter to hold my self up so I could get a good look. There staring back at me was... me?? I have never seen myself before. I never wanted to look. Not only was the mirror broken and dirty, but I never wanted to look at my reflection.

I looked at my face, tears fell down my face. My midnight blue eyes, where dull, and lifeless along with my hair. It had never been brushed in all my 15 yrs on this earth. However, it did reach all the way down to the back of my knees. It was split everywhere. My face was covered with scars from being scratched, my lips white and cracked. My skin pale white. I looked like a ghost. I let my gaze fall down to the front of my body. No fat, no muscles, just skin and bone. I could see my entire rib cage. How the heck was I suppose to "fatten up" build muscle to be able to complete my transformations?! Again no answers!!!

Just more and more questions and not enough answers. The next thing I knew, my vision once again started to fade. Crap I need to get out of the bathroom before I fall and hurt myself. I crouched down onto the floor, and crawled my way out of the bathroom, back into the bedroom. The room started to spin, I felt nauseas, I turned back around so I wouldn't puke up all over the beautiful carpet in the bedroom, I crawled back into the bathroom just in time to puke up whatever was in my stomach, which wasn't a whole lot of anything, all over the bathroom floor. After throwing up about 3 times, I turned back around went through the door into the bedroom, as I collapsed onto the carpet the one door opened on the other side of the room. Someone walked in and screamed, as I passed out for the umpteenth time.