WHAT DOES LOVE DO🤨

CHAPTER FOUR (4)

Sophie laid on the bed starring blankly at the ceiling it has been three days since the incident with Ben and she can't even say how she had been surviving, there was a time she had thought there is no way she would be able to live if her relationship had ended but looking at it now that was very foolish of her cause days after what she had feared has the worst she is still alive albeit not thriving she is breathing.

The past days has just been a routine of her thinking, crying and then thinking some more. At first she was terribly angry at Ben for treating her in such a manner and betraying her trust, she wished for many bad things happening to him so and fantasise about different ways she wants to hurt him badly that he would regret ever leaving her, then later she wished for everything to be just a prank and he will come inside at any moment laughing at how she fell for it, and then they will talk things out and make jokes about it, putting an end to her misery because she was so scared of how to live without him she had let herself become so absorbed in him that she is no longer sure of her identity without him defining it, and even though she already know that the problem with the relationship is not only about what happened during the break up she was willing to let everything go of he came back, that was how lost and lonely she felt. Like a fool in love she had made so many compromises betrayed the trust and loyalty of friends for her grand love and now that it is over, she is left with nothing but pain. She sobbed for so long until there was no longer any tears for her to spare again, so she just laid on the bed that has been her only habitat for a while now, thinking and thinking about everything.

She wondered where did things go wrong how was something so beautiful and perfect in the beginning ended up in such a disaster, why had love failed her so badly all she had done was to love and give it her all, just for disappointment she had thought Ben was the perfect love of hers, her prince charming but slowly everything start falling apart, cracks start appearing in what was thought perfect till everything becomes ruined ending in shambles. She thought so long about everything, and slowly the truth she had always avoided confronting crept to her realization, maybe she was the one that had love wrong after all but that was a hard pill for her to handle so she avoided thinking about it focusing more on her misery and loss. Her phone and been buzzing with so many notifications but she was least concerned about that, she already had an inkling of what everything is about, she wanted to switch off her phone at some point but decided against it at least the sound is helping to keep her sane.

She had went through various stages and form of pain and grief that currently she is starting to come to terms with it, the pain and loss is still there but she is becoming numb to them, so when her stomach rumbled instead of ignoring it like she had always done, she gathered her strength to go to the kitchen hoping to find something worth eating there. She can't remember when last she entered that part of the house, the past few days have been so hazy and blurry that all she can remember is her waiting, then crying for Ben she is starting to regret not paying more attention to her stomach. Right as she was about to open the kitchen door a sharp pain shoot through her spine throwing her off balance and making her fall to the floor. What followed was throbbing pain in her stomach making her immobile as has she tightly clutched her stomach tightly. Cold sweats broke out on her skin as she laid on the floor limp. She wanted the pain to stop but rather the throbbing increased making her more miserable and helpless. As she laid on the floor in pains she thought about how there is no one to call for help at this moment. When her friends had tried to warn her about Ben she had ignored it drunk in the euphoria of her new found love, that had put a huge strain on their relationship and rather than fixing it she drifted apart from them until there is no longer any communication amongst them. They were people who had been in her life the longest through the bad and good times, through thick and thin both happy and sad times they were all together and just because she thought she had found a perfect person to love her she disregard everything and everyone. Lying on the floor in pains the truth she had been avoiding all along came to her, it is not love that failed her, she is the one that actually took for granted the love that was present in her life and the genuine people that cared for her. When her friends had tried to make her see that making so many one sided compromises and changes for love was not a good thing she paid no heed to that, forgetting that for many years they had accepted her for who she is without forcing any change on her. She failed to see the love they had been consistently showing her for so long just because in her head she is caught up in her fantasy of what love should be like and who it can come from. Now she has learnt her lesson but it seems like it is too late. The pain is coming like that will be the end of her and there is no one to rescue her. She thought if she ever survive this and have a second chance she will no longer wallow in misery but focus more in getting her life back but the keyword remains IF cause currently she is starting to slowly lose consciousness and she there is no strength for her to even reach her phone and call the emergency line for help.

She laid there clutching her stomach just starring at the phone with no hope in sight. Then like a blot of luck it appeared her phone started ringing, the sound jolted her consciousness and made her more awake, hope filled her eyes has she looked at her phone, the Sunday bought joy to her heart and with the new found hope comes strength for her to strain to reach the phone, after few seconds she was able to reach the phone and looking at the caller ID, tears fall from her eyes this time not because of the pain she is going through or has gone through but this time she is crying from the place of heartache, longing and regret all these emotions overwhelmed her at once making her to momentarily forget the pain going through her body. She never knew how much it meant or probably she had always knew but tried so hard to push it away how important but seeing Grace call at that moment opened the flood gate of everything all the emotions suppressed.

When she finally picked the call she was too weak to speak up, Grace voice came through the speaker soothing her a little bit.

" Hello Sophie are you there, hello I heard what happened from Lilian, baby girl how are you holding up?." Grace said the concern evident in her voice.

Sophie wanted to say sorry but was not audible. After waiting a while for response Grace asked " Sophie hello can you please say something I know we are not on good terms but am really concerned about you so please just answer me."

Sophie gave a lucid smile on hearing what Grace said, typical Grace she thought among their friends group she is the one with the kindest and softest of heart and also the most caring. She tried gathering her strength to crawl closer to the phone but in the process of doing that, she shook the table beside the door and the vase on it fell on her head. The crash was the last thing she heard before losing consciousness completely.

" Sophie, Sophie Hello what is that sound, Sophie say something..ok am legit starting to panic now of you don't say a word now am going to just assume the worst. Hello Oh goodness."

With that Grace cut the call and everything was back to how silent it was initially the only difference is that Sophie is on the floor unconscious but breathing slowly.