Congratulation! My Alpha Ex Is Yours

Chapter 3 I'll Survive Forever Without You

　　Xesha's POV

　　I had finished what I wanted to say. I wanted to turn away immediately, but my gaze accidentally fell on Jasper's face. He was silent, his gaze unfocused, and his face darkened.

　　He didn't say anything after I waited for a while. However, as I was about to turn away, his strong hand grabbed my wrist again. He stared intently at me with an expression I couldn't interpret.

　　"Are you serious?" he asked with a blank stare. "I already said that I would even prepare a more luxurious wedding party for you. You're still gonna be my Luna. I will crown you immediately after our wedding. Why are you sulking like this?"

　　Sulking? He thought I was sulking like I had always done to him?

　　Three years of engagement and all that time Helena had monopolized Jasper from me—on the grounds that she was experiencing a mental breakdown—until he finally chose her to be his beta—to make her feel secure. Didn't he realize that the problem started with him and that damn woman?

　　Jasper was probably tired after spending all day putting in so much effort for Helena and now he no longer had any patience left for me. I could tell from how tightly he was gripping my hand now.

　　"I'm serious. We're breaking up. I can't reject you because you're not even my mate and you've never said anything about it. No wedding, no Luna coronation. We're done," I replied with a conviction that Jasper had probably never seen in me before.

　　I, who he always thought of as spoiled, childish, immature, and always causing trouble to get his attention, was now convinced to end the relationship we had built over five years.

　　He promised me a lavish wedding, a coronation as his Luna, and everything he said he wouldn't give Helena, just so I wouldn't sulk.

　　Didn't he say marriage was just a formality? Then what was the point of the big party, the magnificent dress, and everything else he promised? No matter what, I would always be the third party.

　　I was his fiancée and should have been his lawful wife, his future Luna, enjoying a dream wedding, walking down the aisle and standing at the altar to exchange vows with him, but instead Helena got it all.

　　I was the one who seemed to steal Jasper away from a seductive woman named Helena, who would always have a special place in his heart. She would always be the most important person to him for all kinds of reasons, and he would never care about me, who had to endure the pain in silence.

　　Just like what happened when we were trying on wedding dresses. The dress fit me perfectly, but suddenly Helena came and snatched it from the hands of the employee who was about to hand it to me.

　　"I want this one," she said, then turned to Jasper. "Jase... it's okay, right?"

　　Jasper nodded, which made me furious, so I snatched the dress from her hands. "Didn't you see that she was handing this dress to me? It's mine and it fits my figure perfectly." I turned to Jasper. "Jasper, say something."

　　"It's just a dress, Xesha, come on... don't overreact. You can choose another one. Your body is beautiful, it will definitely fit anything."

　　"So you mean my body isn't beautiful?" asked Helena in a spoiled voice. Jasper laughed.

　　"That's not what I mean, Helena. It's just so Xesha doesn't make a scene. Choose whatever you like."

　　"You're f*****g kidding me. Why is she here, by the way? She's not the one getting married, Jasper. She can choose another dress, not the one I ordered in my size."

　　All eyes were on Helena when I finished saying that loudly, and Jasper realized that I had just made his beloved bestie the topic of conversation—I saw several people whispering while staring at her.

　　Helena's face turned red and her eyes welled up with tears. She threw my dress down and ran out, while Jasper immediately chased after her.

　　I followed them as they stopped in front of the boutique. There, I saw Helena slap Jasper—something I had never done in all my life with him. And Jasper accepted the woman's treatment without complaint. Imagine if I did that to him.

　　He froze. But then, he took Helena's hand and kissed it.

　　"Your hand must hurt from slapping me. But you can do it again if you need to, if it calms your anger."

　　What? That's f*****g ridiculous.

　　"I'll talk to Xesha about this." He then turned toward the boutique and noticed I was there. "Apologize to her," he said.

　　"What? Why? She's the one who ruined our moment, Jase."

　　"Apologize, I said. You have humiliated her in front of many people." I remained silent because I didn't feel I had done anything wrong. Why was Jasper defending her so fiercely? "Let's go home now. The longer we stay outside, the more your true nature will be revealed. Wild and uncontrollable."

　　He finally lost his patience and dragged me towards the car, but stopped when Helena called him.

　　"What about me, Jase?" she asked with a pleading face—the most effective tactic she always used to seduce my stupid fiancé.

　　"Get in. I'll take you home."

　　"I don't want to be in the same car with that omega. Her level could rub off on me. And you saw how she talked to me earlier, right? I don't want to give her the chance to do that again."

　　Jasper sighed heavily, then opened the door and pulled me out roughly. "Go home in a taxi. Don't ever go out without my permission. Do you hear me?!"

　　The car drove away and didn't even consider turning back.

　　This time, I was the one who would leave and never look back.

　　I had been through this for a long time. I should have gotten out of this relationship long ago, but foolishly, I always went back to Jasper.

　　Every time he manipulated me, I always came back and forgave him. I let him control my life, making me feel worthless as if no one loved me but him, and it was no wonder Brandon dared to treat me badly.

　　Because I never protected myself.

　　"Xesha... I'm giving you one last chance. Come in and don't do anything stupid like this again," Jasper said again, making me awakened from my reverie. Hearing his words, my chest felt even tighter.

　　"Have you ever once felt guilty about what you did to me, Jase? Just once."

　　He laughed mockingly. "Guilty? Where's the fault? Is it wrong for me to take care of my childhood friend who is suffering? Look at yourself. You have me. She doesn't."

　　"But that doesn't mean you should push me aside for her, Jase! Why can't you see that's where the problem lies? That's the root of the issue. You make me feel like I'm nobody in your life, while Helena..." I sighed heavily.

　　It's useless. He will never accept his mistake. I will always be the prime suspect for anything bad that happens between us, especially when it comes to Helena.

　　I used to accept his attitude with a smile, like a fool.

　　For now, I'm starting to think about myself. He will never feel guilty. Not even once has he ever bowed his head.

　　So, without saying much, I let go of Jasper's grip. I no longer looked at his face because there was nothing I wanted to remember about him.

　　Five years together, three years in a deeper relationship—engaged—none of that showed his love for me, beautiful memories, or sacrifice, except for pains.

　　He never once feared losing me. I was the one who was too afraid of losing him because, according to him, I was the one who wanted this marriage the most, so his family approved.

　　They pitied me for being just an omega. He always provided solutions to my every problem, making him feel like he was doing me a favor. And all of that made him act dominant and neglectful towards me.

　　"Don't worry. I will never turn back and beg you again. There will be no more spoiled and troublesome Xesha. You also don't need to persuade your Helena to understand all my attitudes anymore." I walked away after saying all that.

　　He didn't chase after me. However, when Janice asked him to persuade me to come back, he calmly said, "Just let her be. Let's see how long she can survive without me."

　　Forever, Jase... I'll make sure I survive forever without you.

　　In the car I was driving, leaving Westchester—carrying away my body and all my wounds—my cell phone rang. I ignored it because Jasper's name was displayed on the screen.

　　I didn't want anything to do with him anymore. I didn't want to care anymore. Even if it would destroy me—after talking calmly in front of him earlier, my tears were still falling. I was choked up, my chest tight as if it were about to explode.

　　Why did I hold all this in for so long? Why did I let him hurt me all this time?

　　Now, I should be happy. There would be no more pain and foolish waiting that always ended in disappointment. But why couldn't my tears stop?

　　"Please stop crying over that bastard, Xesha..." I muttered to myself, but my chest felt like it was about to explode. I sobbed for quite a while. My vision was blurry because of the tears that kept gathering in my eyes and spilling down my cheeks.

　　I kept driving and suddenly, out of nowhere, it started raining as if water was pouring from the sky.

　　With tears still streaming down my face and the rain starting to fog up my car windows, everything felt even more painful and heartbreaking.

　　"Jasper, you bastard! I'll never come back to you!"

　　With uncontrollable anger, I stepped on the gas pedal, and the car sped down the empty road. If I died, it would be better than having to feel the excruciating pain that continued to gnaw at my heart.

　　What if one day I met Jasper again? And he was with Helena, with their children... would I be able to face that?

　　I wiped away my tears, not paying much attention to the road. Until I failed to notice the car in front of me and reflexively hit the brakes. But it seemed too late.

　　A luxurious sports car with license plate "FX1SLR", came to a stop after a fairly hard collision with mine.