The Alpha's Abuse

Chapter 5- I'm Sorry WHAT?!

Lilliana

The past two years have been the worst and best of my life. Cristian, my Goddess given mate got the witch pregnant then refused to take care of her and the pregnancy. Once they found out it was a boy I spent days locked in my room. I did everything in my power to make sure that I never once got pregnant by Cristian. As much as my heart yearned for him because he was my mate but after every betrayal, I no longer loved him. Did I ever want him to force another woman to bare his children? Never! For a while there was no risk, after so many different women not one got pregnant. That was until Lucille. Cristian was so thrilled she was pregnant. It was my worst nightmare.

The next two years flew by! Despite Lucy's pregnancy it never stopped Cristian from the f*****g whatever w***e threw herself at him. After the first few weeks, the pain of his betrayal began to hurt less and less. I know it was our bond weakening as I slowly stopped loving him. As much as I wanted to love him, I couldn't. Not after everything. However, I spent a lot more time with my Gamma Xavier. Who happened to be Cristian's younger brother. He was only a year older than me. Slowly we got closer and closer until one night we crossed a line that we could never uncross.

FLASHBACK

So many nights alone in my bedroom, with no company besides the occasional night that Cristian would force me to sleep in his bed. Besides that I spent it alone. On occassion my Gamma Xavier would spend the night on the couch, mostly so I would feel not so alone. At least that's what I thought. Tonight was one of those nights.

I had just changed into my night clothes, a simple cloth nightgown that was a bit seethrough in the right light. I looked at myself in the mirror and brushed my hair before I slowly walked out of the bathroom. I chewed on my bottom lip as I watched Xavier bend over taking off his pants. His long muscular legs made my mouth water, followed by an incredibly sexy and toned butt and just above that was a back full of scars that I just wanted to run my tongue over. He turned suddenly, eyes dark with lust. I gulped loudly as I slowly stepped into his view. He let out a breath as he eyed me, "You look....." He didn't even finish his sentence before I walking up to him.

He wrapped his arms around my waist as my hands lightly traced a few scars on his chest. "Xavi...." I mumbled before he reached down and tilted my head up to look at him. "You should go to bed Ana......" He was the only one who ever called me Ana. Everyone else called me Luna or Lils. I looked at his lips before looking into his eyes. I could see he was as terrified as I was but I couldn't stand being alone anymore. Before I could stop myself I leaned up and lightly pressed my lips against his. He growled as his arms tightened around my waist as he picked me up. I wrapped my legs around his waist as he carried me to the bed.

He tasted heavenly, like sweat and strawberries from our earlier snack. He laid me down before he crawled on top of me. I gasped loudly as his lips made the way to my neck, my mark from Cristian. I felt him growl against it before biting it. It hurt but it was more pleasureable, "Xavi...." I moaned loudly as I arched into him, "That should be my mark and it will be." He growled and I shivered at his possessiveness. I loved it. I whimpered as I felt his hardness pressed against my core, "Xavi.... I need you. Please!" I begged and i felt him smile agaiinst my neck. The next thing I knew he had leaned up and ripped my nightgown in half, exposing my nakedness to him. He growled as he stared down at me, the lust in his eyes making me shiver. "You are mine now Ana. Cristian will never touch you again." He growled as he leaned down and took my n****e into his mouth, I gasped loudly and ran my fingers through his brown hair, yearning to touch everything. He switched between both n*****s as his hand slowly trailed its way down my stomach to my core. I bit my lip as I felt his fingers graze over my sensitive bud before rubbing it gently. I let out a gasp and a moan at the same time as he slipped one finger into me. I cried out loudly and pressed myself against him. I whimpered as he slipped another finger in me. I gasped again before i brought his face up to mine. I kissed him desperately as he continue to finger my p***y slowly teasing me. I could feel myself getting closer to an orgasm. "Xavi.... I'm... gonna..." I spoke breathlessly as he leaned up and kissed just below my ear, "c*m for me baby." He whispered and I felt myself come undown. I wrap my legs around his fingers and screamed as my orgasm tore through me. He covered my mouth and chuckled before pulling his fingers out of me and licking them. "You taste delicious." He mumbled before he sat back, his erection pressed against his boxers. I leaned up on my elbows and frowned when he started to move away. "Where are you going?"

"I think that's enough for now Ana.... I know you are just lonely..." He sighed as he moved to stand up. I instantly grabbed him and pulled him back to the bed. I slipped the remainder of my nightgown off and tossed it to the side. I pushed him on to his back and he just stared at me in shock, "Ana.... What are you..." I didn't give him time to finish before I pulled his boxers down to expose his large member. I smirked before I leaned down and wrapped my lips around the head of his c**k causing him to moan and shudder against my tongue. I continued sucking, slowly taking him deeper and deeper into my mouth until I gagged on him. He moaned louder as I continued. Before he could protest I pulled my mouth off of him and crawled on top. "Ana.. No..." I shook my head as I took his c**k in my hand and slowly lowered myself down on him. He let out a loud groan as I whimpered and let out a low moan. He was so much bigger than Cristian. Once he was all the way in I looked down at him and smiled, "I love you Xavi, and I know you love me to." He leaned up and wrapped one hand behind my neck before kissing me deeply, "I love you Ana." He muttered against my lips a moment before he thrusted up into me, causing me to gasp and moan loudly.

That was the start of our affair, every chance we had to get together we would. It wasn't that hard after all. He was my Gamma, he was to be by myself every moment so long as I was alive. We had a bed moved into my room under the ruse of me no longer feeling safe to be alone. Every night we would lay in his bed for a while before moving to mine, making love all night before falling asleep in each others arms. He was my everything and that's when I truly knew that I no longer loved Cristian.

END

Today was no different, we spent the night together before he got up early for training, then he came back and we showered, made love in the shower, showered again, before heading down for breakfast. Today we were going to have breakfast with Lucy and Maddox. Despite everything, I love that little boy. I felt as protective over him as Lucy did. He was special and he loved me just as much as I loved him. Once they arrived we all sat down at our table and Xavier moved to join the men at the table above. Once we finished breakfast we were summoned to the Alpha's office. I hated being there but i understood the need to keep up apperances that I was the faithful Luna.

Lucy and I changed and bathed Maddox, I got changed into something more 'appropriate' as Cristian would say. A simple tank top, covered by a cream sweater and just a simple pair of jeans. I put on some simple while slip on shoes, brushed and braided my hair, threw on a small amount of make up and met Lucy and Maddox at the door. I could already tell he was starting to get tired but that didn't stop us. We walked together until we reached the door. I adjusted a few things, took a deep breath, I felt Lucy squeeze my shoulder. I turned and smiled to her before knocking and entering the office slowly. Everyone was there and a strange man with a strange aura. It was like I had no control over my body as I bent at the waist and bowed. The man smiled and nodded at me and I straightened. I moved to the other side of the room, as far away from everyone as I could. I wrapped my arms around myself and I looked up catching Xavier looking at me with concern. I lowered my eyes and looked away. I was barely listening, that was until Lucy addressed me and asked me to take Maddox down for a nap. I nodded and happily took the little boy. He wrapped his arms around me and snuggled in, already starting to snooze. I bowed to everyone and quickly exited. I was already heading down the stairs towards the door when I felt someone reach out and grab my arm. I jumped slightly, causing MAddox to cry. I quickly soothed him back to sleep before turning and seeing Xavier. He followed me every where. He didn't say anything as we headed down to Lucy's cottage. It didn't take long to get Maddox down and I sat outside with Xavier. We held hands under the table and made small talk. He was just incredible ad I loved him so much.

We both sensed Lucy coming and he stepped away, but still staying close enough. Once she was home she sat down and started explaining everything. I wanted to cry but she seemed okay so I kept it all together. Once they were done, Lucy went to lay down and I headed back to the pack house. I was exhausted and all I wanted to do was curl up into my bed and stay there.