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Ara
The past few weeks have been very weird and frustrating for me, if not for anything, but for the fact that all the information that I planned to get from Fabian wasn't forthcoming. Fabian seemed perfect, he was living a perfect lie and it irked me so much, there was nothing that I could hold him onto, or to use as an opportunity to bring him down, which could have been a good thing, but for the fact that I wanted the opposite thing made it a bad thing.
I was closer to Fabian, there were even a few moments that felt a bit out of my comfort zone, a few moments that I would talk to him far into the night that I would even forget what I was doing back in New York, and what I was trying to do, it felt a few times like I was just living like his wife again, and those times, I just had
