Chapter 6: The Weight of Staying
Lagos was loud, not just in sound, but in life.
Cars moved like they had somewhere urgent to be, people walked fast, spoke fast, lived fast.
Everything demanded something from you.
Time. Energy and Strength.
For Amaya…
It felt like a new beginning.
Her job came faster than she expected.
A good one, stable, promising.
A small apartment.
Nothing fancy but it was hers.
For the first time in a long time…she was building something for herself.
And yet…
Even in the middle of that new life
There was still space.
Space she didn’t realize she had been saving
For them.
One evening, her phone rang, she looked at the screen.
Nadia.
Her heart skipped.
It had been a while,
she answered immediately.
“Nadia?”
There was a pause.
Then a softer voice.
“Hey… Amaya.”
Something about her tone felt different.
Less confident, more… careful.
“How are you?” Amaya asked.
“I’m okay,” Nadia replied. “I just… I needed to ask you something.”
Amaya sat up.
“Anything.”
Another pause.
“Can I stay with you in Lagos?”
The question hung in the air.
For a second
Amaya didn’t think.
“Of course,” she said.
No hesitation, no conditions.
Because to her…nadia was still home.
A few days later, Nadia arrived.
She looked tired, not physically, but emotionally.
Amaya hugged her tightly.
“I missed you,” she said.
Nadia smiled faintly.
“Me too.”
And for a moment…
It felt like everything could be fixed.
Like maybe…they could go back.
But some things don’t go back.
They just continue.
At first, it was peaceful.
They cooked together, watched movies.
Talked late into the night, small laughter returned.
Not as strong as before, But present.
Amaya felt hopeful.
Maybe this was their second chance.
She paid the rent, bought groceries, handled bills,
She didn’t mind, not really.
Because in her heart
She believed:
“We’ve been through too much to let small things matter.”
But small things, have a way of becoming big.
Days turned into weeks, and slowly, Patterns began to show.
Nadia stayed home most days.
Scrolling, sleeping, complaining.
“I’m tired,” she would say.
“Job market is hard.”
Amaya understood.
At least… she tried to.
“You’ll find something,” she encouraged.
“Just keep trying.”
Nadia nodded.
But she didn’t try much.
Applications became fewer, effort became less.
And yet
Expectation stayed the same.
Food finished quickly.
Expenses increased, electricity bills doubled.
Amaya carried everything, quietly.
Until one evening, she couldn’t anymore.
They were in the kitchen.
Amaya was cooking.
Nadia sat on the counter, scrolling through her phone.
The silence felt heavy.
Then Amaya spoke.
Softly.
Carefully.
“Nadia… could you at least try something.”
Nadia looked up.
Slowly.
“What do you mean?”
“I mean… maybe apply more, or even start something small—just… something.”
The words were gentle.
But they didn’t land that way.
Nadia’s expression changed.
“So now I’m not trying?” she asked.
“That’s not what I said—”
“But that’s what you mean.”
Amaya paused.
“I’m just saying… you can’t stay like this forever.”
The air shifted.
“Wow,” Nadia said quietly.
“You really think you’re better than me, don’t you?”
Amaya froze.
“What?”
“Don’t act like you don’t,” Nadia continued, her voice rising slightly. “The way you talk… the way you look at me…”
“I don’t—”
“You do!”
Silence fell hard.
Amaya’s chest tightened.
Because this…wasn’t what she meant.
Not even close.
“I’ve been taking care of everything,” Amaya said quietly. “I’m just asking you to meet me halfway.”
Nadia laughed.
A bitter sound.
“Taking care of everything?” she repeated.
“Yes.”
“Wow.”
Nadia stood up.
“So now you’re counting it?”
Amaya shook her head.
“No!!"
“Because that’s what it sounds like.”
“That’s not what I’m doing.”
“Then what ARE you doing?”
Amaya didn’t answer.
Because no answer felt safe anymore.
The room went cold.
From that night…everything changed.
They still lived in the same house, But they stopped living together. Conversations became minimal.
“Have you eaten?”
“Yes.”
“I’m going out.”
“Okay.”
No more laughter, no more late-night talks, no more comfort.
Just silence.
Heavy.
Uncomfortable, unavoidable.
And in that silence, Something dangerous grew.
Misunderstanding.
Nadia stopped seeing Amaya as a friend.
She saw her as: someone who had everything.
Someone who didn’t understand.
Someone who looked down on her.
And slowly…She started talking to Marcos.
Late-night calls.
Private chats.
“She’s changed,” Nadia said one night.
“How?” Marcos asked.
“She talks to me like I’m less than her.”
Marcos frowned. “Amaya wouldn’t do that.”
“You weren’t here,” Nadia replied.
“She doesn’t understand struggle,” Nadia added softly.
Marcos sighed.
Because he didn’t know what to believe, But he listened.
And slowly…that was enough.
Back in the apartment
Amaya felt it.
The distance, the tension, the silence.
But what hurt the most…was not the argument.
It was this, she didn’t recognize the person Nadia had become.
And even worse, nadia no longer saw her the same way either.
One night, Amaya sat alone in the living room.
Lights off, just her thoughts.
And for the first time…
She allowed herself to admit it, maybe… staying wasn’t enough.