This was the very first time she was apologizing to someone ever since leaving her home. Alex wasn't sure if her saying sorry would fix anything between them. Lien had been right, she was the one at fault and she admits it. In the end, she was nothing but an ambitious fool who thought she could ever prove her worth to anybody
She wanted to be independent. She wanted to show her mother that she could make it on her own, that she could survive perfectly well in the military. She wanted to show her mother that she was much stronger than she had assumed, she wanted to prove that she could survive the war ( which was something her father couldn't). But that was all in her head. The truth was she hadn't managed to survive, she had ended up dying. She had ended up leaving her mother alone in the
