Sawyer I don't know how long I've been on my knees, tears streaming down my face, consumed by an abyss of pain. What I do know is that the strength to rise eludes me. I also know that I asked Rachel and Ashton to give me space. Well, I didn't ask... It was a desperate, primal scream. I'll have to apologize to them later, but for now, every fiber of my being is consumed by the arduous task of gathering the scattered fragments of my shattered heart. I'm finding it difficult to fully grasp Ethan's reaction. While I can see that he's deeply burdened by guilt, but doesn't his reaction seem somewhat exaggerated? My world fell apart when the monster revealed Mike's dark manipulations. Tears streamed down my face upon learning that meeting Colton was not a coincidence... that everything was p

