Hybrid and Her Mate

Emotional Scarred

    I open my eyes to find that I am in my room in the guest house. For a split second, I wonder what is going on when suddenly everything that I endured came rushing back to me. I feel the tears fill my eyes and start pouring out before realizing what was happening. I knew what happened to me would eventually make me a stronger person, but at this point in time I felt weak, unloved, and disgusting. All I wanted was my mom, but I remembered the lies and hurt she put me through as well. It may not be as bad as what I endured, but it hurt nonetheless. 

    I felt a movement off to the right side of me and I see that Jake is sitting next to me, but he had fallen asleep. Terrified, I scoot away from him. The jolt of the bed woke him up, he sat up blinking before realizing I was awake.

    "Oh Selene, I'm so sorry, this is all my fault." He starts gushing again. He tries to grab my hand, but I quickly move it. I don't want to be touch by anyone, especially him. I feel like part of this is his fault. If he didn't upset me, I wouldn't of ran off which means I would have been beaten and r***d over and over.

    "How long was I gone?" Was the only thing I asked. I have no clue how long I endured everything, but it had felt like forever.

    "You have been gone for a little over a year. We had been searching for you none stop with no end. Finally, we came across a small cottage that had a scent disguiser around it and it seem fishy, so we checked it out. I didn't except to find you, and I certainly didn't expect to find you the way we did. What happened to you?" He asked. The look in his eyes told me he had an idea. All I could do was shake my head and the tears started again.

    "Oh honey, I am sorry. You don't have to say anyting until you are ready." He climbed on the bed and went to put his arms around me.

    "DON'T TOUCH ME!" I screamed. I launched out of bed and collapsed. I felt weak and powerless. I saw the look of pain on Jake's face and knew that I had hurt him. At this point I didn't care. "Just leave me alone!" I yelled. I knew my words were cutting him deeper and deeper, but he didn't say a word. He just got up and left.

    I don't know how long I spent cooped up in my room. I felt the days past, days passed into weeks, and weeks passed into months. The only interaction I had was when Lucy would bring me my food. I would pick at it at first, but I knew if I didn't eat then I would be hooked up. I only ate enough to keep me going. I knew the weight was dropping off and I avoided the mirror in the bathroom when ever I bathed. It wasn't very often and I would only do it when someone would threaten to bathe me if I didn't.

    After six months, two weeks, and three days Jake finally came in and sat down again. I knew he and everyone else was worried and just wanted to help. At the same time, I still couldn't bear to be touched.

    "Selene, I think you need some help. You need to talk to someone about what happened whether its me or someone else. I know you are having a rough time, but please let someone help you." I looked up and saw the sincerity in his eyes. I knew he was right, I just didn't know how. 

    "What happened to them?" I have wanted to ask for awhile, but I didn't want to start a conversation with anybody.

"Bridget and Zach have been given what they deserved. I may have gone a little extreme with their deaths, but they deserved it." I knew in that instant that I didn't want  to know. Whatever happened, I was better off knowing. "Selene, I also want you to know that no matter what happened, I want you by my side. When I felt that I had lost you, I regretted my earlier decision. I know now that I can not live without you as my mate and as my Luna. I don't care that you are a hybrid and potentially stronger then everyone we know. All I know is that as long as you want me, I am yours.

    "When I ran from your office, I ran to where we first met." I started telling him. I told him everything from beginning to end, bawling the entire time I was telling him. He sat there and listened to me the entire time without interruption. He didn't try to touch me, no matter how much he wanted to. Every now and then, I would see his hand twitch like he wanted to comfort me, but he wouldn't reach out for me. When I finished tell him, I felt a little better. I knew I was no where near being healed, but it was a start. Jake told me he was going to get something and that he would be right back. I sat there waiting for him and decided that I would take a much needed soak. I had no idea how long he would be, and wanted a soothing bath after everything I told him. I grabbed my robe and walked into the bathroom. I started a hot bath and put in Epson salt, bathing oil, and some bubbles. The room immediately filled with a heavenly scent as I started striping down. I looked at myself for the first time in over a year and saw that you could see every one of my bones. I also saw that I was covered in scars from the nasty things I was subjected to. Looking away quickly, I climbed into the tub and closed my eyes breathing in the scents in the water.

Knock Knock Knock

    I quickly opened my eyes and sat up. "Who is it?" I asked timidly.

    "It's just me, Jake. I just wanted to let you know I have returned. Take your time and when you are ready, please come out." Jake said on the other side of the door. I breathed in relief at the fact that he didn't try to come in. I leaned back again and relaxed for another half and hour and decided it was time to get out. The water had gone cold and I was starting to get wrinkly. I climbed out and wrapped my robe around me, I realized I had forgotten to grab my night wear on the bed. I cracked open the door and find that Jake had set them just out in front. I quickly snatched them up and closed the door again. I dressed quickly and walked out to find Jake sitting on the floor. He was sitting on a blanket with all of my favorite snacks. Strawberries, both regular and some dipped in chocolate, other fruits, nuts, chips, cheese and crackers, etc. He had also grabbed my favorite drinks of juice, Dr. Pepper, and more. I sat opposite of him on the blanket and for the first time, I ate until I was full and we talked about random things.