You and I

Nothing Changes

Then as days progress and eventually a new quarter has begin in the school days,Xela and Ian once met again each other it became alot more akward to be around each other but they decided to fake it to others to show that they arre just back on looking at each others just as friends like before . Those are some good days for them beause both of them feel like they did the right thing because they only wanted the betterment of their surroundings, Then as Ian birthday is coming up he invited his circle of friends to accompany him as he will treat them in a very nice restaurant that has some delicious pizza and meals , Xela was also there , Ian felt his feelings going back as both of them continuously makes eye contact , and their energy just attracted one another a lot more . But then at that day ian tries to get near her and it was good they can really talk normal now than before when it is very awkward when they speak to one another, Ian felt that what he decided is good and it is really what is meant to happen . As that day closes and a new morning arrives the both of them began messaging each other again but just as friends often asking if what uniform they are going to wear the next day. One of their friends ask them if they would like to come and join her in the mall because she wanted to bond at first and have some little talk before another day of school started , and as the group of friends are casually talking with one another in the food court Ian sat at the table and Xela sat at the opposite side so they both clearly see each other in both angles and i mean they are in front of one another , Ian always felt the gaze of xela and he was not wrong she is clearly looking at him , Ian messages her quickly in messenger , saying " I might melt if u continuously look at me like that" , as soon as ian look at xela she was laughing and that smiled killed him in the inside once again as if the world is falling into one place again and that is his love for xela , later that day as the group decided to go home the others are in the separate place compared to ian and xela that both go in the same way, Ian suggest that he would like to accompany xela towards her home just to know for sure if she will be safe going home, Xela replied sure no problem . As both of them leave the jeepney together , they both walk side by side ian was hearing his heartbeat saying just calm down self regulate your breathing and Xela also in her mind do this both of them say at the same " i want to say something" Xela said you go first and Ian insist the he would listen to whatever she says , But a silence come into place and ian decided to say it . He took a deep breath and forget all of the pain that he felt from her , He said "Its still you" "Nothing Changes" As he deeply looks at her but xela continuously avoids eye contact as they both are walking by each other , Xela replied "i dont know what to say im surprised but thank you for saying this to me" . Ian felt happy to finally release those feelings once again. Ian felt like he could do absolutely anything he was energized and soon as he goes home Xela messages her " I was the same as well" and both of them began messaging one another again. Ian decided to hide it at first saying that they should not let anyone know first about their current status because everyone knows specially their circle that they are just back on being friends once again. School day approaches once again and Both of them radiate many different energy when they are specially together and this made the other notice that something is going on for the both of them . But they just wanted to commit on those feeelings that they cant fight for before because they are being restraint by their past mistakes , traumas. But as we know love will always find its way if you are open and willing to wait for it , it will come to you eventually you just have to develop yourself to be better aim to be the best version of yourself, love yourself because you cannot give what u cannot have that is the sad reality many relationships are facing it now because they think that love is very easy to handle to take responsbility to but it is not , you are now taking care 2 people not 1.