Will I couldn't help it. I tried I even did that old trick where you look in the mirror and talk to yourself as if you're two separate people. Just. Play nice. I could be nice. I spoon fed celebrities on a daily basis. It was my job to kiss ass. I just didn't want to kiss hers. Because for some reason, being nice somehow felt like she'd won like she was getting in and the last thing I needed was to give her a foothold in any area of my life. So anger was all I had. Rudeness was what I clung to. And I hated myself for it because that wasn't me, I'd never been that guy, hell maybe she'd turned me into that guy. The one that literally didn't give a s**t if she lived or died. No that wasn't true. I'd always cared. Too much. That was the problem. True to her word, Angelica had gotten

