My Mafia Husband

Bella POV 5:

I came home tired from shopping and slept. Next few days I ignored Alex, I am planning for his birthday and I intend to make it perfect for us. I started planning to decorate entire roof top. Only for both of us. I even arranged a bed there to spend our night there. I blushed hard thinking about that.

It was two days for Alex's birthday. I started decorating the rooftop. I moved many plants here. It is summer so I don't have to worry about rain. I already bought everything. I just want to arrange them perfectly. I was worried if Alex will accept me or not. I just had lunch with Maria and just put the dishes in the dishwasher when Alex came barging in. 

"Alex, I just had lunch. come I will set up you plate. you can...." He came up directly to me and caught my throat very hard that my breathing had stopped. I don't know what's happening. I am struggling to get away from him. but I cant even get my words out. Ronin and Chris came in and removed him from me. I started sucking air very hard. Tears were strolling down my face. In just one minute, he came back to me and slapped me very hard that I fell down. Ronin again tried to stop him but he just took my hand and started dragging me upstairs to my bedroom. He closed the door as soon as we got it so others could not enter. He pushed me to the floor and went to my closet. He took my handbag took the money envelope uncle gave me and came dangerously close to me and said "Where did you get this money? Who gave it to you." He asked. I tried opening my mouth. But I could not get any words out its paining very much because he pressed my neck. Since I did not reply he stated hitting me. "I trusted you." Kick " Because of you I had to lose my men." Kick " Are you that desperate for the money that you sold my shipping info to others?" Kick "What else did you sell to them?" Kick "Who did you sell it to?" Kick " It is my mistake that I did not put you in control because my dad black mailed that he would not give me my position if I don't marry you" Kick "I should not have listened to him" Kick ... I looked at Alex sobbing hard.

The words he said are more painful than the beatings he gave. I thought he is freely talking to me, he has feelings for me. But he only done those because of his dad. He does not even trust me. He thought I have the money because I sold information.

I wanted to tell him he misunderstood me and this has nothing to do with me. I wanted to tell him that I love him and can't even think of betraying him. But I can't speak. I could not open my mouth. He stopped his beating now. He is looking at me with so much anger that I was afraid what he would do next. Just as I thought, He grabbed my hand, threw me on the bed and ripped my dress. He looked at me in disgust and said "You wanted this right? You wanted to sell my info like a slut. I will show you who I am. I will show you what happens to a slut.". He then removed his dress so fastly. I started moving away knowing what's happening. He quickly grabbed me and tied my hands to the bed post with his shirt. I looked at him shaking no. "What happened now? Don't you want me to f**k you? Do you only f**k those bastards you sold information too?" he slapped me again. He ignored my cries and pulled my legs away so that he could settle between them. I held both my legs in place and thrusted his already hard member inside me. I cried very loudly. It was painful, very painful. Alex did not stop. He kept on f***ing me till he released. He still did not stop and f***ed me till I lost my conscious. 

When I woke up, I was in a dark place. It was stinking so bad. I wanted to call some one but Still I cant talk. Did I actually damage my vocal cord?I kept on thinking how he thought that I did all this. I cried thinking about my fate. I thought he loves me but he does not. I am very angry, sad and mad at everything that is happening to me. 

After some time Ronin entered. He looked at me sadly and said "Bella, I never knew you could do this. Please tell Alex who you sent the details to. He will release you. I will talk with him." I looked down not knowing how to tell that I could not talk. My hands and legs are tied up and I can't even move anything other that my head. I tried opening my mouth to speak but my throat is very rough and harsh I could not get a word out of my mouth. 

Ronin went back not hearing a reply from me. No one cam the next day. It was Alex birthday today. If everything was good, I would have asked him to marry me. By now I would have had an answer. Even though he would have lied, I would actually be happy thinking he loved me. 

But now I have nothing left in me. Where is everyone when I needed them? Where is mom and dad. They always talk to me daily. Did they not know what happened. Did they also think I would do something like this? Of course they will support Alex. I think they never cared for me. Not anymore. Dad always cared about work and mom. Mom to cared about dad. I don't even want to live anymore. I think I had enough. I want him to kill me. I can't even face my parents. Momma and dadda said they will take care of me here. Where are they now? I kept thinking so many things and fell un-conscious because of hunger and tiredness. I am finally going to die. I closed my eyes smiling thinking its peaceful to die instead of living horribly.