“You know, Chlo, I never planned for it to happen.” She wiped her nose again, lowering her eyes. “But when I look back on all the stuff we did, I didn’t do anything to stop it either.” Chloe wasn’t sure exactly what Amanda meant, so she kept quiet and listened. “I mean Blair never forced me to do anything I didn’t want to, and I did enjoy the s*x; it does feel pretty amazing. It’s just... after a while I thought if I didn’t have s*x with him or do certain stuff with Blair... then he would break up with me. I was so afraid of losing him.” Amanda looked up, her swollen eyelids shrinking her normally rounded eyes. “Pretty stupid, huh?” She started crying again. “Well, the joke is on me! He broke up with me anyway.” Chloe grabbed a few more Kleenexes. “And, I’ve pushed everyone and everything
