No Hope

XVI - The Scars

"I don't understand why can't I go with my own brother," I said to Elias as we Roamed around the main deck. well, it's only me who is roaming behind him like a lost kid. and I tried my best to hide the burning pain in my chest and I succeeded.

"stop talking Clay, you are making me mad" Elias screamed, causing the pirates to look at us. and because I am not stubborn and I am being sarcastic, I kept roaming behind Elias and I noticed him pinching the bridge of his nose.

"Just tell me why" I pleaded and he finally turned to face me and for some reason, I took a step back, and that caused a smirk to appear on his lips.

"I love it when you admit to yourself that you are scared of me," Elias said and I avoided eye contact with him by looking down on the ground. I no longer know if I am pretending or am I actually scared of him.

"What is wrong Clay?" Elias said as he took a few steps in my direction, his seductive voice will be the end of me.

"I just want to be with him," I said but it came more like a whisper. keep going Cecile you are doing a great job by showing the enemy that you are weak, that's also sarcasm.

"do you really want to be with him? or you just want to stay away from me?" Elias asked. he raised his hand and he started brushing his thumb on my left cheek. is it me or it's getting hot in here?.

"I don't know what you are talking about Elias," I said. oh, now you are acting like a tough one Cecile?

"you don't want to see him, not anymore. not after you found out that he is a pirate. the look on your face didn't say that you are willing to see him ever again, you just want to stay away from me" Elias whispered and I felt my heart beat faster than ever. but I somehow found the right way to end this conversation.

"there's an underground tunnel," I said, and I was relieved when he took a few steps back, but the look on his face was scary.

"I beg your pardon," he said and I felt the confident smile form upon my face.

"There is an underground tunnel in the kingdom on the west side of the castle, this underground tunnel will lead you to a small room and when you leave that room, you will find yourself standing in the middle of the kitchen, which means that you entered the castle" and as I finished talking, I saw that devilish smile form upon his pretty face.

"I am impressed," Elias said. then he started walking around me in a circle, eyeing every inch of my body. what's wrong with pirates and walking around someone in circles.

"well we had a bargain and I know that you didn't remind me because you wanted to see if I am lying or not. I know these game Elias" and as I finished talking, Elias stood still behind me, then I felt his hot breath behind my ear.

"repeat my name" he whispered. I took a deep breath, this won't end up very well.

"Captain Elias" I whispered. it's kind of rude of me to call him Elias without a captain. because at the end of the day I am not Cecile anymore, I am Clay.

"look over there love" Elias whispered as he pointed with his finger to the left side. I followed his finger until my eyes met Cain's ship. that's when my eyes landed on the poor girl who is trying her best to walk away from the pirates who are not allowing her to take a single step. I was about to look away but I gasped when these filthy pirates started ripping her clothes off. I looked at Elias shocked, but he avoided my gaze.

"do...do something," I said as I kept looking at him straight in the eyes. he just smirked without looking at me.

"now look there," he said and I followed his finger that was pointed on the poop deck, and I closed my eyes and I slowly put my palm on my mouth before I scream. 

"Open your eyes, and look carefully," Elias said and I opened my eyes again. I was too shocked to move a single step. what I am seeing can't be true, I don't believe my own eyes.

"isn't that your brother over there Clay?" Elias said and that is when I felt the warmness of the tear that found its way to escape my eye.

"do you still want to go there, Clay?" Elias said. I didn't dare to answer him, I was just staring at the person who happens to be my brother. so this is him now? , I always thought of him as the person who won't dare hurt a fly?.

"Why the tears my dear?" Elias whispered in my ear and that's when I realized that my tears are falling down my cheeks faster than ever. Elias grabbed both of my shoulders and turned me around to face him. I didn't know that my hand was still on my mouth until Elias grabbed my hand and pulled it away from my mouth.

"talk to me, Clay," Elias said and that's when I looked at him with dead eyes. but I can see the victory inside those pretty eyes and that's what broke me the most.

"you win Captain, now you have what you want," I said in a slow and quiet tone, not having the ability to hide my emotions.

"and what is that I want?" he asked with a smirk on his face. he is breaking me slowly without even trying.

"taking the last piece of my own soul" I whispered as hell rose inside his eyes. he is happy, he is happy that he broke me, he finally got what he always wanted, the last piece of my slowly beating heart.

"is that what I really want, my dear?" he said, then he grabbed my face with his fingers and pulled me closer to him. I didn't show him any reaction because there is nothing left to show.

"I didn't take anything from you, I just showed you the bigger picture, which you should be thanking me for," he said and I felt another tear escape my eyes from the image in my mind. the filthy smile on my brother's face as he watched his crew taking the advantage of a poor girl who couldn't even defend herself. he was smiling, he had the audacity to smile when a girl is getting r***d in front of his eyes. 

"I beg you, do something," I said as I cried more, my face still trapped between his fingers. 

"There is nothing that I could do, that what happens to every girl that decides to jump inside a pirate ship," Elias said as he pushed me away. that's when I started sobbing.

"but that never happened to me on this ship, it happened to me but not by your crew" I cried out loud and he just kept smirking. and my feet started to feel weak and tired.

"that didn't happen to you because you are special, my love," he said and that's when my sadness and betrayal were replaced with anger and rage.

"I am nothing special, you just see me as a special person because you know that if anyone hurts me you won't be able to kill the bloody king. you are nothing without my help" I cried again in anger. but that's when I felt like my lungs have been shot many times.

"do you have anything else to tell me?" Elias asked but I ignored him as I looked around to find something to lean on but I didn't find anything. so I ended up placing my hand on Elias's chest to gain my balance. what shocked me that he wasn't surprised. 

"I hate repeating myself twice, do you have anything to tell me?" he asked. I was about to answer but that's when I felt like I can no longer breathe.

"I can't help you unless you tell me," He said and I sent him a death glare. and that smirk never left his face.

"Captain, I think it's time to help her," a voice said from behind but I couldn't tell who this voice belonged, my vision started to get blurry. I placed my other hand on Elias's shoulder because I don't think that I can't stand on my own any longer.

"you don't have much time before you pass out Clay. you have two choices, the first one is either you tell me what you are hiding and I will help you, or you can pass out right here right now. and I don't believe that I will let anyone help you since you are refusing to tell me, the choice is yours" Elias said and I closed my eyes, just say the magic words, Cecile, you can do it.

"I-I....think y-you b-broke a bone....in my r-ribs" I managed to say, I looked up to face him and I was shocked to see sadness inside those eyes. 

he wrapped his arm behind my back and he carried me like a toddler as he walked me inside the ship, it wasn't long before he placed me on a bed slowly and carefully.

"y-you knew" I whispered to him, he sat down beside me but I didn't have the strength to even look at him.

"of course I knew, I felt it when I jumped, but I was waiting for you to say something, and it took you a while to even show me. I am somehow impressed" he said and I took a deep breath, ignoring the burning pain in my chest.

"Why didn't you tell me?" Elias said in a deep voice and I didn't answer, not because I don't want to, it's because I don't know why.

"I am going to rip your shirt," Elias said, and I opened my eyes wide even though I don't think he saw it because I am facing the ceiling.

"no you are not," I said and I heard his chuckle, then I felt him crawl on top of me. he placed both elbows on my sides to gain his balance so he can try his best not to crush me. the butterflies danced around in my stomach. his face was a few inches away from mine and he looked at me straight in the eyes.

"I need to rip your clothes off if you want me to help you, my dear" he whispered in my face as he kept a straight face on. 

"I can do it myself, " I said and he smirked and lowered his face closer to mine until I felt his hot breath on my face.

"I never take no for an answer and you know that," he said and I rolled my eyes. he raised a brow.

"did you just roll your eyes on me?" he said and I couldn't help but smile. causing him to smile.

"yes, I did," I said and he looked away to hide his smile and I frowned.

"did someone ever tell you that smiling looks good on you?" I said, then he raised himself and sat down next to me with a dead face. good job Cecile, you just ruined the moment.

"I need you to take your clothes off Clay," he said and that's when I knew that he doesn't give a bloody damn about me, he just wants to wrap something around my chest and then stay the hell away from me.

"do whatever you want," I said as I closed my eyes. I heard him take a deep breath. I was about to say something but I shut my mouth as he roughly ripped my clothes off. now he can perfectly see the scars from up close. then I felt the tip of his cold finger tracing around my stomach in a different pattern each time. I took a slow deep breath.

"This is going to hurt," He said, and I was about to ask him what's going to hurt, but he cut me off by digging his finger inside my chest, I cried out loud in pain and I arched my back, but he pushed me back down with the palm of his hand.

"WHAT WAS THAT FOR?" I screamed out loud as I opened my eyes and moved my head aside to look at him.

"I need to make sure if it's a broken bone or a bruise, but I can't tell," he said, then he grabbed a piece of cloths. then he snaked his hand beneath my back and started wrapping the cloth around my chest, using his hand that was beneath me to lift me. even though I can do it myself. but I didn't complain.

"I am done, you can rest now" he whispered, well that was fast. 

"thank you, I guess," I said and he ignored me, then he removed his hand from beneath me and I was a little bit disappointed. he again started tracing his finger around my stomach, but this time he focused on the scars. 

"you can stop now" I whispered but he ignored me like he always does. then he did something that I didn't expect at all, he lowered his face and I felt his lips on my skin. he is kissing my scars. at first, I was too shocked but then he started kissing each scar until I couldn't help but arch my back again. I closed my eyes and I took a deep breath.

"Elias" I whispered. he kept on planting small kisses on each scar over and over again. that's when I felt something that I never felt. a feeling that I can't explain but it was good. I feel loved, I feel like I am a part of someone's story. 

"I somehow still don't know why I did that," he said and he instantly stood up, I felt my cheeks turn dark red.

"There are clothes under the bed, you can wear some. then go to sleep and rest, you had a big day," he said as he walked away. 

"and I forgot to tell you something," he said as he stood in front of the door facing it. then he looked at me with a smirk on his face.

"you can't deny that you wanted me to rip your clothes off, because you could have easily just told me to lift them, not rip them" that was the last thing he said before he walked outside the room, closing the door roughly behind him.