No Hope

VI - Memories

"is everyone ready?" Stephen screamed. everyone screamed back a 'yes'.

"stay with me" Oscar said. i followed behind him. we we're at the port. as soon as our feet landed on the ground, everyone moved away, to make a path for us to walk.

"does this happen all the time?" i asked Oscar as we followed behind Edward and the captain.

"yes, all the time" Oscar said. now that is what i call real respect.

"we are going to buy something for Clay to wear" the captain said without even looking at me.

"what is wrong with what i am wearing?" i asked, clearly annoyed.

"we are going to a tavern" Edward said as we walked down the streets. not to mention that every eye is focused on us.

"so what?" i asked. i mean, what the bloody hell is wrong with my clothes?

"you are going to be a bait. now stop talking before i kill you" the captain said. so this is normal? he tells me that i am going to be a bait and everything is normal? no asking me or anything?.

"Oscar and Edward, go and get the plan ready. me and Clay are going to buy some clothes" captain said. and he pulled me arm and yanked me to the busy streets. Oscar smiled in my direction before he and Edward walked the opposite way.

"let go of my arm, i can walk alone" i said. he let go of my arm without even looking at me. after we walked for a few minutes, without even sharing a single word. me and the captain entered a very nice looking store.

"look who is here" a girls voice appeared from inside the store. and then came out a very good looking woman. she looks so pretty to a point where i started doubting myself.

"Olivia" the captain said. she smiled and kissed him on the cheek. she is lucky to be kissing him.

"what can i help you two with?" she asked. and the captain gave me a dirty and weird look.

"we are going to a tavern, and i need you to make her look good" the captain said. then he started walking away.

"where do you think you are going?" i said and he stopped walked and turned around to face me.

"what? do you think that i will stay here and wait?" he said. then he opened the store door and walked away normally without even looking back. what a bastard.

"what is your name?" Olivia asked. bloody hell.

"Clay" i answered. then she grabbed my arm and pulled me into a room.

"take your clothes off" she said and i am sure that i heard it wrong.

"what did you just say?" i asked and she laughed loudly. oh god.

"take off your clothes, i want to see your body so i can know your size" she said and i was just lost for words.

"oh boy, this is going to be a very long day" i said to myself.

"Olivia, please, it's now night and you are still working on me" i said. it's been forever. 

"beauty takes time" she said as she did my hair. all i want to do is go to sleep.

"are you ready to see yourself?" she asked and i quickly said 'yes'. i stood up and she gave me a small mirror. and when i looked in the mirror, i was too shocked to say anything.

"your hair is braided. and you are wearing a black frilly, puffed blouse and fluted skirt. you are wearing also black gloves to make you look more elegant" as Olivia explained, i did not even look at her. i was too shocked to comprehend what is going on. i looked pretty.

"darling, you look so beautiful and i am sure all the men will be running after you tonight" she said. and i gave her a small and weak smile.

"i do not know how to thank you" i said and she was about to say something but she was cut off by the sound of the bell on the door, that means someone has entered the store.

"is she read-" the captain's voice said but he stopped in the middle of his sentence, i turned around and he was admiring me. i lowered my head because i am too shy.

"she looks fantastic, doesn't she?" Olivia said. the captain quickly removed his eyes off me and his eyes now focused on Olivia.

"she looks fine. how much?" the captain said and i was slightly disappointed.

"no, there is no need, i owe you one" Olivia said. the captain thanked her and grabbed me by my arm and walked me outside the store, i sent Olivia a quick smile before we left.

"what you wearing is too revealing" the captain said as we walked down the streets. every eye was focused on me. 

"that is my body, i show whatever i want" i said and he was lost for words.

"the plan is that you will act like you don't know any of us, when you walk inside, you will see a man wearing a black coat, you will recognize him from the women around him. his name is john. you will go to him and you will talk to him. make him like you, then you will take him to a room and you will seduce him" as soon as he finished the last sentence, i stopped dead in my tracks. he turned around to face me.

"No" i said. as i stopped the tears from escaping my eyes.

"what did you just say?" he said as he took a few steps in my direction.

"No" i said again, he grabbed my neck and pushed my back on a wall near us.

"i am not scared of you" i said as he tightened his grip.

"you will go there and you will seduce that man" he said. why did i even go with him?.

"i will not let a filthy man like you touch me in any way possible" i said and i can see the anger in his eyes.

"he will not touch you, all you have to do is to take him to a place where no one is around and we will be right behind you" he screamed in my face, lucky us that there is not anyone near us but he is loud so i am sure that people heard us. 

"and what if you arrive late?" i screamed. he gave me a questioning look before his hand was no longer around me neck. 

"why are you so scared?" he asked and i felt something burning inside me. 

"you want your business done? let's go" i said. i tried to walk past him but he was quick to grab me wrist to stop me from walking.

"i asked a question, why are you so scared to seduce him?" he asked and i could not help but laugh.

"are you being serious? you are telling me to seduce a man that i don't even know, and he will touch in a ways that i definitely don't like and then you have the guts to ask me why am i scared?" i said. you are lying Cecile, that is not the reason, you are not scared because he is just a stranger. 

"he will not touch you, end of discussion Clay" he said and he started walking away, i had the urge to turn around and run away but i knew deep down that it will not bring anything except trouble.

"remember, act like you don't know us" the captain said, i whispered a small 'yes'.

"you go in first, and i will be inside in a few" he said and i took a deep breath before i opened the door and i walked inside. it hasn't been even more than two seconds and everyone is staring at me already. i looked around and my eyes caught a man that is wearing a black coat and girls are surrounding him. yes, it's him.

"go for it Cecile" i whispered to myself. and i started walking in his direction. a few more steps and i was standing in front of him. he did not notice me at first but when all of the women's eyes focused on me, his eyes focused on me.

"how can i help you?" he asked. can i die now?

"would you like to be a gentleman and buy me a drink?" i said and he gave me a filthy smile as he stood up.

"that would be a pleasure of mine" he said. then he placed his arm on my back and we walked to a table. 

"two glasses of whiskey. a heavy one please" John screamed and in less than five minutes, two glasses of whiskey we're placed in front of us. 

"what is your name darling?" John asked as he took a sip from his drink. i took a sip from mine before answering him.

"Clay, what about you?" i asked. i am already bored.

"it is John" he said and i didn't know what to do except smiling.

"tell me more about you" he said. i am a princess who ran away from her sick uncle to only find herself in a ship with pirates while pretending to be a maid.

"nothing much, i am new in town, came here for a change" i said. what a liar i am.

"do you have anyone in your life?" he asked, i wish.

"no, but i am hoping that you will be the one" i said as i placed my elbow on the table and i leaned forward.

"would you like to take this somewhere else?" he said. oh bloody hell.

"a little bit too fast, don't you think?" i said. no it's not to fast Cecile, just get this mission done.

"i don't think so, follow me" he said as he stood up, i grabbed the glass and i drank the rest of the liquor in that glass in one sip, i managed to ignore my burning throat as i stood up.

"let's go my lady" he said as he grabbed my hand and i followed him. i looked around but i couldn't see anyone. he opened a door that leads to a bedroom and i had too many questions at this point.

"this is a room for the prostitutes. i can use it whenever i want since this is my place" John said and that answered every question in my mind.

"let me show you how a real man makes a woman happy" he said, then he suddenly pushed me against the wall and he started kissing down my neck. where are you Elias?, his hands moved around my waist, i was totally not enjoying this.

"can you slow down a little bit?" i said, but he kept going. and he is now hurting me.

"stop" i said. but then he grabbed me and pushed me on the bed and sat above me, i tried to fight him but he was quick to pin my hands with his left arm.

"GET OFF ME" i screamed, but he slapped me across the face.

"shut up" he screamed. then his right hand cupped my right breast. at this moment i was screaming, he was squeezing it so tight.

"i am begging you" i pleaded, but there was no point of this. then his hand moved to my private spot, i tried to close my legs but he easily separated them with one hand.

"please, not there" i said but my words are just as useless as i am. his hand moved from under my skirt to my spot and started rubbing it. while he kissed my breast from above the shirt.

"you are hurting me" i screamed. then he suddenly put a finger inside it, at this moment, the tears escaped my eyes. i was both screaming and crying, i tried to kick him with my feet but that only made him more aggressive.

"it's not my fault that you easily gave yourself to me" he said. he is right, i am the one who gave myself to him.

"YOU FILTHY SICK BASTARD" i screamed as he went deeper inside me. this is not pleasure, this is torture.

"PLEASE GET OFF ME" i screamed again. his lips now moved to my neck as he started biting it, so hard to a point where i know that there will be blood on my neck.

"i know you are enjoying this" he said and i cried even more. then, the door went flying, and John was ripped off me, i looked around and i found Edward, Oscar, Elias and four more men. i stood up, as i watched Edward beat the living hell out of John, a part of me was happy seeing him like this, but i knew that whatever the kind of pain he is going through will not be compared to mine. i fixed my clothes as i walked outside the room. and i can feel someone follow behind me.

"i know that i was late" his voice said from behind me as i walked outside this filthy place. i totally ignored him as i made my way to the port, luckily it's not that far.

"listen to me" he said but i started walking faster as i tried to ignore the pain between my legs.

"Clay" he said again. then he grabbed my wrist and i was quick to turn around and push him as hard as i could.

"do not touch me" i said as a new set of tears escaped my eyes. i looked at him and i can see guilt form up in his crystal eyes.

"i did what you asked me to do, and you made a promise to follow behind me, and when did you appear? when he was almost done. now leave me the hell alone" i screamed. the tears never managed to stop falling.

"i know that i was late Clay" he said and i turned around and walked away.

"save your excuses to yourself" i screamed without even turning around. and i no longer felt him behind me as i walked further and further away.

"how did the mission go?" Stephen happily asked as i placed my foot on the main deck. i turned around and i found everyone there. they all looked at me waiting for an answer. 

"ask your captain" i said as i made my way to the glass door.

"what happened kid?" Stephen followed behind me. i kept walking until i was standing in front of my room, i turned around and Stephen was behind me.

"leave me alone" i said, but he gave me a pity look.

"tell me what happened kid, it's fine" he said. and as soon as he said this, new tears escaped my eyes.

"he promised me Stephen, he promised me that he will be right behind me. but he was not there. John, he touched me in ways you can not imagine. in ways that i hoped to forget from my past but he made me go there, and brought back the memories that i hoped to never go through again when i first came here. then your bloody captain came, he came after i gave up" i screamed, and i am pretty sure that everyone heard. and Stephen just looked at me with sadness on his face.

"you guys made me jump so you can trust me and you did, now it's my turn to trust you all" i said, then i turned around and i walked inside my room and i locked the door. i jumped on the bed and i kept crying until my eyes betrayed me and closed.