If Only

Little Girl

9 - Little Girl.

Tracey wasn't my first ever girlfriend, but she was my first ever serious girlfriend. Although she went to another school, her house was still close to my home so we met up a lot. And she was great.

"When are you meeting my friends?" she asked, her hand in mine. I was about to introduce her to Haze.

"Soon, I guess."

"Maybe next week? And what's Haze like?"

"He's great. We've known each other for a while so..."

She laughed. "You're so cute! You're like a girl, you know that?"

She always called me cute, which I always doubted. Shouldn't she call me hot or sexy? But she seemed to like the fact that I was cute. It was different to her compared to other boys.

"Sometimes I can't believe you're still a virgin," she grinned sneakily.

"I told you not to ever mention that!"

I was sure that most of the boys in my class were still virgins, which was expected in a small town like ours. Only those with serious girlfriends did have s*x and everyone expected those couples to get married sooner or later. But Tracey was almost like an alien. She was from a larger village, and went to the notorious school in our area, where most people lose their virginity before leaving school.

Sometimes we did get close to a point where we took our shirts off, but I was brought up believing that my first time would be with the girl I would end up marrying and for some reason I had high doubts about Tracey being the one.

We reached Haze's cafe and Hannah saw us before going back into the kitchen. She was still annoyed at me, but I barely thought about it. Haze made his way towards us.

"Hey! Is this Tracey? " he asked, his eyes widening slightly. I did tell him that she was hot, but he didn't expect it to that level, especially in this town.

"Yeah. Tracey, this is Haze, " I told her.

She smiled warmly at him and squeezed my hand slightly.

"So, do you own this cafe?" she asked, and soon we were all making conversation.

Hannah came out eventually, to serve people and made her way to us.

"You guys want anything? " she asked, eyeing Tracey. I felt guilty about Tracey having to meet Hannah, but I knew she'd cope.

"I'll just have water, thanks, " said Tracey. I asked Hannah for a coke, avoiding her questioning gaze.

"This is my sister, Hannah, by the way," said Haze.

"Hey, I'm Tracey," replied Tracey with her perfect smile.

"She's Josh's girlfriend, " said Haze and the disappointment was clear on Hannah's face. And I wasn't the only one to notice.

"Does she have a crush on you or something? " asked Tracey.

I shrugged.

"Poor girl. How old's she? Thirteen, fourteen?"

"Fifteen," I replied.

"Yeah, well you've got me. "she said, before landing her lips on mine. The kiss felt uncomfortable under everyone's stares, and when I broke free, I felt a heavy pang in my chest when I saw Hannah turn away quickly.