Hidden In These Walls

11- No Promises

//External point of view//

He was walking down the cold dark street, clutching his jacket tighter against his body as the wind suddenly struck his skin, oblivious of any danger approaching him. But then, he heard it. He heard the heavy footsteps following him. He didn’t think too much into it at first, but then he couldn’t help but slightly panic as the footsteps followed him with every turn he took. 

Then, he walked straight into the trap. He shouldn’t have walked into that dark alleyway, or maybe he did the right decision because that’s exactly what the following figure behind him wanted.

He was pushed harshly against the wall, his head bumping into the hard stone behind him. The stranger’s hands wrapped around his neck, squeezing slightly; making the frightened boy choke and plead for air. 

As the little terrified boy looked up to meet his stranger’s eyes, a surprised gasp escaped his mouth. He moved backwards against the wall, as if the hard wall would swallow him to make him disappear. 

“So now you’re afraid huh?” The stranger sneered sarcastically.

“W-Wha-“ He tried to talk, but the grip on his neck tightened, interrupting his words.

“Listen to me you f****d up little prick. What you did earlier today angered me to no extent. And trust me, you wouldn’t want me near you when I’m angry. But, then here I am. With you, and ANGRY!”  The raven black haired boy boomed.

 “W-What? I didn’t do a-anything I should regret.” The pathetic boy whimpered, but he still had the nerve to glare at the not so quite stranger anymore.

The stranger’s laughter erupted in this quiet empty street. “You’re seriously saying that you, wimp?! Well, let me refresh your memory pizza boy! Jason Miller! I think you should regret what you did to him! Maybe you will after this!” He yelled before his fist connected with the boy’s nose.

Blood directly gushed out of his nose, running down his mouth to his chin. The boy suddenly gained some strength and collided with the stranger’s body, knocking them both down to the hard concrete.  He managed to throw a painful hit at the tanned boy’s jaw, causing his face to whip to the side. 

Hunter knew it will cause a huge purple bruise.

Anger flared in Hunter’s hazel eyes as he flipped Jared onto his back and straddled his thighs. He started to throw punch after punch to the boy’s face and stomach.

“Did you ever stop to think about Jason’s point of view of all of this?! Did you ever question whether Jay really killed his brother or not?! How could you turn your f*****g back on your best friend when he needed you the most?! Huh?! Answer me!” Hunter’s chest was rising up and down, as he took long shaky breaths.

“Everyone knows he is a bloody murderer! There’s no need to question anything!” Jared replied boldly.

Hunter clutched Jared’s jacket and bumped him further into the ground, causing the latter to wince and squirm under Hunter’s heavy figure.

“He did not kill anybody! Jason is innocent! I swear on my grandfather’s grave that if I ever hear that you beat up Jason again, you won’t ever see the daylight again!” Hunter cared less if anybody heard them out here in this cold night.

“Do you know what you did? Jason isn’t waking up! No matter how much I tried, he isn’t responding. Now I know he will wake up eventually, maybe now, maybe tomorrow; but you ruined our day! It was supposed to be a happy day for Jay, a day that he can forget all his problems with. But you ruined it!”

Hunter wanted nothing more than to eradicate the boy, but Jason might be up. He needs to be by his side when he does.

“I…I-

“Save it! I’m leaving. I don’t want to see you near Jason, you hear?!” Hunter spat before getting up and walking away, leaving the shocked bloody boy behind.

//Hunter//

I really wanted to beat him up more, so desperately. But then I remembered Jason and how he feels when he is on the other side of someone’s fist, so I stopped. I wouldn’t be any different from all the other bullies, and I’m trying to show Jason that he could trust me.

Trust me…Yeah right. 

If he only knew.

Even though Jason kissed me back, I can’t tell him I’m Helda. If I tell him, he wouldn’t want to see me again. He would say that I lied to him and made him believe I care. 

He wouldn’t understand that I really do care, and that Helda was invented because I cared.

I was now back at the hotel, in my room. My angel was still lying on the bed just like I left him. I couldn’t take him to the hospital and get him into deeper trouble. I already know no one would give a flying s**t about him. 

I entered the bathroom to look at my reflection in the mirror. A red mark was standing on my jaw and it would soon turn blue to purple. How will I explain it to Jason if he asked? 

I inspected it for a couple of seconds more and then got out of my clothes and stepped into the warm shower. After I was done, I pulled on a pair of boxers and stepped out of the bathroom. 

Jason’s pail face never changed. He was still soundly asleep. I know he will wake up soon. He should. I already stopped his bleeding and took care of all his marks and bruises. I left him lying under the covers with only his boxers. He was so warm due to the heated room and I didn’t want him to feel uncomfortable. So, I walked to the other side of the bed and laid down next to him.

“Jason, baby, I miss you. Wake up for me angel.” I whispered in his ear while running my fingers over the purple circles on his abdomen.

“Jay?”

No movement, no answer. I sighed and tugged him closer to me. I can sleep it off and hope that he would be the one to wake me up tomorrow.

I felt something press on my jaw, making me wince from the pain. I placed my hand on the thing poking my face and felt an extended finger. My eyes directly opened and I quickly jolted up to look at Jason. His emerald green eyes were staring back at me, while he was checking out my darkened bruise. 

I instantly smothered him with a tight hug, happy he finally was awake.

“Baby, angel, are you okay? How are you feeling? Want anything? What can I get you? I-

“Shh, I’m fine. Stop worrying.” He interrupted me.

I brushed away the loose curls on his forehead aside, and kissed his nose. “I can’t stop, it’s hard. Jay, I’m really sorry! It’s my entire fault. I was the one who insisted we go there and I shouldn’t have left you sitting there alone with him. I’m so sorry, baby.” 

“It’s not your fault Hunt, stop apologizing. What happened with your jaw?”

“Amm, nothing.” s**t! What do I say?

“What did you do?” Jason asked, eying me suspiciously.

“Nothing that I should regret.” I replied instantly.

“Jared isn’t it?” He questioned.

I closed my eyes, and tried to control my sudden heavy breathing. “Yes him, he had no right to do what he did. I’ve been watching you sleeping since yesterday afternoon. Do you think I’m happy seeing you hurt? No, I’m definitely not!”

I felt him place his palm on my jaw gently as her thumb rubbed soothing circles on my cheek. I opened my eyes to see him smiling up at me.

“Thank you, but I don’t want you to get hurt because of me Hunter! Please understand!”

I leaned in and pressed my forehead to his. I felt his breath hitch in his throat spreading a smirk on my lips. I was now hovering over his body, supporting my weight with my elbows on each side of his head.

“No angel, you have to understand that I’d die for you.” I whispered, looking into his perfect sparkling pupils.

His eyes widened at the realization of what I just said. He went to say something but I interrupted him with my lips. I quickly closed the gap between us and pressed my lips to his. A surprised gasp escaped his lips but it was muffled by my mouth. As I moved my hand downwards to place it on the side of his neck, he pulled his own arms around my waist, keeping me close. He pressed his lips harder to mine earning a deep groan from me. I bit his lower lip and started nibbling it softly, which made Jason whimper and pry his mouth open. My tongue slipped inside his warm mouth, reminding me of the second time we kissed.

It was yesterday when I discovered his scars and my angel was so insecure that it hurt my heart. He doesn’t even know how beautiful and handsome and amazing he is, so I’m showing him.

Liam’s kisses were never like Jason’s. Liam was aggressive; he used to kiss me like in any moment he might lose me. His possessiveness made him like that, not caring if he hurt me as long as he gets what he wants.

But Jason, he kisses me so gently and softly, like he is savoring every moment because he knows I’m leaving. He knows he won’t always have me by his side. He just gives in to me, making me lead him. And now as I’m feeling his hands pressed against my naked back, driving me crazy, I know how he is feeling.  I never want to let go either, but it’s sadly not my choice.

I broke our amazing heart fluttering kiss and said, “I would.”

His hands crawled upwards to reach my hair at the base of my neck, and he started pulling at them softly. I really wanted to bounce at him right then, but I restrained myself.

“Hunter, I- I can’t do this.” He muttered.

I looked at him, confused.

“What do you mean, babe?” 

“I can’t keep on kissing you. It’s still weird to me and I’m still confused by my own actions. Mostly, I don’t want to get hurt.” He said while turning his head to the side, looking away.

I placed my palm on his cheek to make him look at me, but he wouldn’t turn.

“Baby, look at me.”  I said while repeating my action.

Once he did, I kissed his nose and said, “I know you’re not gay. I know this feeling is new to you and I don’t want to do anything that makes you run away from me. You didn’t pull away from me when I first kissed you, so I thought you liked it. And angel, I know I can’t promise you anything, but I can tell you that from now on, I live for you.”

Jay directly hugged me again and pressed his face to my chest, his warm breath tickling me slightly. “I did like it Hunter, and that’s why I’m worried. You’re leaving and-

“I’m leaving, but I’m always going to be with you. If not physically then in your heart.” I said, and even though it sounded so cheesy, I didn’t care because it’s true.

“Cheesy.” Jason joked.

“I don’t care.” I said.

“I know.”

After a few minutes of comfortable silence, Jason spoke, “Hunt?”

“Yeah baby?”

“After those two days with you, I can only think about one thing which is that you changed my life. Nothing will ever be the same anymore. And I think that if I die today or any other day, I would be happy to die in your arms because even though I’d be dead, I would still be safe.”

“Don’t talk about death! I can’t stand the idea of you out of this world!” I replied. 

Why was he saying that? He freaking won’t die! God!

“I’m sorry.” He said.

“Stop apologizing. Jason, I-I can give you no promises, but I will come back. I won’t leave you. And you might not know it, but I’m with you every day.”

I was referring to Helda…

Before I knew it, our lips were connected yet again with a passionate kiss. He was afraid and scared and I could feel it, but I will try to make him feel better with any way possible. I broke the kiss and moved downwards to his jaw, nibbling on it playfully. When he didn’t stop me, I moved to his neck; biting on it softly but enough to create a mark. 

Jason is mine, and everyone must know.

Just as Jason started to enjoy this, a knock on the door interrupted us.

I groaned, pushing Jason away gently and walking towards the door. I opened it and I instantly felt like I’ve been smacked in the face.

“What the hell are you doing here?!” I spat at his pathetic prick of a face.

“I-I’m here to fix things.” He replied.

“Fix things?! Why now after four years huh? There is nothing to fix! Who let you up here?!” I was so angry that I could have round two with him right now.

“Who is it Hunt?” I heard Jason ask from behind me.

“No one, I’ll be right back.” I said.

“Please, please let me talk to him.” Jared pleaded.

“Jared?” Jason was now standing next to me in all his shirtless glory. 

“Go put a shirt on.” I said. 

Jason looked at me, amused. Yeah, glad I amuse you.

“What are you doing here?” Jason ignored me and looked back at the dickhead.

“Can we talk please?” Jared asked.

Jason was surprised. It was evident and so obvious by the look on his face. He was torn between letting him in and shutting the door in his face.

He took a long breath and muttered, “Okay, come in.”

I didn’t want him near my angel after what he did to him yesterday. But, if Jay wants this then I have no other choice but to accept it.

I quickly put on a sweatpants and a hoodie and said, “Then I’ll leave you two alone.”

Jason directly grasped my hand, looking at me with his wide watery eyes. “Don’t leave. Stay with me Hunt.” 

I nodded. “Not leaving, put a shirt on.” 

My angel smiled, and took the shirt I offered him to put it on. He looked so hot in my clothes that I wish this bastard wasn’t in the room right now.

I sat on the bed with Jason right by my side, snuggled up beside me. Jared was walking back and forth in front of the bed silently, testing my patience.

“Would you spit it out already?” I grunted.

He directly looked up at Jason and started his boring speech.

//Jason//

I’m glad Hunter didn’t leave me here alone with him. I was scared he might hit me again.

I clutched Hunter’s hand tighter as Jared started talking.

“Jason I… I know that I’m too late for this and I know that I hurt you a lot but I’m here to apologize. Your friend made me realize how wrong I have been and I couldn’t sleep last night, just thinking about the “what ifs”. What if I you’re right? What if you really didn’t kill Mason? I should have listened to you when you needed me, but I didn’t. I-I’m so sorry Jason. I’m so sorry.”

“You think saying sorry will fix everything up?” Hunter started again, but I placed my other hand on his arm to stop him.

“You should have known that I wouldn’t do such a thing. I’m your best friend and you were my only friend! You knew the real me like no one other did!” I said.

“I-I know! You’re right. I don’t know what to say anymore.” Jared said.

“What about yesterday? Do you hate me that much to even get to the point of killing me?” 

“No! I guess I was angry that you found a new friend other than me and I have no right I know! I was the one who left you and I’m the one to be blamed. I’m sorry Jay.” 

“It’s Jason. Not Jay, Jason!” Hunter said. Wow, why is he so jealous and possessive all of a sudden?

I ignored him and said, “Hunter is not just a friend and you should respect that. Can you do that without calling me a fag and a queer?” I retorted.

“Y-Yes, yes I can! Just please forgive me Jason. I really miss you and I regret everything I did. Please let us have a new start and I promise I’ll stand by you and help you.” Jared was now desperately pleading for my forgiveness.

I was really shocked. Did Hunter make him open his eyes and realize his mistake? 

Hunter was too good to be true.

I love him. Yes I do. But I can’t, I can’t love him. How can a person enter your life and change it and your entire feelings in just two days? 

But, he said he can’t promise me anything but here is Jared promising me something.

Maybe I can have Jared helping me while Hunter is gone. Maybe I won’t be on my own after all.

But can I trust him again?

Can I forgive him?

“Baby, it’s your choice. Do what you think is best.” Hunter whispered in my ear.

I looked up and my eyes locked with his worried ones. I won’t have him here for long, and I need him.

I need someone next to me. If it’s not Hunter, then who? Jared?

Maybe.

But he would never fill in Hunter’s place. 

No promises, but I’ll hang on to this one.