Dangerous To Love

Chapter 14

Kyle's POV.

As I heard her story I felt unbearable pain. I can't believe my love had to live through things like this. Yes, anyone can think that she just made it up, but the sad truth is that many of us lived through such horrible things that no one should ever have lived through. But we hide ourselves. Nearly from all the people around us. We are lucky if we have at least one person in this world who we can open up fully. I would like to be the one for Natasha. I am sad that she didn't even fully trust Leo. Which means she lived her life in the deepest sorrow not showing her heart to anyone. No wonder why she is afraid to show it to me. Until today. And damn that this attack was needed. She didn't deserve it. She didn't f*****g deserve this whole suffering. I am as mad as depressed. And about that bastard who hurt and raped her. I could kill him. Without thinking. She hurt my love so deeply that maybe she will never recover from it. Everything is so messed up. Natasha is laying on the couch, a blanket around her. She looks so beautiful but so hurt. If I could carry her pain I would without doubt. I have never thought I can love someone like I love this girl right here next to me. She has tears in her eyes, and she turned her head away from me.

"Please, don’t turn away from me babe. I love you. You hear me? Don't ever be ashamed in front of me. You have nothing to be ashamed of. I love you the way you are, every inch of you. '

With this I started to plant soft kisses to her body. I kissed her neck and slowly went further down on her body to show her that I do adore every inch of her body. She turned her head towards me still tears in her eyes:

"Kyle, don’t. I am disgusting. I don't deserve any of your touches and kisses."

But I won't let it go now. It's not my s****l attraction to her. It's for showing her that I want her. I want her soul, her heart and her body as well.

"Shhh...I never wanna hear that you are disgusted with yourself. I love you Natasha. You are the most pure thing ever. What he did to you is not your fault. Nothing is your fault. And you need to acknowledge it. I want you. I don't want to just f**k you. You don't deserve that. You deserve to be made love to. I want you. Your imperfections are making you perfect. Perfect for me. And all we need is to find that someone who sees as perfect as imperfect we are. And you are that woman for me. "

With that I kissed her lips as gentle as I could. I know I shouldn't push her to have s*x, but I just need to show her what she truly deserves. She can close up at this time so much that she could never be able to have a deeper s****l relationship. Of course, we were together already but not before she told me everything. And she could say that she is disgusted with herself. I need to show her that her body is not for someone's pleasure than thrown out as garbage.

I caressed her whole body, kissed every inch of her and told her how much I loved her a million times. I needed to calm her. I didn't want her to cry. She will never cry again when having s*x, I can make sure of that. No woman should ever cry then.

"You are the one to make this decision love. I won't ever push you into something. Trust me. And do what you really wanna do. I am here. I am never leaving you. "

"I love you Kyle. I need you. It's so hard. It's never been that hard. I do trust you. And I want nothing else than make love to you. " And with that she kissed me hard. But I knew we have to be careful how we are doing this.

As I pulled away, I gently caressed her cheek and told her:

"We are not in a rush. And we are not doing it rough. I will take care of you. You will tell me whenever you feel uncomfortable right? And tell me when you feel the slightest hint of pain

I will be as gentle to you as you deserve. You need to believe that you deserve it Natasha. And when you finally started to love yourself than we can rest our limits."

I needed to say this cause now when I feel that she wants it rough it's because she doesn't accept herself that she deserves gentleness.

She came closer to me and let me take the lead so I gave her my everything paying attention to her and not to mention that she is not in a good physical condition as well as emotional.

But she just let me go whatever I wanted to do to her so I planned on giving her the pleasures she so deserved.

After we both reached our climax, I was just laying with her in my arms and didn't plan to let her go. She was smiling for the first time after so many tears of this day and I kissed her cheeks as many times that I was able to get a giggle out of her. Oh God how much I missed this giggle. I am praying that I could make one step today with her and she will open up to me more and let me heal her. I was hugging her for half an hour now when I just realised she had fallen asleep. And then it just hit me with sadness that all in all she is in pain, and we are just at half of the risky 3-day treatment, but I prayed that we would survive this and everything together in our life.