8 July 1928 8 July 1928Why did he do this? Why didn’t he get lost? Jay turned up at Krishna Society yesterday. I cannot tell you the pain I felt in my heart. All I want to do was hold him and cry. But I did no such thing, of course. I managed to construct a smile out of my broken heart and held out a hand for him to shake. He took it. Ah, that old touch again. Why did he do this? Why didn’t he get lost? Jay turned up at Krishna Society yesterday. I cannot tell you the pain I felt in my heart. All I want to do was hold him and cry. But I did no such thing, of course. I managed to construct a smile out of my broken heart and held out a hand for him to shake. He took it. Ah, that old touch again.I asked him what he was doing here. He said he wanted to see me one last time before he got marr

