The Alphas Daughter

“I hate you”

After we’ve finished making love, we sort ourselves out, I adjust my dress and try to tame my hair, I’m sure I’ve probably got leaves in it.

I turn to look at James and he has a sad expression on his face, my brain automatically thinks back to the s*x “was it not good for him” I must of said it out loud and he looks and me and says “no, Riley it’s not that, I have to do something and I really don’t want to” I feel worry slowly pierce my heart, I think I know what’s coming.

“James, if you don’t want to do something then you shouldn’t, no one can force you to do anything” I slowly say looking at the floor.

His places his face in his hands and I hear him sigh “I’m sorry, Ri, I have to do this”

“I James Martins, reject you, Riley Manning”

My heart instantly shatters and I scream, a pain comes over me that I’ve never felt, it feels like every sad event you’ve had in your life, every time you’ve been scared, every time you’ve been emotionally hurt, combine all of those and that’s half of the feeling of being rejected. I’m in a ball on the cold forest floor… a hysterical mess, James standing over me trying to comfort me.

I quickly get to my feet and I punch James in the chest and scream at him “You bastard! You knew you wasn’t going to accept our bond and you still had s*x with me, why? So you could say you banged the alphas daughter, so you could go and proudly announce to all of your possy that you took someone’s virginity”

“No Riley, you know I would never do that to you” James shouted. He was starting to get angry.

“How dare you be angry at me, how dare you raise your f*****g voice to me, you’ve done the worst thing you could ever do to me James, you’ve destroyed me.” I sob

He goes to place a hand on my shaking shoulder and I slap it away

“Don’t ever f*****g touch me again” I scream, im rooted to the spot, anger has taken over every fibre of my being and I don’t think I can control it, Romy is whining in my head, feeling the same pain as me, she’s so scared and panicking.

He is looking at the ground like an absolute coward.

“Look at me” I growl.

He slowly looks at my face and sadness sweeps over his.

“I hate you, don’t ever talk to me, in fact don’t even look at me, from now on you walk past me like you don’t know me, you’re a monster James.” and with that I walk off, I have no idea what impact my words had on him, I didn’t waste my time to look. I put my head down and sob, a hard, breath taking sob, I’m struggling to breath, but i can’t let that bastard see what he’s done to me. I know I just need to get home, to feel safe! I walk as fast as a can back to my house, Romy is whining the whole way home, her sadness is adding to my pain. My poor wolf, she didn’t deserve this.

As I walk out of the forest I can see the hall across the field, the party is still in full force, people singing and laughing, I’m just hoping I don’t bump into anyone from the pack on the way back to our apartment. Me, my father and Mark live in the penthouse of the pack house. Perks of being the offspring of the Alpha!

I never realised how far my bedroom was until now, all I wanted was to get into bed and sob. This scenario had never entered my mind, me being rejected and alone, especially not by a life long friend like James. I can’t let Mark find out, he would skin him alive. We don’t always see eye to eye and probably don’t talk to each other more often than talk, but he is protective when he needs to be, I guess its the Alpha in him, and after our mum died that protectiveness got deeper. Our father was a red blooded alpha, he loved us but would never show it, we may get a pat on the shoulder if we did something good, but affection was just not in his blood, the only person he ever showed love too was my mother.

I guess he was just a product of his father, Grandpa Elliott- who was the same towards my father, but towards me he was different, he cuddled me when I was sad, patched me up when I was hurt and praised me when he was proud, he died the night before my 16th birthday and my heart has never been whole since, I miss Grandpa so much, I wish he was here now.

I reach the penthouse, my eyes feel heavy, but not as heavy as my heart. I just want to die. I don’t think I can carry on like this. But I know I don’t have a choice! I am strong, I’m of Alpha blood! I will survive. No one will ever know about this. I know I won’t tell anyone, out of humiliation more than anything, and if James has got half a brain cell he won’t go talking about either. Unless he wants to die young. I know Mark would have something to say about all of this!

James:

“I can’t believe I’ve just had the best s*x with the love of my life and now I have to end it” a sinking feeling entres my stomach and I know what I have to do.

I didn’t realise my face was so easy to read and that’s when I hear Riley ask “was it not good for him” my heart shatters.

“No, Riley it’s not that, I have to do something I don’t really want to” I reply sadly. I see the expression on her beautiful face, I think she knows what’s coming next. I place my face in my hands. I think I might cry. I need to get this over with for both of our sakes, so she can move on.

“I’m sorry Ri, I have to do this” and before I could even compose myself I said the words every wolf dreads “I, James Martins, reject you, Riley Manning”

Riley falls to the floor in a ball of sadness a piercing scream comes from her mouth. I can’t take this, I can’t be responsible for hurting her. I feel my heart break, Clint is howling in my mind, shouting, asking why have I done this. She looks so vulnerable in a sobbing ball on the floor, and I’m the bastard responsible.

Riley quickly gets back to her feet, and with all her force punches me in the chest.

She looks at me with pain and heart ache in her eyes “You bastard! You knew you wasn’t going to accept our bond and you still had s*x with me, why? So you could say you banged the alphas daughter, so you could go and proudly announce to all of your possy that you took someone’s virginity”

I feel anger rise from my core, how can she think so low of me!

“No Riley, you know I would never do that to you” I reply in a harsh tone. But I think this may of just fulled an already raging fire. Riley looks at me with pure anger and replies “How dare you be angry at me, how dare you raise your f*****g voice to me, you’ve done the worst thing you could ever do to me James, you’ve destroyed me. She starts to cry, I hate seeing her cry. I always have done even when we was young and Mark used to make her cry by calling her Iley Riley over and over again. I try to place a hand on her sobbing shoulder but she slaps it away before I get to touch her soft skin

“Don’t ever f*****g touch me again” she’s screaming at me now. And I feel my heart smash. I feel like I’m about to sob, I stare at the floor, I can’t let her see me cry. She can’t see how weak I actually am. With a low growl she says “look at me” each word filled with seething hot anger.

I raise my head, trying to hide the sadness. I don’t want to seem weak, I did just reject her after all because of a promise I made 8 years ago.

She looks at me with her eyes filled with hate, and then she says “I hate you, don’t ever talk to me, in fact don’t even look at me, from now on you walk past me like you don’t know me, you’re a monster James.” Before I can reply she has her back to me and is walking away. I drop to my knees and tears fall down my face, I’ve hurt her in the worst way, and now she hates me. And I whisper through my tears “I’m so sorry Ri.”

I watch her tiny frame fade into the distance, every fibre in my body is telling me to chase her, but instead I stay on the forest floor, I put my head in my hands and I sob. “f**k you mark for making me promise”