meth mimics mania

first ideations

On my worst days I have to try to forget the fact that you lived

because if I can do that I can forget that you did what you did

I know it was because you thought you were the reason I lost my kid

So you made sure that was the last sober thing that you ever did

Evan Williams and Jack Daniels if you're sober take two sips

when the whiskey isn't strong enough you chase it with a hit

You'll do anything to feel nothing

Or something different than this

You're happy that they don't love you you won't be somebody messed

you just a heroin junkie and you can't get out off the floor

You haven't slept in days and you don't want to anymore

You walk around in a daze you don't know what life has in store

You say you tried it all but you never tried sober before

I know you're going to hate it but you have to get lost in a room with yourself

Yes you're gonna feel all of the insults you have to wish you were somebody else

You have to have no way of ending it

Have you ever just felt what you felt

Then you have to accept that you're the only one with the cards you're dealt

But others feel the same

Even though their story is theirs

everybody's broken so it's hard to tell who cares

Did they grow up like your sister

that was always death threats and nightmares

She thought the ones that were mistreating her with the only ones that cared

You didn't know how to help her all you know that life isn't fair

But hearing her tell the stories was a bit too much to bear

Your mom was the evil one but she always needed a place to blame

It didn't matter who it was, you or Dad ,it's all the same at least you can get away with it as she drives everyone insane

She never tried to help you

watched you put the needle in the vein

Your dad got sober with you

he hasn't drank a beer since the journey begun

I couldn't imagine being sober I lost my only son

Are you still having to see it all

the terrible things she's done

Your mom was slowly killing you

before your life begun

Your mother never loved you

and she stopped you're heart for fun

I wonder if this was part of the plan

if this is what life was

No one else is going through it

But there's some that can relate

I wish you were here to tell you

That the negative has a face

I'm finally gonna get through it

But for you I was to late

If I would have killed it sooner

Was there a way you could have stayed

Did you think that you would wake up

Was it your heart you wanted to stop

Did you finally hit Rock bottom

And you saw no way to the top

Did your mom let you put it in your vein

She said say I love you I love you not

You screamed for God to send a prayers

And I was all you got