I Love You, Mi Amor

Chapter 2 The Real Identity

I don't know why I feel like I am lost right now. Why doesn't he even try to tell me about what happened? I feel like I'm just nothing to him. At this moment, I'm having dinner with myself. When someone suddenly came and asked.…

"Hey? Are you alone?" The man said.

I am not familiar with this guy so I did not reply. But his face is so annoying.

" I'm not, I am with these two ladies beside me. Can't you see?"

Haha, look how that man feels terrified. Because there's no one in here.

"You're crazy!"! He said then left. Hahaha so funny.

I can't hold myself but laugh so loud because of what he said. He did not even realize that I was just joking.

"Hello! Haha!!, Claire, haha where are you? Thanks for answering. I'm sorry. I'll be right there in a moment."

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The customers are watching me.

I think I have to get away from here. I remembered that I said something to Claire that made her upset. So now, I am going to her house. I'll grab some food and wine to celebrate the day. I did not eat well at the restaurant. Therefore, she will ask about what happened.

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"Wow! Why did you bring so much food in here? I thought you're with him?" Claire said it like someone is chasing her.

"Yes, but he just left me at the restaurant."

I am really sad about it, but maybe there are more important matters aside from having dinner with me.

"Wait, I know what you're thinking now, Jovia. Please, move on. You have to let go of the past. That man doesn't deserve your tears."

"I just can't help it, Claire. I have all I need, I think. I have my own house and properties. I have my degree, I have a business. I have shared it with my family. I did good deeds. Yet, why I can't feel that I have everything. Do I deserve this? " I said while crying like I baby can't eat her favorite sweets.

" You can cry as long as you want, Besty. I understand your pain. What you did was right for you. Give yourself a chance to be happy, it's not your fault. " Claire said while hugging and tapping my back.

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"I think I like him, Claire," I said.

" Did I hear it right? You like him, isn't it ?"

Claire said.

"Yes, Claire. Lately, he is sending me some flowers, chocolates, and letters. Asking for a time when we can talk and eat together." I said it like my heart is melting full of love.

"But I am afraid you couldn't hold the pain. You still have plans right? I mean we still have plans for our future career and life." I can feel her worries saying that.

"Claire, you shouldn't. Everything's going to be alright. God is with us right ?" I said positively.

"Well, yeah. I know that. Fine, I'll be here to support your decision." She said

"Thank you Beshy!!." I said happily.

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At the moment I am writing my reply to one of his letters.

June 9, 2013

Dear Mr. Falcon,

You're amazed, right ?!

I just want to say that.

I agree to eat dinner with you later.

See you at 6 pm.

Meet me in the lobby.

Love,

Nylé

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I am in the lobby. I thought he's here already. It's half past six but I can't see his shadow coming. I don't know why I feel like trash now. I think I didn't write some negative words in my letter. Why is he not here?

"Why you're not here yet, Gie Ar," I whispered.

While looking at the field. I didn't notice that I am now crying.

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*I just can't help but cry remembering those damn memories*

" Beshy, thank you for being here with me…, maybe, I can't handle myself if I don't have you since we're in college. I feel like I am so stupid in terms of love. Why I couldn't feel that I am nothing for him. "

"Besh, don't mention it. I will always be here for you. That's what friends are for, right?"

Said she.

" Thank you, Besh. I think I can't stay longer now. For sure my dad is looking for me." I said between our hugs.

"Right! I was about to say that. He called me a while ago. I just said you're with that guy." She said it straight.

"What?! That's embarrassing. Maybe he's thinking that we both knew each other." I shouted calmly to her.

"So what? I think it's fine Besh. You're old enough to have a boyfriend." She said it like there's nothing to worry about at all.

"Bessshhhhhh!! I don't want him to think that I am wasting his treasures given to me." I said without holding myself to cry out loud.

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My life began when I found out that I was abandoned by my biological parents when I was a child. I was in 3rd-year college at that time but the memories are still fresh in my mind.

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" You should not take that child Carmela !" Charly said. My stepfather.

" How could you say that Charly!? Did you even mind how much Jovia loves our family? How does she sacrifice some of her happiness to let our children be happy? While you are there drunk and wasted!"

Mom shouted while those tears were racing on her face.

" Carmela, look! That child is very rich. Did you ever think of that? He said angrily while grabbing my mother's face.

" He will never get my Nylé."

She said it while whispering to my stepfather because she saw me.

" Mother, what happened? " I asked even if I heard everything.

" It's nothing, dear. Your father is just drunk." She said while wiping her tears.

" He's always drunk. I don't know why you're still staying here."

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I love my mother. I couldn't leave her here with my siblings. I can bear the pain, I know there's a better place for us in the future if I wait.

After a month, a man is looking at me. He is old but not as old as seniors. He is around his 40's. He walked in front of me and asked.

"Hello, I am Mikael Victor Samonte." He said professionally.

"Hi, Mr. Samonte? How may I help you, are you lost ?" I said.

" Honestly, not. I'm looking for Mr. Charly Queen. Do you know him?" Said him.

"Yes, he is my father," I said gracefully.

"Is he around?" He added.

"Yes. But he is drunk today" I said anxiously.

*Why is this man is so chatty*

When I saw my father. I didn't think that he's my real father. But, when we talked, I could feel his blood on my veins. I can feel that we are connected. We chatted for a day. I didn't think about what may happen to me. When I got home, my stepmother was standing in front of the door with my stepfather.

" Good evening, Mr. Samonte! Come in. Welcome to my home." My stepfather said.

" Nylé, why are you with him !" Mother grabbed me beside her and asked through whispers.

"Mom, he said that he's your friend. He asked me to go out with him and eat dinner together. Don't worry, I'm fine. Did you eat your dinner already?"

" I didn't, I was worried about you." Mother said and about to cry…

" I'm sorry, I wasn't able to ask permission. I didn't think about it when I started talking to him.". I said.

"There's something I want to tell you, Nylé."

Mother said.

" What's the matter? Mom. Why are you crying like that?"

" He is your biological father."

*I didn't know what to react to the things that just happened*

" Charly, contact him because he wants that money. I don't want you to leave dear but this is what is best for you." She said without holding her tears to drop.

" Mother, I don't want to leave you and my siblings here. I Won't be happy without you." I said between our hugs.

" Don't let other people stop you from your dreams, Nylé. I know you have many ambitions. I don't want you to waste them because of us."

" But, I am doing all these because I love you and my siblings. My dreams are not for me but for us. Mother, please don't let him take me away." I shouted at her.

"Forgive me, Nylé. I love you. Goodbye."

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When she said those words. My father's bodyguards came along to get me.

" Let's go, Nylé."

He said.

" Let me go!!!." I screamed and burst my tears down but I can't let go of these men.

" Okay, I'll go with you. Just don't hold me as I have sinned."

" Young lady! Come back here ! " the guards said.

"Let her go, Dave." That's what my so-called father said.

That's the last word I have heard when I run fast and hide.

Here I am at the church near my school. No one can find me here. I just want to express what I feel today.

"Oh God, why is this happening? Please, tell me...what have I done wrong ?!!"

" I am righteous, I am doing what's good and best for me. I loved my family. I do good work at school"

" Lord, please help me… help me not to think this way. I don't like this feeling that no one cares for me… "

"Why did they abandon me?"

"I am living my life with my family and now he wants to get me from the family that I am used to ?"

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"All I remembered was that last night as I was crying out loud so that no one could see me. But when I wake up, everything's changed. As I read the letter left under the chair that I'm laying.

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My dearest Nylé,

Why did you run? Are you worried? Are you afraid? If you say yes, that means you don't trust the Lord. You trusted me to take care of you, and you loved me even though I don't deserve it for not telling the truth. How much more with the love from your real parents?

Dear, I know that it will be hard for you to adjust. But they are your parents. There may be some reasons why they left you behind. And that one reason is for you to meet us.

I and Charly were longing to have a child. In my 30's, after our first child died, we are always asking the Lord to bless us as a child again. As we went out of this church, I saw you crying inside a comfortable basket. With your name in a ring "Jovia Samonte ". That's your real name. After we carried you back home. I have experienced the symptoms of pregnancy after 3 years of being with you. I know that you are confused now why you have 9 siblings yet I got you in my thirties. Well, that is because your father or Charly has five children from his previous wife. His wife died because of cancer after staying together for eight years. We became in a relationship for two years and we got married in our leaving to30’s. Our first baby is John, then Camille and Cammy came along. Anyway, I think I'm writing too much and I know for sure you're crying again. I will end this message by saying '' Give yourself a chance to live the life you deserve and your parents to show how much they love you more"

Don't worry about us, you can still visit and see your siblings. I did not wake you up because I know you will not do the right thing if you saw me crying beside you. I love you so much, dear. Keep safe and always pray, have faith, and never lose hope.

Your Dearest Mother,

Carmel

After reading, there is so much realization in my mind. And so I pray.

Dear God,

Thank you for everything you have given to me. Yet, I am sinned for not trusting you. Please forgive me for doubting your plans for me. Please guide me all through this way of success. In Jesus' name, I pray.

Amen,

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"This is it! I can do it!"I'm saying these phrases as I walk to my school. I still have dreams to pursue so I don't want to let this situation win my emotion. As I entered the classroom, I observed that my classmates were all staring at me.

"What's the matter? is there something wrong with my face?"

"!$%$&&(^%(*(&^%@%^&*()!@#$%^&*()" because they are all murmuring. I can't hold my voice to speak out.

"SHUT UP!!,I DIDN'T COME HERE TO LISTEN TO ALL YOUR GOSSIPS!!"

And that's it, and I was not able to hold my temper and burst those words with tears. I didn't want to miss my classes, But I think the best way to relieve myself is to run out of that place. I did not call Claire because she's studying the lessons for this coming exam.

I'm here at the corner of our school ground under this mango tree. Looking at the kids running and playing around with different activities. I saw a man walking towards me, and guess who? Well, he is one of the most famous athletes in our school. I don’t know his name but all I know is that he is one of Jay’s team.

"Why are you alone.?" he asked frankly.

“ Why are you asking?” I replied sarcastically.

“ Well, I just want to know.” He said.

“ Why do you want to know?” I said.

“ It’s because someone asked me to do it,” said him.

“ It’s none of your business, okay? Could you leave me! I wanted to be alone. That’s why I’m here. So, could you please do that?!!” I said it furiously.

“ Fine, calm down okay,” he said

Right now, I just don't know what to feel or what to do. It was later that Jay was not around and this situation happened. have told myself not to think of him anymore after leaving me hanging and waiting for him in the hallway….

"Ouch,!!"

And that hits me so bad.

"Who did that ?!"

Me asking loudly the football players on the field.

"I'm sorry, I didn't mean to do that," the man said.

This man again…

" Are you kidding me? I know that you knew that I am here so why were you hitting the ball this way?" I said angrily without pausing.

"WAIT! can you please calm down?" He said while covering my mouth with his index finger.

"Firstly, I said. It was an accident. Secondly, I understand that you've been through something these days. So can you keep yourself away from anybody else? Have a rest, Ms. Queen, that's what you need"

After he said that, he walked away. That’s better. We are not friends but he is acting weird these days. Well, I usually saw him with Jay so maybe they are friends.

"Whatever!"

I shouted without thinking he may hear it or not and walked away.